Welll...... everyone say Sydney is a nice place but i guess i have a bad time here... since arrriving in Sydney been is extreme unhappy..... :( why....
1) my camera drop from the tripod stand and the lens was damage and i have to repair it which cost $300 and i ahve no choice but to repair it even though my freind keep asking me not to. but i guess it is becuase i love my camera so much. Disappointingly, my dear don't understand me and i was damn upset when she said the same thing also.... :(. well, i guess that is what happen espaically such thing happen. Well... conly My fren, salina support me in changing lens other than my parents without me getting more upset.
2) My mood is so down here... i miss my dear so much.... worry about her at work but don't know how to tell her. and i knwo i don't have much time talking to her now... cause she is working. Further to that, she can't recharge her phone coz no money so can't message me. i feel so burden and more burden than before i