It has been my fourth day in K.L. now. Yet another day past by, today yet another different thing happen.
Yesterday, i have went to Federal Hotel to eat with Hui Lin family's. It is a revolving restaurant, itis my first time of going to such restaurant. Thanks to Hui Lin's family, i am able to experience such wonderful dinner. Today, i went to another restaurant to eat.. i think is cal Hau Kee... not bad also very nice... but most wonderful thing is Hui Lin's is able to invite Yo to come along as well. They are really great and wonderful family who are so freindly.
Hm... What really make me nervous and nervous was going out for a day tour with Yoshiko, her sisters and mum. Scared me so much really very nervous. First, we go to KL Tower then to the Memorial Area for WW2 soldier and then to Starbuck near yo's house and later when to her place. Back at her place, i met her dad and chat with him. I was really nervous at first but later get a bit comfortable but Hui Lin and pick us up... Well.... that what i do today.... What is important about today was my feeling.
It was really strange as i never expect this trip and spend so long time with Yoshiko's family. It was really a good oppurtunity for me to understand Yo's family. I might not be able to be with Yoshiko but knowing her family is for the good of me. They are really such nice people like Lin's family. i really don't know i am really touch by thier warm welcoming and reception.
I might be wierd but i hope to spend more time with yo's family after today to know her parents more and to know how they might feel towards me of cause not to miss out how yo's might feel towards me. i know i am not prefect but at least i know what standard i am in thier eye... good? or bad? Some people may say as long as you love her, you no need to worry about the parents but to me i guess after Steph incident's i will consider about what the parents feel towards me and i wish to show them what i am capable at and what is my good and bad points not to hide anything from them. Hope they will like me. :D
Well that's for today...... updated all of you soon
Monday, 27 December 2004
Sunday, 26 December 2004
The Changing Phase Of Life
It has been ahwile since i feel my life is changing agian. It all come along as i was having my holiday in Malaysia since 22 December 2004, where i am at still. I have enter the country with full of worries and blurness at first until meet my love one, Yoshiko and couple of freinds here as well as my cousin in Malaysia. It shows to me that i am incapable of working in Malaysia and it is stupid for me to give up my oppurtunity to continue my study when i still have chance.
Many thoughts have came to my mind as days past by between Yo and me. She has not only influence my decision a lot but my personality. I know i might not be the guy for her now or in the future but her continue support towards me as a friend is really amazing which i wish it will last forever. During the down time, you may be the cruelest person towards me and hurt me the most but you have show me the different side of friendship and love. I know you are of a different kind from me and i am not the ideal person for you but yet you give me the oppurtunity to try to understand you more and guide me to become a better person. I have decided now that if i got the chance to do my further studies i will take the chance and i will be a successful person and fulfil my dreams.
Between two of us, i really hope that the time will tell. I will leave it to the fate and trust that is inside me. I know i haven't been a very lucky person for my entire life in term of love and suffer many failure cause by myself in entering the wrong relationship but i will never give up hope of taking another chance. So there will not be different this time, knowing you have a bf i will not give up hope that there might be a chance for us to be together. People always say Love is Blind. it is true love is blind and Love is also unfair.
As for my Dine Dine cehceh, the word you say to me before is still in my head. I know i am stubborn when i choose to go after Yo. You have told me to take any consequence i should take for my actions. i will never forget that and keep it in my mind that everything i do now might have a sudden attack on me causing myself to be hurt once more but i have enter this passage and i will fight my through the tough road.
As for Hui Lin, i know you have been there helping me without complaining, i know you have been very understanding and try to help me espaically during times of trouble and sometime give you a lot of difficulties like staying at your place and driving me around and to meet Yoshiko.... Thanks for being such a nice friend and support me. Have a good time in Malaysia...
As for Tiffany and Kah Mun, thanks for being there to listen to my probelms and share our time together in Perth and Malaysia (although it is short) but it is meaningful. I really feel that sometimes i should just don;t have any gf and love life. Fully enjoy my friendship life happily without worrying about all those probelm.. hehehe.... but too bad i can't cause i met Yo.
And to all my friends, thanks ..... thankss..... thanksss...... i wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Every year is a new beginning to a new chapter of a new story.... hope all of you will have a good year. This year i might have a very unhappy year... but i will never give up striving for the better year coming ahead.
I will updated my trip in Malaysia soon... i will leave today blog for this... :D summary.. met some very very cute, nice, funny and kind people like Hui Lin family's, Yoshiko family's and Mun family's.
Many thoughts have came to my mind as days past by between Yo and me. She has not only influence my decision a lot but my personality. I know i might not be the guy for her now or in the future but her continue support towards me as a friend is really amazing which i wish it will last forever. During the down time, you may be the cruelest person towards me and hurt me the most but you have show me the different side of friendship and love. I know you are of a different kind from me and i am not the ideal person for you but yet you give me the oppurtunity to try to understand you more and guide me to become a better person. I have decided now that if i got the chance to do my further studies i will take the chance and i will be a successful person and fulfil my dreams.
Between two of us, i really hope that the time will tell. I will leave it to the fate and trust that is inside me. I know i haven't been a very lucky person for my entire life in term of love and suffer many failure cause by myself in entering the wrong relationship but i will never give up hope of taking another chance. So there will not be different this time, knowing you have a bf i will not give up hope that there might be a chance for us to be together. People always say Love is Blind. it is true love is blind and Love is also unfair.
As for my Dine Dine cehceh, the word you say to me before is still in my head. I know i am stubborn when i choose to go after Yo. You have told me to take any consequence i should take for my actions. i will never forget that and keep it in my mind that everything i do now might have a sudden attack on me causing myself to be hurt once more but i have enter this passage and i will fight my through the tough road.
As for Hui Lin, i know you have been there helping me without complaining, i know you have been very understanding and try to help me espaically during times of trouble and sometime give you a lot of difficulties like staying at your place and driving me around and to meet Yoshiko.... Thanks for being such a nice friend and support me. Have a good time in Malaysia...
As for Tiffany and Kah Mun, thanks for being there to listen to my probelms and share our time together in Perth and Malaysia (although it is short) but it is meaningful. I really feel that sometimes i should just don;t have any gf and love life. Fully enjoy my friendship life happily without worrying about all those probelm.. hehehe.... but too bad i can't cause i met Yo.
And to all my friends, thanks ..... thankss..... thanksss...... i wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Every year is a new beginning to a new chapter of a new story.... hope all of you will have a good year. This year i might have a very unhappy year... but i will never give up striving for the better year coming ahead.
I will updated my trip in Malaysia soon... i will leave today blog for this... :D summary.. met some very very cute, nice, funny and kind people like Hui Lin family's, Yoshiko family's and Mun family's.
Tuesday, 21 December 2004
Finally the end of my sister wedding
Well... Here come the end of my sister wedding. Everyone is going back today.. all my relatives from K.L., K.K. and Singapore. What a tiring week.... anyway i would like thanks for those who sent me birthday msg and mail from nic nic cehceh, Kenny koko and david koko.... and the rest :(....
Now... everything is over, i can come back to my room and sleep but only for one more night and flying off to K.L. tomolo. ;)... Packing my stuff now going back to PERTH soon where i have to start paying my own bill etc.... :( clean my own plates and wash my own clothes. hm... thinking about it i seem to have a lot of things to do nest year but i won;t give up. i hope everyone of you won't give up as well on anything you do... thanks for bieng there for me all these while hehehehe. today will be a short blog coz too tired to type... update soon.
Now... everything is over, i can come back to my room and sleep but only for one more night and flying off to K.L. tomolo. ;)... Packing my stuff now going back to PERTH soon where i have to start paying my own bill etc.... :( clean my own plates and wash my own clothes. hm... thinking about it i seem to have a lot of things to do nest year but i won;t give up. i hope everyone of you won't give up as well on anything you do... thanks for bieng there for me all these while hehehehe. today will be a short blog coz too tired to type... update soon.
Saturday, 18 December 2004
My Sister Wedding Day 1 & Birthday
17 Dec 2004
My sister wedding dinner.
What a busy day..... From waking up till going to sleep. First in the moring i was asked to pick up my bro-in-law eledest bro from the airport then go to the hotel, have to check all the audio system for the grand hall ensuring the PA system work properly to feature my sister VCD those she created a short few minutes for showing her life story and my bro-in-law life story. then have to do the tea ceremony. after that i have to become Usher, communicator between my parents and the hotel staffs to ensure the banquet goes smoothly, then i have to take photograph hm... multi tasking :P at the end of the day, i am so exhauasted and very tired.... and was pretty upset because no one remember my birthday....at 12 midnight.
when the clock near 12 midnight, i receive a call and it is all the way from Malaysia..... wishing me happy birthday. i was so happy at least one person so far remember my birthday until later before 1am i receive two message from malaysia and brunei. It is from Hui Lin and Dolly, i was so touch they actually remember my birthday too. :D. hm... bad to all my relatives and family forget my birthday hahahaha. just joking i know they are busy with my sis wedding and forget about my birthday. so this year i forgive them but hopefully next year they will give me a big present.
No matter what, i still would like to thank Yo for being the first person to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i am really happy to know you remember, hehehehe. You're the BEST.
Still i will thank, Jason, Sherman and Dine Cehceh for wishing me Happy Birthday when i come online. The REST of You will get from me soon espaically Tiffy, Nic Cehceh, Kenny Koko, Candice, Stiener, David Koko, Mun and those who haven't say happy birthday to me :P. I will humt all of you down hahahahahahaha. :D
Hope to see all of you soon. :P
My sister wedding dinner.
What a busy day..... From waking up till going to sleep. First in the moring i was asked to pick up my bro-in-law eledest bro from the airport then go to the hotel, have to check all the audio system for the grand hall ensuring the PA system work properly to feature my sister VCD those she created a short few minutes for showing her life story and my bro-in-law life story. then have to do the tea ceremony. after that i have to become Usher, communicator between my parents and the hotel staffs to ensure the banquet goes smoothly, then i have to take photograph hm... multi tasking :P at the end of the day, i am so exhauasted and very tired.... and was pretty upset because no one remember my birthday....at 12 midnight.
when the clock near 12 midnight, i receive a call and it is all the way from Malaysia..... wishing me happy birthday. i was so happy at least one person so far remember my birthday until later before 1am i receive two message from malaysia and brunei. It is from Hui Lin and Dolly, i was so touch they actually remember my birthday too. :D. hm... bad to all my relatives and family forget my birthday hahahaha. just joking i know they are busy with my sis wedding and forget about my birthday. so this year i forgive them but hopefully next year they will give me a big present.
No matter what, i still would like to thank Yo for being the first person to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i am really happy to know you remember, hehehehe. You're the BEST.
Still i will thank, Jason, Sherman and Dine Cehceh for wishing me Happy Birthday when i come online. The REST of You will get from me soon espaically Tiffy, Nic Cehceh, Kenny Koko, Candice, Stiener, David Koko, Mun and those who haven't say happy birthday to me :P. I will humt all of you down hahahahahahaha. :D
Hope to see all of you soon. :P
Thursday, 16 December 2004
Result is Out, Where Am I From Now
Well it has been awhile since i last posted :D. but this time there will be some good news i have pass all my unit this semester agian. thank god. i guess all of this not only thank to myself but thanks to Yoshiko cause she has always been there for me and support me. she has always been there to scold me and to ensure i will pass all my units. At first i really very pissed off coz someone is there bugging me but now i feel if not becuase she care about my result and me, she won't even bother to do that.
i am very happy that she pass all her units and with a pretty good result also. i really feel so different now... is like 2 more units left before i finish my degree and i really hope i can pass all unit and become a degree graduate. that what i hope for now.
As for my 2005, should i graduate and work or should i continue study and work as gen sec of the guild? i really don't know now hm... wish i have an answer soon.
I was also thinking about should i go Malaysia/Brunei/Perth, if i choose to graduate.
Now i know how it feel when you goona graduate. Most important thing of all, i no longer the same as before many have told me. i guess it is true, i have become more stubborn and more firm in my decision. No longer,i give up my love so easily.
Yoyo?Yoyo? how important is this gal to me actually? Am i really willing to scarifise? How much do i love her? can i really leave without her? Is she the one? is she what i want?
Well, answer is YES, she is very important, i am willing to scarifise, i love her alot, i think she is the one, she is the one and NO, i can't live with her. this is because my lifestyle and everything about me have change. it is hard to say what goona happen in the future but i believe if she give em the chance we can make it through.
i know i am not prefect, i know i am not the ideal person but i know i can make u happy if u give me the chance. i will try my best to ensure u feel like the happiest gal alive. no matter what, u are now my everything. i used to tell u, u are just below my family and now u are the same as them. you are as important as them. Hope you know, you mean so much to me and losing you is like cutting my own flesh and give it away. i can't bear to lose you. i know you really very pissed off with me and you hate me now for bothering u so much.i will try my best to control myself not to bother u anymore as well.... eventhough i am asking for u to give me chance, i guess u need some quiet time.
Btw, i am going to malaysia agian on 23 Dec and going to Perth on 26 Dec. and this remind me that my last trip was not that great but it is nice to find out that hui lin, you r really so great in helping me and care about me and mun thanks for letting staying over at ur place and thanks to tat weng for picking me up from the airport and thanks to gina for accompany for one day. lastly thanks to YO, for giving me a chance to meet u even tough is short, but it will me in my heart.
i am very happy that she pass all her units and with a pretty good result also. i really feel so different now... is like 2 more units left before i finish my degree and i really hope i can pass all unit and become a degree graduate. that what i hope for now.
As for my 2005, should i graduate and work or should i continue study and work as gen sec of the guild? i really don't know now hm... wish i have an answer soon.
I was also thinking about should i go Malaysia/Brunei/Perth, if i choose to graduate.
Now i know how it feel when you goona graduate. Most important thing of all, i no longer the same as before many have told me. i guess it is true, i have become more stubborn and more firm in my decision. No longer,i give up my love so easily.
Yoyo?Yoyo? how important is this gal to me actually? Am i really willing to scarifise? How much do i love her? can i really leave without her? Is she the one? is she what i want?
Well, answer is YES, she is very important, i am willing to scarifise, i love her alot, i think she is the one, she is the one and NO, i can't live with her. this is because my lifestyle and everything about me have change. it is hard to say what goona happen in the future but i believe if she give em the chance we can make it through.
i know i am not prefect, i know i am not the ideal person but i know i can make u happy if u give me the chance. i will try my best to ensure u feel like the happiest gal alive. no matter what, u are now my everything. i used to tell u, u are just below my family and now u are the same as them. you are as important as them. Hope you know, you mean so much to me and losing you is like cutting my own flesh and give it away. i can't bear to lose you. i know you really very pissed off with me and you hate me now for bothering u so much.i will try my best to control myself not to bother u anymore as well.... eventhough i am asking for u to give me chance, i guess u need some quiet time.
Btw, i am going to malaysia agian on 23 Dec and going to Perth on 26 Dec. and this remind me that my last trip was not that great but it is nice to find out that hui lin, you r really so great in helping me and care about me and mun thanks for letting staying over at ur place and thanks to tat weng for picking me up from the airport and thanks to gina for accompany for one day. lastly thanks to YO, for giving me a chance to meet u even tough is short, but it will me in my heart.
Tuesday, 7 December 2004
My time in Singapore and Brunei
Well......
i thought i have post up my update when i am in singapore i guess i missed. thnaks to stiener and candice i am able to enjoy a wonderful day trip out..
They bring me to newton food centre, commonwealth food centre and orchard rd to shop... and also many more places.... most importantly is i have fun day out with them. :D
thanks alot.
Well going back to Brunei was a hassel. for second time in a row i got problem with my flight. this time is the ground staff put me at the wrong flight. i supposedly to fly off on 29th nov but they put me on 28th nov to brunei, My carelessness for not checking the boarding pass as well on the date. :(... but thanks got Singapore airline willing to pay for my flight to fly to Brunei using RBA on the same day.
Back to Brunei.... finally meet my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother in law and some of my frens... orh.. forgot my sister new puppy, Hazel. Well what can i say a totally new place here, not only the city area change my whole town seem to have a whole new changeover and my house as well.
My Tutong House
Well now, we got sattelite in place which allows me to watch so many otehr channel espaically the chinese one... wahh... so great leh... so long never watch chinese movie laiw... miss it so much.
My Sister place in the City (BANDAR)
Well is rented a pretty big house, which she only pay less that $200 per month coz the goverment pay the rest as she is a goverment employee. :D there i enjoy my stay espaically the spacacious living room where i sleep all day watch DVD and ASTRO and now watching the Series, "Seed of Hope" at Wah Lai Toi, Weekdays 8.30pm, repeat at 2am and 10.30 am. :D. don't forget to watch orh....
As for my family, Well they are now so busy everyone preparing for my sister wedding... when i hear the numebr they goona invite i was shock it is up to 630people incld up to like 200 relatives from Malaysia, Singapore and Brunei. everyone is so busy for the wedding. hm... luckily is not mine... hahaha stilla logn way to go...
Well my sister brought a PRADO hm... so nice lah one family can go out wihtout any probelms since now is like 5 person travelling. and My house now have like 5 cars hehehe... My mum have a Nissan Laurel, my dad have a Toyota Corrolla for him to go work, My Sister have a Honda Accord, My brother in law have a Toyota Crown and My Bro-in-law and Sister have a Prado. :D so now i m driving my sister Accord yeah..... :D...
Well that's the happy thing in Brunei, bad news is that, i am so bored and miss Yoyo so much... Hope she is around always... so sad... Lately keep quarrelling with her isn;t that happy anyway. Well i guess that what happen when you love someone who is in love with someone else and is attached. :(. have to wait for them to deattached 1st then you might have a chance.
This time in Brunei, really make me so clear how much more important you are to me. i know it is not the same case for you because you don't have the same feeling as me. i really hope i can see you soon. life with you is really so hard. Now it keep me wondering what happen if you are not going back to study will i continue study or not? should i go to Malaysia and work or what. :D But i guess i have my pathway set.. and either way, i will still choose not to lose you. i will fight till the end and hopefully the star and moon will shine towards us. hopefully the nature of love and power of love will be with us.
I have been counting since day 1 and now it is only 2 days away from me stepping into the same zone with you, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. See you soon dear.
Last before my blog for today ends, i really wanna thanks everyone of my freinds who is planning my trip to KL orh.. and espcially Hui Lin. Well,thanks for everyting you did in Perth, i am so sorry that i can' help you much with a lot fo things, espaically packing & the rent thingy. hope you will forgive me. becuase i kinda feel bad though.... :D anyway i will always remember ur kindness :D take care....
i thought i have post up my update when i am in singapore i guess i missed. thnaks to stiener and candice i am able to enjoy a wonderful day trip out..
They bring me to newton food centre, commonwealth food centre and orchard rd to shop... and also many more places.... most importantly is i have fun day out with them. :D
thanks alot.
Well going back to Brunei was a hassel. for second time in a row i got problem with my flight. this time is the ground staff put me at the wrong flight. i supposedly to fly off on 29th nov but they put me on 28th nov to brunei, My carelessness for not checking the boarding pass as well on the date. :(... but thanks got Singapore airline willing to pay for my flight to fly to Brunei using RBA on the same day.
Back to Brunei.... finally meet my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother in law and some of my frens... orh.. forgot my sister new puppy, Hazel. Well what can i say a totally new place here, not only the city area change my whole town seem to have a whole new changeover and my house as well.
My Tutong House
Well now, we got sattelite in place which allows me to watch so many otehr channel espaically the chinese one... wahh... so great leh... so long never watch chinese movie laiw... miss it so much.
My Sister place in the City (BANDAR)
Well is rented a pretty big house, which she only pay less that $200 per month coz the goverment pay the rest as she is a goverment employee. :D there i enjoy my stay espaically the spacacious living room where i sleep all day watch DVD and ASTRO and now watching the Series, "Seed of Hope" at Wah Lai Toi, Weekdays 8.30pm, repeat at 2am and 10.30 am. :D. don't forget to watch orh....
As for my family, Well they are now so busy everyone preparing for my sister wedding... when i hear the numebr they goona invite i was shock it is up to 630people incld up to like 200 relatives from Malaysia, Singapore and Brunei. everyone is so busy for the wedding. hm... luckily is not mine... hahaha stilla logn way to go...
Well my sister brought a PRADO hm... so nice lah one family can go out wihtout any probelms since now is like 5 person travelling. and My house now have like 5 cars hehehe... My mum have a Nissan Laurel, my dad have a Toyota Corrolla for him to go work, My Sister have a Honda Accord, My brother in law have a Toyota Crown and My Bro-in-law and Sister have a Prado. :D so now i m driving my sister Accord yeah..... :D...
Well that's the happy thing in Brunei, bad news is that, i am so bored and miss Yoyo so much... Hope she is around always... so sad... Lately keep quarrelling with her isn;t that happy anyway. Well i guess that what happen when you love someone who is in love with someone else and is attached. :(. have to wait for them to deattached 1st then you might have a chance.
This time in Brunei, really make me so clear how much more important you are to me. i know it is not the same case for you because you don't have the same feeling as me. i really hope i can see you soon. life with you is really so hard. Now it keep me wondering what happen if you are not going back to study will i continue study or not? should i go to Malaysia and work or what. :D But i guess i have my pathway set.. and either way, i will still choose not to lose you. i will fight till the end and hopefully the star and moon will shine towards us. hopefully the nature of love and power of love will be with us.
I have been counting since day 1 and now it is only 2 days away from me stepping into the same zone with you, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. See you soon dear.
Last before my blog for today ends, i really wanna thanks everyone of my freinds who is planning my trip to KL orh.. and espcially Hui Lin. Well,thanks for everyting you did in Perth, i am so sorry that i can' help you much with a lot fo things, espaically packing & the rent thingy. hope you will forgive me. becuase i kinda feel bad though.... :D anyway i will always remember ur kindness :D take care....
Sunday, 28 November 2004
1st day out of Australia
Hm... finally i am out of Australia after almost a year there without seeing any family members. Hope i will make use of my one month in Malaysia, Singapore & Brunei to visit all my relatives and freinds.
Well now, i am at singapore at stiener's place. sleeping over.... :D. met his mum quite a funny person though... her mum.... and also very freindly... i guess most importantly it is not that about that in my trip. i have been eating all day with stiener and candice. thanks to them i go to so many food centre and shop for my blur queen, yoyo present. It was a pretty hard decision to make espaically for someone you love.... this will be her first birthday i goona celebrate with her and hopefully not the last one.
Hope she will love my present for her. It is nothing big or fancy but it is my heart to her. A gift that mean more than just a gift. A gift that mean my love and my promises to her. A gift that mark the beginning of our relationship evolution, from strangers to hopefully eternally together.
MSG to my Yoyo:- You may not be my first love or my first gf, but you certianly is the gal i love now. no one can your destiny and fate for being love by me. i know it seem strange to everyone, how can i be sure that i really love you when we just got to know each other for like not more than 3 months. But i certianly think time is not a matter but just a number. this few months knowing you really give me a chance to open up myself once agian and cheerish something more than just myself or to take a different pathway to add you into my life. every decision i made i have to think about u and how u will feel. further my study, where am i going to be when i finish, where should we stay in the future etc. It might be a big change but i think it is worth it because you are not a normal type of gal that i can find just anyway i want. but of the the kind who knows how to care about a person when you needed to, understand me, presuade me, nice and sweet to me and many more which make you special. i relaly miss you, just a short two day apart i have make more than 20 calls within 48 hours and talk to you on the phone for more than 5hours. i guess now is a good time to train ourselve up for it and i beleive we can overcome it.
tomolo i will be back to my hometown, Tutong, brunei and really don't know how it look like after one year but i guess should be more the less the same. update everyone!!! soon... bye for now
Well now, i am at singapore at stiener's place. sleeping over.... :D. met his mum quite a funny person though... her mum.... and also very freindly... i guess most importantly it is not that about that in my trip. i have been eating all day with stiener and candice. thanks to them i go to so many food centre and shop for my blur queen, yoyo present. It was a pretty hard decision to make espaically for someone you love.... this will be her first birthday i goona celebrate with her and hopefully not the last one.
Hope she will love my present for her. It is nothing big or fancy but it is my heart to her. A gift that mean more than just a gift. A gift that mean my love and my promises to her. A gift that mark the beginning of our relationship evolution, from strangers to hopefully eternally together.
MSG to my Yoyo:- You may not be my first love or my first gf, but you certianly is the gal i love now. no one can your destiny and fate for being love by me. i know it seem strange to everyone, how can i be sure that i really love you when we just got to know each other for like not more than 3 months. But i certianly think time is not a matter but just a number. this few months knowing you really give me a chance to open up myself once agian and cheerish something more than just myself or to take a different pathway to add you into my life. every decision i made i have to think about u and how u will feel. further my study, where am i going to be when i finish, where should we stay in the future etc. It might be a big change but i think it is worth it because you are not a normal type of gal that i can find just anyway i want. but of the the kind who knows how to care about a person when you needed to, understand me, presuade me, nice and sweet to me and many more which make you special. i relaly miss you, just a short two day apart i have make more than 20 calls within 48 hours and talk to you on the phone for more than 5hours. i guess now is a good time to train ourselve up for it and i beleive we can overcome it.
tomolo i will be back to my hometown, Tutong, brunei and really don't know how it look like after one year but i guess should be more the less the same. update everyone!!! soon... bye for now
Sunday, 21 November 2004
Ending My Reign and Exam
Time has fly so fast. It was at this time last year, i am preparing myself as isc convenor 2004 and now i have to give up all the expectation and hope. I was told that i shouldn't expect my incoming committee that they will countinue some of my expectation. Well i guess i have to say it is true now after one year of figthitng hoping it won't be true.
I feel very disappointed sometime in the sense that, none of them really believe in the bureaucratic way of doing things. Sometimes, i feel it is a lost cost to actually do so much becuase no one actually acknowledged all your effort. Worst feeling is that, they don't believe you should get involved in thier wild fresh useless ideas sometimes. I feel that we have gone through that same phrase sometimes that they have to understand that that is what we as honourary members exists and don't wish to see our works go down under.
For example, a five year strategic plan is indeed a reasonable plan that a strong organisation should have to grow. We have to learn to give up the selfishness of just doing well for our term and forget about how our members in the future will benefits from it. i feel such behavioural is unacceptable and is not professional. Secondly, the rules and regulations of the committee, it is not to be said that only big issues or common factor should be add in rules and regulations but also unexepected circumstances.
We represent the benefits of international students interest not only those who are currently studying but also those who are going to study in the campus in the future. If every year, the committee decided not to have any long term achievement so that the students can benefits from it, there is no point we has a peak represenative body exists because we are just like all those international students clubs. The whole point, we differentiated ourselves from them is becuase we are more structured and have long-term and strong representation ground to support us as a representative body.
Over my period of one year, i am sad to say that i were not able to make use of my term wisely to presue everything i wish to achieve due to my slack behaviour and lack of communication with my officer. It was not only that but also i should blame myself for the huge drop out rate over the months.
Well that all, i can say. i know TIFFANY will do well to ensure the organisation grow and expand properly. i feel it is time that i let go and concentrated my new interest on my guild and ensuring it work closely with all the department and not only ISC. Although ISC is my blood now but i guess if i keep interrupting the way they wish to run, i will just destory the purpose of letting Tiffany be the convenor. Her capability is more that just anyone could imagine. She is so great that i see that under her leadership those people will ensure the ISC will expand and grow for years to come even under the VSU.
MSG for my Pretty Tiffy, It has been a pleasure to work with you this year. it might not the the greatest moment of your time but it certianly is mine. i know many of my plans doesn't seem to work 100% well for you due to different opinions but we have always come the same conclusion for the better of student representation. i know till now, 5 year plan to you is a NO thing but i hope you will reconsider the whole aspect of how professionalism and ensure ISC will not be destory even under VSU which will be a hell of the year, you have to fight in your term... thanks to the Liberal Party winning the majority of the senate seats in the elections. BEST of LUCK okie Dear!!!!!
As to all the incoming if you do read my blog, Next year will seem to be the new age of ISC golden era after the regime of Sia family in 2000 and 2001, where ISC was aknowledged by university for the first time for whole of ISC history. CHECK OUT THE CERT in the office. I couldn't have stress more, you GALS certianly are capable of a lot things all over the committee with different talents, i hope all of you will make use of it. Cetianly i will still stress, never to limit your goals and expectation to just your year but broaden it up and create the start of a new culture. All expect more than what you can achieve because it always better to ahve more than less.
SO BYE TO ISC Convenor 2004 term for me and well if anyone need any help feel free to drop by my General Secretary Office in the Guild for a chat.....
That the end of my ISC Term.... As for my exam... good news is that my tutor increase my mark from 7/20 to 14/20.... told you, he is a bastard for scaring me like that. So far i have finished 3 exams and i feel pretty confident that i should have no probelm to finish my degree by summer 2005. It has been a hell tough time for me espaically it is for the first time i was lost with what i want to do when i graduated. I guess most importantly i have to thanks all my friends around me espaically my one and only one Yoshiko..... she has been so great over the past 2 months. Without her, i don't think i can survive all the fall that i have encounter over this period. Although we cannot be together now, but i believe in you and myself, fate and destiny will pull us together one day. When its' come i hope with will be eternal, because you are just one of the most gorgeous person i ever meet over my entire life.
My special msg to you is that, Thanks for the wonderful time you have spent with me eventhough you are busy with your study and MCW. You have showed me the gateway to several success over the short period of times and always be there for me. Not only so, you are also a great cook, great person to be with, good listener, and most importantly, you don't hate me after all this while for what i have make you gone through. LET OUR DESTINY AND FATE GUIDE OUR PATH TO AN ETERNAL LOVE RELATIONSHIP.
........Opsss.... Forget about my acknowledgement, without all of you like Naomi, Huey Ying, Tiffany, Phang, Joey, Nicole, Candice, David, Stiener, Kenny and many more............ Jacky Teo will not be The Jacky Teo if you all never show up.......
Love you Guys and Gals,
Jackz
I feel very disappointed sometime in the sense that, none of them really believe in the bureaucratic way of doing things. Sometimes, i feel it is a lost cost to actually do so much becuase no one actually acknowledged all your effort. Worst feeling is that, they don't believe you should get involved in thier wild fresh useless ideas sometimes. I feel that we have gone through that same phrase sometimes that they have to understand that that is what we as honourary members exists and don't wish to see our works go down under.
For example, a five year strategic plan is indeed a reasonable plan that a strong organisation should have to grow. We have to learn to give up the selfishness of just doing well for our term and forget about how our members in the future will benefits from it. i feel such behavioural is unacceptable and is not professional. Secondly, the rules and regulations of the committee, it is not to be said that only big issues or common factor should be add in rules and regulations but also unexepected circumstances.
We represent the benefits of international students interest not only those who are currently studying but also those who are going to study in the campus in the future. If every year, the committee decided not to have any long term achievement so that the students can benefits from it, there is no point we has a peak represenative body exists because we are just like all those international students clubs. The whole point, we differentiated ourselves from them is becuase we are more structured and have long-term and strong representation ground to support us as a representative body.
Over my period of one year, i am sad to say that i were not able to make use of my term wisely to presue everything i wish to achieve due to my slack behaviour and lack of communication with my officer. It was not only that but also i should blame myself for the huge drop out rate over the months.
Well that all, i can say. i know TIFFANY will do well to ensure the organisation grow and expand properly. i feel it is time that i let go and concentrated my new interest on my guild and ensuring it work closely with all the department and not only ISC. Although ISC is my blood now but i guess if i keep interrupting the way they wish to run, i will just destory the purpose of letting Tiffany be the convenor. Her capability is more that just anyone could imagine. She is so great that i see that under her leadership those people will ensure the ISC will expand and grow for years to come even under the VSU.
MSG for my Pretty Tiffy, It has been a pleasure to work with you this year. it might not the the greatest moment of your time but it certianly is mine. i know many of my plans doesn't seem to work 100% well for you due to different opinions but we have always come the same conclusion for the better of student representation. i know till now, 5 year plan to you is a NO thing but i hope you will reconsider the whole aspect of how professionalism and ensure ISC will not be destory even under VSU which will be a hell of the year, you have to fight in your term... thanks to the Liberal Party winning the majority of the senate seats in the elections. BEST of LUCK okie Dear!!!!!
As to all the incoming if you do read my blog, Next year will seem to be the new age of ISC golden era after the regime of Sia family in 2000 and 2001, where ISC was aknowledged by university for the first time for whole of ISC history. CHECK OUT THE CERT in the office. I couldn't have stress more, you GALS certianly are capable of a lot things all over the committee with different talents, i hope all of you will make use of it. Cetianly i will still stress, never to limit your goals and expectation to just your year but broaden it up and create the start of a new culture. All expect more than what you can achieve because it always better to ahve more than less.
SO BYE TO ISC Convenor 2004 term for me and well if anyone need any help feel free to drop by my General Secretary Office in the Guild for a chat.....
That the end of my ISC Term.... As for my exam... good news is that my tutor increase my mark from 7/20 to 14/20.... told you, he is a bastard for scaring me like that. So far i have finished 3 exams and i feel pretty confident that i should have no probelm to finish my degree by summer 2005. It has been a hell tough time for me espaically it is for the first time i was lost with what i want to do when i graduated. I guess most importantly i have to thanks all my friends around me espaically my one and only one Yoshiko..... she has been so great over the past 2 months. Without her, i don't think i can survive all the fall that i have encounter over this period. Although we cannot be together now, but i believe in you and myself, fate and destiny will pull us together one day. When its' come i hope with will be eternal, because you are just one of the most gorgeous person i ever meet over my entire life.
My special msg to you is that, Thanks for the wonderful time you have spent with me eventhough you are busy with your study and MCW. You have showed me the gateway to several success over the short period of times and always be there for me. Not only so, you are also a great cook, great person to be with, good listener, and most importantly, you don't hate me after all this while for what i have make you gone through. LET OUR DESTINY AND FATE GUIDE OUR PATH TO AN ETERNAL LOVE RELATIONSHIP.
........Opsss.... Forget about my acknowledgement, without all of you like Naomi, Huey Ying, Tiffany, Phang, Joey, Nicole, Candice, David, Stiener, Kenny and many more............ Jacky Teo will not be The Jacky Teo if you all never show up.......
Love you Guys and Gals,
Jackz
Sunday, 14 November 2004
Pissedd and lost
Well.... it is my pissing session now.
For the first time, i feel unjust with the bloody helll tutor for giving me 7/20 for my participitation mark for finance (international)... who the hell attend all classes and do all the presentation and contribute to the class can get so low mark... i am rellay gonna screww himm upside down.... ergh..... and then my another unit only got 6.5/10 another unhappy mark to appeal... welll that is my study.... other than that..... i really have to say... i am very sad and angry... felt like being used here. everytime, when some people asked for my help either they didn;t asked my directly themselves and make a turn around and ask someone to ask me or they are being rude/ bossing me around and asked me to do things... what kind of society are with at today... i feel very much betray.... well that is just to bitch around..... i guess i am like that lah.... say laiw feel better like now.....
anyway... for most of you who asked me nicely and sweet.. thanks orh.... i don;t mind helping... actually just that i like to be treat nicely when people is asking for help instead of bossing me around or don't ask me directly and asked someone else then asked me.... well it has to depend on the situation guess... certian things is ok but certian things cannot like that mah....
well... i am now veyr much lost... i was thinking of installing security alarm system and central locking but it will cost me $550.... i really wish to get the system... but i am really not sure should i do it or not... because it is like close to $700 in total in brunei dollar.
anyway that about that... but hope i will get an answer from my head soon...
Last but not least, i wish that miss yoshiko tey... will accept me soon lor..... she is really a great person... and of cuase she is just the best one lor... 1st and only gal that i love so much who is not only great bbut born in the year of 1984 rat and december... and just 8 days apart our birthday... :D all i wanna say she is the most wonderful person i ever wish to be with now..... i know it will be near to impossible espaically in this current situation.... but i hope i will come through it and you will either...
Exam is coming up and i am lost... my term is finishing soon also... i will miss it.... tell you guys more about it when i am finishing offcially...
For the first time, i feel unjust with the bloody helll tutor for giving me 7/20 for my participitation mark for finance (international)... who the hell attend all classes and do all the presentation and contribute to the class can get so low mark... i am rellay gonna screww himm upside down.... ergh..... and then my another unit only got 6.5/10 another unhappy mark to appeal... welll that is my study.... other than that..... i really have to say... i am very sad and angry... felt like being used here. everytime, when some people asked for my help either they didn;t asked my directly themselves and make a turn around and ask someone to ask me or they are being rude/ bossing me around and asked me to do things... what kind of society are with at today... i feel very much betray.... well that is just to bitch around..... i guess i am like that lah.... say laiw feel better like now.....
anyway... for most of you who asked me nicely and sweet.. thanks orh.... i don;t mind helping... actually just that i like to be treat nicely when people is asking for help instead of bossing me around or don't ask me directly and asked someone else then asked me.... well it has to depend on the situation guess... certian things is ok but certian things cannot like that mah....
well... i am now veyr much lost... i was thinking of installing security alarm system and central locking but it will cost me $550.... i really wish to get the system... but i am really not sure should i do it or not... because it is like close to $700 in total in brunei dollar.
anyway that about that... but hope i will get an answer from my head soon...
Last but not least, i wish that miss yoshiko tey... will accept me soon lor..... she is really a great person... and of cuase she is just the best one lor... 1st and only gal that i love so much who is not only great bbut born in the year of 1984 rat and december... and just 8 days apart our birthday... :D all i wanna say she is the most wonderful person i ever wish to be with now..... i know it will be near to impossible espaically in this current situation.... but i hope i will come through it and you will either...
Exam is coming up and i am lost... my term is finishing soon also... i will miss it.... tell you guys more about it when i am finishing offcially...
Tuesday, 26 October 2004
The World is Full of Surprises
It has been awhile since I know what I want. For weeks, I have been wondering what is the right and wrong.
As my good friends all say, I have gone through so much bumps and repeating the weirdo cycle. WHY AM I HERE AGAIN? No doubt I can tell anyone of you that this time will be the one that make a difference. As you all know, she is Yoshiko Tey Mee Ho and how can I say that she will not be my gf nor can I say she will choose me after all this while.
It is true Kenny say, if I really love someone I should take the risk and it is also true what dine cehceh say, I have to bear the consequences and what came along. There is no one I can blame but myself if anything goes wrong. Yet alone, I choose to move on and pursue the unimaginable pathway to love her with all my heart.
Through my circle of friends, there is mixed feeling about this issue I know. Especially, Dine Cehceh, Tiffany, Candice, David Koko, Nic nic cehceh, Kenny Koko and Uncle Steiner (hehehehe)….. and also those I don’t mention… I wish I had an answer to explain to all of you how actually I feel about her and what might lie ahead of me. :D
It is also now that I thank Stephanie Tan for everything…. If not because of her, I won’t meet YoYo…. Who is extremely adorable, sweet, loving; yet annoying sometimes hehehe. But most importantly, she is gorgeous and pretty deep inside my heart. If it is because of Steph, I wouldn’t have choose this pathway to go after YoYo…. as well…..She has make me stronger and think more for myself plus taking into the consideration of what the opposite sex might think and feel.
Well this is the story of an exceptional love case. Where for the fourth time in my past 19 years and 10 month of life, I have fall in love with a girl who already has a boyfriend. All I can say every story has a beginning and ending, it is up to the girl and me to choose how we would like to end it. This time, is harder than before, the ending is yet unknown and unclear. It is true she has a boyfriend but that alone doesn’t stop or conclude our story because I choose to write the story and pursue till the end. I believe in myself and her that my true loves will one-day touches her heart. it will been when all my friends will see the seed grow into a small plant and later become a big tree that will grow even stronger and bigger as time goes.
Today, it wish to thank all the spirit of my circle of friends for everything, including the newly-added member to ISC Buddy Group, Kah Mun, Tat Weng and Hui Lin….of coz not to miss out my beloved one… Yoyo… :P… this is my blog and so I will make it as touchy and “rou ma” as I want hehehe. Take to all who read my blog…
Last but not least, my exam is coming up…. Nov 1, 5 question/ 8 question to finish in 1 hrs…arr….and 3 presentation and one major assignment…. All in one week time… best of luck to myself…. And all I wish for is not to receive the same welcoming as last few experience during this time…. The gal I love hurt me… so if yoyo read this please, don’t come up with any sort of pain and hurtful stuff and repeat the curse…. Of killing me with love problems… hehehehe…. Just joking…. But I do hope one day, you will really give me the chance to be with you….. and not just as a very good friend like now…. So let the time tells…..
As my good friends all say, I have gone through so much bumps and repeating the weirdo cycle. WHY AM I HERE AGAIN? No doubt I can tell anyone of you that this time will be the one that make a difference. As you all know, she is Yoshiko Tey Mee Ho and how can I say that she will not be my gf nor can I say she will choose me after all this while.
It is true Kenny say, if I really love someone I should take the risk and it is also true what dine cehceh say, I have to bear the consequences and what came along. There is no one I can blame but myself if anything goes wrong. Yet alone, I choose to move on and pursue the unimaginable pathway to love her with all my heart.
Through my circle of friends, there is mixed feeling about this issue I know. Especially, Dine Cehceh, Tiffany, Candice, David Koko, Nic nic cehceh, Kenny Koko and Uncle Steiner (hehehehe)….. and also those I don’t mention… I wish I had an answer to explain to all of you how actually I feel about her and what might lie ahead of me. :D
It is also now that I thank Stephanie Tan for everything…. If not because of her, I won’t meet YoYo…. Who is extremely adorable, sweet, loving; yet annoying sometimes hehehe. But most importantly, she is gorgeous and pretty deep inside my heart. If it is because of Steph, I wouldn’t have choose this pathway to go after YoYo…. as well…..She has make me stronger and think more for myself plus taking into the consideration of what the opposite sex might think and feel.
Well this is the story of an exceptional love case. Where for the fourth time in my past 19 years and 10 month of life, I have fall in love with a girl who already has a boyfriend. All I can say every story has a beginning and ending, it is up to the girl and me to choose how we would like to end it. This time, is harder than before, the ending is yet unknown and unclear. It is true she has a boyfriend but that alone doesn’t stop or conclude our story because I choose to write the story and pursue till the end. I believe in myself and her that my true loves will one-day touches her heart. it will been when all my friends will see the seed grow into a small plant and later become a big tree that will grow even stronger and bigger as time goes.
Today, it wish to thank all the spirit of my circle of friends for everything, including the newly-added member to ISC Buddy Group, Kah Mun, Tat Weng and Hui Lin….of coz not to miss out my beloved one… Yoyo… :P… this is my blog and so I will make it as touchy and “rou ma” as I want hehehe. Take to all who read my blog…
Last but not least, my exam is coming up…. Nov 1, 5 question/ 8 question to finish in 1 hrs…arr….and 3 presentation and one major assignment…. All in one week time… best of luck to myself…. And all I wish for is not to receive the same welcoming as last few experience during this time…. The gal I love hurt me… so if yoyo read this please, don’t come up with any sort of pain and hurtful stuff and repeat the curse…. Of killing me with love problems… hehehehe…. Just joking…. But I do hope one day, you will really give me the chance to be with you….. and not just as a very good friend like now…. So let the time tells…..
Tuesday, 12 October 2004
Lost in the blue sky
Sometime i wonder how i can survive in the world full of love and being in love. For the past few months, I have been questioning myself how is it like to be in love and not to fall in love agian. till today, i still haven't got my answer yet.
i know i am in love before with a gal and thought she will be in my heart for a very long time but today i found out that i have fall in love with another gal.
Many freinds have advised me that not to go after this gal becuase she is attached. but i have refused to listen for some reasons and problems i have learn from the past.
Theory say that, if you love a person so much then learn to let go and if she is happy you will be happy. we shouldn't be selfish and must learn to let go. for years i learn this theory, which make me lost so many people and hurt myself so much that i feel like i want to give up my life once.
Today is a day which i have o choose agian. between giving up the person i love so much and let her love the another person and don't try it out. or should i take the risk and try to make it work out.
there has been an old saying that, if we try we at least have some chance of succeeding but if we give up now we will always find failure only.
I am now really lost between the two principle.... which one is the best????
gttg now people i am too tired to type now will continue laterzz....
i know i am in love before with a gal and thought she will be in my heart for a very long time but today i found out that i have fall in love with another gal.
Many freinds have advised me that not to go after this gal becuase she is attached. but i have refused to listen for some reasons and problems i have learn from the past.
Theory say that, if you love a person so much then learn to let go and if she is happy you will be happy. we shouldn't be selfish and must learn to let go. for years i learn this theory, which make me lost so many people and hurt myself so much that i feel like i want to give up my life once.
Today is a day which i have o choose agian. between giving up the person i love so much and let her love the another person and don't try it out. or should i take the risk and try to make it work out.
there has been an old saying that, if we try we at least have some chance of succeeding but if we give up now we will always find failure only.
I am now really lost between the two principle.... which one is the best????
gttg now people i am too tired to type now will continue laterzz....
Monday, 4 October 2004
Second day of Bad Luck
Over the weekend, Sunday 3rd of October 2004 happen to be my second day of bad luck. As i was about to pump my bicycle and use the pump broke into half and leave me with no choice but to ask for help from Tiffany.
Not only so as, Tat Weng driving tiffany's car and bring me to Karawara Shell station, another bad luck took place, where there is no hose and the air pumping system at all. Thus it has force me to go all the way down to BP at the end of Manning Road to pump the tyre.
Sometime i wonder why am i in such a luck.... it has been a bad enough day for me already and yet more bad luck occured. i really don't know what to do. Life seem like full of unwanted surprises.
i the least thing i wish it won't happen has happen also.... i feel helpless sometime espcially when i am not able to be with the person i love. i wish that she can be the one who give me confident and strength as well as the one who pull me out of misery and pain. at this moment i am starting to doubt my dependecny of this girl. she has meant so much for me since my recovery. i really wish i will not have to lose her this time and able to be with her. i know it may seem impossible at the current state as i was not sincere enough and good enough for her. i do hope once i can become a better person and able to show my sincereness, she will accept me.
Not only so as, Tat Weng driving tiffany's car and bring me to Karawara Shell station, another bad luck took place, where there is no hose and the air pumping system at all. Thus it has force me to go all the way down to BP at the end of Manning Road to pump the tyre.
Sometime i wonder why am i in such a luck.... it has been a bad enough day for me already and yet more bad luck occured. i really don't know what to do. Life seem like full of unwanted surprises.
i the least thing i wish it won't happen has happen also.... i feel helpless sometime espcially when i am not able to be with the person i love. i wish that she can be the one who give me confident and strength as well as the one who pull me out of misery and pain. at this moment i am starting to doubt my dependecny of this girl. she has meant so much for me since my recovery. i really wish i will not have to lose her this time and able to be with her. i know it may seem impossible at the current state as i was not sincere enough and good enough for her. i do hope once i can become a better person and able to show my sincereness, she will accept me.
Sunday, 3 October 2004
Super Unlucky Day
Saturday, 2 October 2004, is now recorded as my super unluckiest day of the year losing more than a $1000....... many may wonder why i lost so much me.
Let me explain the whole story. it started as a fine good morning and everything seem do be fine and ended just prefect. but till 10.30pm when i discoverd my car being break in, parking near canning college, the basketball court area.
i ahve lost my CD Player cost $200, my trench coat cost $200, my USB Drive $120, my three percious scarf priceless.... because hand-made by my mum, my freind and given by my niece, My MCW'04 T-shirt, my green zip shirt. :(
further to that, i just check my exam result which i didn;t do well for it.... :( damn unlucky 2 bad news in like 10 minutes which ruins my whole day.
i really don't know now.... i feel like running into a bad luck zone agian.... and the only way to get out of it will be hoping the person i love to give me all the support, i need to pull me out of this mess.
life is full of surprises..... everytime i meet my ex... something bad sure happen in like one week period. ergh..... hope i won't need to meet her agian.....
well..... thats for my unlucky day.... :(
Let me explain the whole story. it started as a fine good morning and everything seem do be fine and ended just prefect. but till 10.30pm when i discoverd my car being break in, parking near canning college, the basketball court area.
i ahve lost my CD Player cost $200, my trench coat cost $200, my USB Drive $120, my three percious scarf priceless.... because hand-made by my mum, my freind and given by my niece, My MCW'04 T-shirt, my green zip shirt. :(
further to that, i just check my exam result which i didn;t do well for it.... :( damn unlucky 2 bad news in like 10 minutes which ruins my whole day.
i really don't know now.... i feel like running into a bad luck zone agian.... and the only way to get out of it will be hoping the person i love to give me all the support, i need to pull me out of this mess.
life is full of surprises..... everytime i meet my ex... something bad sure happen in like one week period. ergh..... hope i won't need to meet her agian.....
well..... thats for my unlucky day.... :(
Thursday, 23 September 2004
Election ENDSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today.... Election finished..... free from the politics behind elections and i wish that i no longer have to touch it for this year hopefully unless my senior need me too. :D.
I have won the the position for Guild General Secretary 2005....and my fellow freind Esther low has won Business Div Rep and Tiffany the incoming successor of ISC Convenor.... as for the rest hope i will know by tommorrow
I have won the the position for Guild General Secretary 2005....and my fellow freind Esther low has won Business Div Rep and Tiffany the incoming successor of ISC Convenor.... as for the rest hope i will know by tommorrow
Wednesday, 15 September 2004
Yet so near Yet so far
LIFE seem going pretty well after all this while. Making new friends, having a chance to run in Student Guild election as well as ISC election.
Until today....... when i see one site, where i realise my beloved one say such a touching thing to her bf. it make me wonder now, how is it like if i never show up in between them. i really wish all of those past never happen so they can stay in the innocent couple life. :(
Today, it is also the day where i know i have new freinds like Yoshiko, Hui Lin and Regina. They are three "psycho" people. They are also one of the most interesting people i ever met in my life. one being so "unique" in the way she react to situation which is so unusual to today society. Another one being so independent and caring to others, looking after everyone. and the last one being so hyper always and never seem to be sad even if she is angry and upset.
And yet my life seems to move on from the issue which nearly cause my study and work to go downunder. Yet it seems like it is still part of me. i really don't know now. the issue seems so near yet so far.
Until today....... when i see one site, where i realise my beloved one say such a touching thing to her bf. it make me wonder now, how is it like if i never show up in between them. i really wish all of those past never happen so they can stay in the innocent couple life. :(
Today, it is also the day where i know i have new freinds like Yoshiko, Hui Lin and Regina. They are three "psycho" people. They are also one of the most interesting people i ever met in my life. one being so "unique" in the way she react to situation which is so unusual to today society. Another one being so independent and caring to others, looking after everyone. and the last one being so hyper always and never seem to be sad even if she is angry and upset.
And yet my life seems to move on from the issue which nearly cause my study and work to go downunder. Yet it seems like it is still part of me. i really don't know now. the issue seems so near yet so far.
Monday, 16 August 2004
University Life and My Stress
Well..... it has been two week since uni start.... but what can i say, i haven;t got all my textbook yet and worst of all, i am not even prepared for my next week presentation :P. sometime i just wonder what the hell am i doing in uni.
well i guess i am just in holiday mode still hehehe. but this semester i beleive i can do better with only one mid semester test. and the rest are assignment and presentation.
thats my life in term of study. as for the rest, now i met two new friend, tat weng and kah mun. :D thanks to tiff though coz is her fren. they are just so great to hang around with espaically at a time like this where i lost my most precious one, ST. Since we broke up, life seem to be a mess and just liek last saturday when i go to south perth. Amazingly she enter my mind agian.
At that moment at that time at that place, it is like the memory of her suddenly pop out. We were once at south perth sitting down at the bench look towards te city and spending our time at that place. it is one of the sweetest moment i have with her altough it is short. well some say this is just past and forget it. but to me i guess, this is my past and also my memory which i will kept with me.
hahaha, funny right suddenly think back about such nonsense as many of my koko and cehceh will say espaically, dine cehceh , david koko and nic nic ceh ceh. :D well cant miss out the oak kai po TSSK A.K.A Tit pan min. :P
oh.... last but not least, i finally meet up with my angel mentor Hui Ying and also my good fren candice and stiener.... finally we gonna have our monthly dinner agian yeah....... i am looking forward to that. ..... till next time.... bye bye
ISC, Curtin Little Boy. No longer siao titi :P
KNS to those u always say me siao titi in the DIRTY MINDED WAY :P
well i guess i am just in holiday mode still hehehe. but this semester i beleive i can do better with only one mid semester test. and the rest are assignment and presentation.
thats my life in term of study. as for the rest, now i met two new friend, tat weng and kah mun. :D thanks to tiff though coz is her fren. they are just so great to hang around with espaically at a time like this where i lost my most precious one, ST. Since we broke up, life seem to be a mess and just liek last saturday when i go to south perth. Amazingly she enter my mind agian.
At that moment at that time at that place, it is like the memory of her suddenly pop out. We were once at south perth sitting down at the bench look towards te city and spending our time at that place. it is one of the sweetest moment i have with her altough it is short. well some say this is just past and forget it. but to me i guess, this is my past and also my memory which i will kept with me.
hahaha, funny right suddenly think back about such nonsense as many of my koko and cehceh will say espaically, dine cehceh , david koko and nic nic ceh ceh. :D well cant miss out the oak kai po TSSK A.K.A Tit pan min. :P
oh.... last but not least, i finally meet up with my angel mentor Hui Ying and also my good fren candice and stiener.... finally we gonna have our monthly dinner agian yeah....... i am looking forward to that. ..... till next time.... bye bye
ISC, Curtin Little Boy. No longer siao titi :P
KNS to those u always say me siao titi in the DIRTY MINDED WAY :P
Thursday, 29 July 2004
Happy Person
Well… Well….. I have watch two movie in a row, Tuesday and Wednesday. Guess what…. I am so happy now as everything seems to go the way I wanted it to be for once.
First, I am able to watch I Robot then I have watch Law of Attraction. :D then now my favourite mentor, Huey Ying is back in Perth…. And miss her so much.
Secondly, ISC office is finally complete after today furniture. Yeah… we got heater at last and also air cooler during summer. :P
After that, I am happy to know my beloved deputy convenor will be continuing with ISC. Yahoo!!!!!.
Well, that something nice for once. PLUS I would like to thanks all my friends in FLAT 42 for the nice food yesterday…. It is great….. Happy Man at last for once…
First, I am able to watch I Robot then I have watch Law of Attraction. :D then now my favourite mentor, Huey Ying is back in Perth…. And miss her so much.
Secondly, ISC office is finally complete after today furniture. Yeah… we got heater at last and also air cooler during summer. :P
After that, I am happy to know my beloved deputy convenor will be continuing with ISC. Yahoo!!!!!.
Well, that something nice for once. PLUS I would like to thanks all my friends in FLAT 42 for the nice food yesterday…. It is great….. Happy Man at last for once…
Wednesday, 21 July 2004
Repairing the damages
Well.... now i have repair my car due to the damage cause by the theft. so what can i do after that. it has make me broke costing me up to about $200 in total to repair the window and make new keys. hope the person who stole my stuff will hit by a car and get seriously injured....
but who cares about that anymore. now i am so busy with my ISC stuff hoping that everything will go well for the second half of the semester. i have finish typing my letter and now doing my ISC report and also writing my delegate report for NLCAC'04. so tiring leh.... so many things to do... it is like writing an assignment with up to 15-20 pages of work to write.... and then still need to recheck my grammar and spellung mistake before my deputy convenor start complaining.
anywayz.... guess where i am agian... same old place at flat 42.... my second home where i go online and chat....... hehehehe. hope all my executives is doing well at thier jobs and hope to see my isc goes to the top form this semester
but who cares about that anymore. now i am so busy with my ISC stuff hoping that everything will go well for the second half of the semester. i have finish typing my letter and now doing my ISC report and also writing my delegate report for NLCAC'04. so tiring leh.... so many things to do... it is like writing an assignment with up to 15-20 pages of work to write.... and then still need to recheck my grammar and spellung mistake before my deputy convenor start complaining.
anywayz.... guess where i am agian... same old place at flat 42.... my second home where i go online and chat....... hehehehe. hope all my executives is doing well at thier jobs and hope to see my isc goes to the top form this semester
Sunday, 18 July 2004
LOST MY HOUSE KEY
Today, i was being robbed not personally though... just my car.... i have lost my nice middle compartment which inside the compartment is my house key and handsfree set... :( and now my rear passanger seat window is broken and i have to repair it....
people say when we go pray should feel say... but what a day... being rob after finish praying. well i guess it is fated so no comment....
but now i am kinda happy though eating hot pot at my friends place at FLAT 42... what a nice people they are... for treating me hot pot.... very sweet of them.... anyway now i am in this sweet gal room playing internet like yesterday....
spending time with her is fun and interesting.... she and her group of friends can really mke me luagh and happy... i don't know why but it make me feel that way.... i am so luck to have a lot of such type of friend... one group is my cehceh and koko group... the long lasting ISC group,.. then my isc executives... and now this bunch of friends... now i feel i am ery lucky because although it is without stephanie it seem like my life is still full of joy and happiness with all of them around.....
people say when we go pray should feel say... but what a day... being rob after finish praying. well i guess it is fated so no comment....
but now i am kinda happy though eating hot pot at my friends place at FLAT 42... what a nice people they are... for treating me hot pot.... very sweet of them.... anyway now i am in this sweet gal room playing internet like yesterday....
spending time with her is fun and interesting.... she and her group of friends can really mke me luagh and happy... i don't know why but it make me feel that way.... i am so luck to have a lot of such type of friend... one group is my cehceh and koko group... the long lasting ISC group,.. then my isc executives... and now this bunch of friends... now i feel i am ery lucky because although it is without stephanie it seem like my life is still full of joy and happiness with all of them around.....
Days after training in AC
What a boring time i have in perth....... it has been 7 days after AC finsih and i feel so lost with my life full of boredom..... although there is so much of boredom.... there is some up and down as well.
my result waas released at 14 july 2004..... it was such a great day for me as i am able to pass all. other than that i have watch to movie over the pass one week, King Arthur and Spiderman 2... :D
well i guess that is all for my fun time over the week. i have been sleeping at home most of the time spending like 17 hrs sleeping 3 hours playing games and 4 hours doing stupid stuff.... :D
now i am in FLAT 42, ERICA Underwood... at one of my friends place and one of the most craziest place in Perth, with people like Amandaa......, Cherrieeeee..... and Diannaaaaaa......threee little kidz..... :P
well hope next week will be a great week as orientation week at Curtin Uni will be starting soon..... and also i will be waiting to meet ISC Angel, huey ying arrival hope to see her back in perth soon...... miss her ya....... everyone please askkkkk her to come back to perth soon.... life is so sien without her here......
my result waas released at 14 july 2004..... it was such a great day for me as i am able to pass all. other than that i have watch to movie over the pass one week, King Arthur and Spiderman 2... :D
well i guess that is all for my fun time over the week. i have been sleeping at home most of the time spending like 17 hrs sleeping 3 hours playing games and 4 hours doing stupid stuff.... :D
now i am in FLAT 42, ERICA Underwood... at one of my friends place and one of the most craziest place in Perth, with people like Amandaa......, Cherrieeeee..... and Diannaaaaaa......threee little kidz..... :P
well hope next week will be a great week as orientation week at Curtin Uni will be starting soon..... and also i will be waiting to meet ISC Angel, huey ying arrival hope to see her back in perth soon...... miss her ya....... everyone please askkkkk her to come back to perth soon.... life is so sien without her here......
Tuesday, 29 June 2004
Bad day
What a day today.... i was so sick that i slept at Starbuck coffee for like 4 hrs... :D. hehehe. but what is nice is that i am able to drink my coffee at starbuck and almost everyday.
finally, i start my shopping i got a FCUK t-shirt for $19 and a shoe for $100 tommorow i might go get the giodarno jacket for $130 hehehe. so fun shopping here. but without money it is really suffering so many things to get and so expensive. :D
orh.. forget to tell. the backpackers is getting worst everyday don't know why. it seem like the weather is getting colder and i start to feel it is freeze in the backpackers and the smell is just unbareable. i might stay up late at crown casino lobby today and come back and sleep early in the morning.
finally, i start my shopping i got a FCUK t-shirt for $19 and a shoe for $100 tommorow i might go get the giodarno jacket for $130 hehehe. so fun shopping here. but without money it is really suffering so many things to get and so expensive. :D
orh.. forget to tell. the backpackers is getting worst everyday don't know why. it seem like the weather is getting colder and i start to feel it is freeze in the backpackers and the smell is just unbareable. i might stay up late at crown casino lobby today and come back and sleep early in the morning.
Sunday, 27 June 2004
Trip to melbourne
wel.. My second in melbourne. not bad for a start i guess. but i can imagine how bad this trip could get if i haven't solve my probelm before coming.
first, i have problem with my financial becuase my freind unable to gte online and transfer the fund so pretty bad enough for me. but it's alright becuase not her fault is the banking system. then my housemate not willing to pay me the bill money damn shit.... further to that cause me trouble in my accomadation because she didn't tell me, my friend in melbourne is leaving which my friend told her to tell me. ergh..... lucky i found a backpacker later... :D anyway now i am safe and sound with my life going pretty fine. hanging around with Tedy and Elisabeth here and there. hehe.
We has just went to Chapel St, South Yarra. pretty fun :D. later we will be going to play pool agian yeah...... So that for today... oh.. forget about yesterday.... i was going out with my god sister, Chrsitine to Crown Casino where we go and play games and watch "Day after tommorow" what a nice movie like it so much .... espaically the graphics... :D
anyway i am looking for to spend more time here so see how it goes... :P
first, i have problem with my financial becuase my freind unable to gte online and transfer the fund so pretty bad enough for me. but it's alright becuase not her fault is the banking system. then my housemate not willing to pay me the bill money damn shit.... further to that cause me trouble in my accomadation because she didn't tell me, my friend in melbourne is leaving which my friend told her to tell me. ergh..... lucky i found a backpacker later... :D anyway now i am safe and sound with my life going pretty fine. hanging around with Tedy and Elisabeth here and there. hehe.
We has just went to Chapel St, South Yarra. pretty fun :D. later we will be going to play pool agian yeah...... So that for today... oh.. forget about yesterday.... i was going out with my god sister, Chrsitine to Crown Casino where we go and play games and watch "Day after tommorow" what a nice movie like it so much .... espaically the graphics... :D
anyway i am looking for to spend more time here so see how it goes... :P
Sunday, 20 June 2004
A Day i call saturday
Well.... it have been a pretty bored day for me. however, i did go watch movie with my good freind tiffy and joey.... :D harry porter.... :D. then i was playing game the whole day after that and wondering what a life i have.
Exam, Relationship, Family and Work what is all this. is life must be tough at certain stages just to make a person grow stronger and tougher. can't we eventually developed to become strong and tough as we grow without suffering so much.... hm... well i guess people always say, we will not learn if we don't suffer or get some hard time... well anyway it is one very boring saturday.....
Exam, Relationship, Family and Work what is all this. is life must be tough at certain stages just to make a person grow stronger and tougher. can't we eventually developed to become strong and tough as we grow without suffering so much.... hm... well i guess people always say, we will not learn if we don't suffer or get some hard time... well anyway it is one very boring saturday.....
Saturday, 19 June 2004
A peaceful day
Well... for the first time is many weeks.... i experienced a very peaceful day. Nothing seem to be very bad today. Exam goes pretty well.... university seem peaceful. and freinds are all quite happy.
i went to the airport today to send of candice and stiener. wat a sad thing gonna miss her so much and steiner also he brought so much fun to me at perth :D.
then just now i have coffee session with my nicole cehceh and tiffany... wah talk about our childhood story so fun.... they are really great being with them really cheer me up alot wish nicole cehceh will still stay here after she graduate gonna miss her so much too... it seem like evryone is leaving after this semester and my good friends are getting lesser. :(
nvm, i know in my heart they will always be around with them all around me i will happy and strong. oh.. forget about the most important thing, i was chatting with mie mie :D guess who.... well find out yourself. she is just so wonderful such a good listenner and adviser, i was like chatting with her for almost an hour... she is just so great... love chatting with her... she know so much stuff and most importantly she is a saggi... same as me hehehe.
i love all of them so much so nice and sweet... thanks guys you are the best
i went to the airport today to send of candice and stiener. wat a sad thing gonna miss her so much and steiner also he brought so much fun to me at perth :D.
then just now i have coffee session with my nicole cehceh and tiffany... wah talk about our childhood story so fun.... they are really great being with them really cheer me up alot wish nicole cehceh will still stay here after she graduate gonna miss her so much too... it seem like evryone is leaving after this semester and my good friends are getting lesser. :(
nvm, i know in my heart they will always be around with them all around me i will happy and strong. oh.. forget about the most important thing, i was chatting with mie mie :D guess who.... well find out yourself. she is just so wonderful such a good listenner and adviser, i was like chatting with her for almost an hour... she is just so great... love chatting with her... she know so much stuff and most importantly she is a saggi... same as me hehehe.
i love all of them so much so nice and sweet... thanks guys you are the best
Thursday, 17 June 2004
Exam today
WTF? today is really a hell day. 1st have my exam which i did so badly and don't know whether i can pass or not and then my university make my life even difficult.
Ok let me tell you what happen. My international office in curtin university is telling us that they don't serve current international students anymore and just prospective international students. what kind of services is that. they added that such services for current student will be shifted to Student central. Do they even know how long the queue is at student central during the first few week of uni. What do they think we are really cash cow is it. WE pay about hundred thousand dollar and yet they don't want to serve us specially. DAMN Uni..... Well hope my next move will get the massage across may all the god be with me and stop this miniac from doing silly things.
So that is my uni..... as for my exam hm... another paper tommmorow at 3.30 pm so scared now need to study hard..... soooo no much time in writing this blog...
hope things will get better, really scared now.... life is getting tougher day by day... and my time is running short in doing all my things. now i feel so lonely and just wish to go back brunei and meet my parents who love me so much and pretty sister. :D hope they are all fine and stay healthy.
Ok let me tell you what happen. My international office in curtin university is telling us that they don't serve current international students anymore and just prospective international students. what kind of services is that. they added that such services for current student will be shifted to Student central. Do they even know how long the queue is at student central during the first few week of uni. What do they think we are really cash cow is it. WE pay about hundred thousand dollar and yet they don't want to serve us specially. DAMN Uni..... Well hope my next move will get the massage across may all the god be with me and stop this miniac from doing silly things.
So that is my uni..... as for my exam hm... another paper tommmorow at 3.30 pm so scared now need to study hard..... soooo no much time in writing this blog...
hope things will get better, really scared now.... life is getting tougher day by day... and my time is running short in doing all my things. now i feel so lonely and just wish to go back brunei and meet my parents who love me so much and pretty sister. :D hope they are all fine and stay healthy.
Wednesday, 16 June 2004
Exam Around The Corner
Hm... exam is like 12hrs and yet i only start studying for the paper. well that's me being lazy and sad. today aren't that good either. i was so stupid just going university to see her and hoping to make myself feel better and study but who knows it turn out to be worst cause she was holding her so-called ex-bf hand and walking to the car. i am so disappointed and frustrated. i am here thinking about her and supporting her and yet she do this to me. but what can i say love is always unfair just that it has been unfair to me for the past 5 years of my life.
well she really pisses me off but still i miss her don;t know why, wish i can get over her. anyway thanks to her, i have an excuse of not study bad me huh.... always so unlucky near exam such things happen. happen to me in 2000, 2001, 2003 and 2004. 4 out of my last 5 year. break up with my first girlfriend in 2000 one week before my major 'O' level exam. In 2001, thanks to my so sweet lover make me half hanging and don;t know what to do and later happen agian in 2003 make me suffer from major depression for the whole year. finally get over it late last year. and this new girl came in and thought she will make a different outcome who know it happen to be the same. few days before my assignment due and one of my major paper and two week before my other final paper. :( what a LIFE?
ok enough with that. EXAM and study, hmm think about it i have some friend who are keep on supporting me like just now, i went to easy way with Cherrie and Amanda accompanying me. they were so nice although this is the first time i go out with them. and there i met zoey and her friends which make me think of steph well too bad. other than them, i have all my cehceh here like nicole and dine, candice, stiener & tiffany my good friend as well as my koko, david and kenny. they are all so nice to always cheer me up and talk to me. so happy to have them around but sad thing after next semester this group will split up coz some r graduating. :(
okie i guess now i need to go back to study if not my $1500 is gone. hehehe my graduation prize money :D thanks to my beloved sister and parents.
well she really pisses me off but still i miss her don;t know why, wish i can get over her. anyway thanks to her, i have an excuse of not study bad me huh.... always so unlucky near exam such things happen. happen to me in 2000, 2001, 2003 and 2004. 4 out of my last 5 year. break up with my first girlfriend in 2000 one week before my major 'O' level exam. In 2001, thanks to my so sweet lover make me half hanging and don;t know what to do and later happen agian in 2003 make me suffer from major depression for the whole year. finally get over it late last year. and this new girl came in and thought she will make a different outcome who know it happen to be the same. few days before my assignment due and one of my major paper and two week before my other final paper. :( what a LIFE?
ok enough with that. EXAM and study, hmm think about it i have some friend who are keep on supporting me like just now, i went to easy way with Cherrie and Amanda accompanying me. they were so nice although this is the first time i go out with them. and there i met zoey and her friends which make me think of steph well too bad. other than them, i have all my cehceh here like nicole and dine, candice, stiener & tiffany my good friend as well as my koko, david and kenny. they are all so nice to always cheer me up and talk to me. so happy to have them around but sad thing after next semester this group will split up coz some r graduating. :(
okie i guess now i need to go back to study if not my $1500 is gone. hehehe my graduation prize money :D thanks to my beloved sister and parents.
Tuesday, 15 June 2004
One Day Before My First Paper Exam
Well... Come and think about it. i haven't been studying for the past one week niether have i concentrate on my study. it is so hard to know what i want. i keep telling myself and my freind around me i am fine etc but actually i am not. i miss her so much and yet i can't get in touch with her. she seem to be in my mind 24/7 and nothing can take her away. i try not to think about her but it seem to be just so hard, i play game and talk to other, yet she still in my mind after that. i really don't know what to do to forget her. i am now so scared exam is like tommorrow and yet i only study two chapter of my book out fo 5 for the friday paper. and tommorrow paper none at all. i guess i better focus on my study first. hell it is a tough time, i wish she understand that i am now in a hell mode but can't express to her that cause i know she is also in a trouble mode. all the best for her and for myself... :)
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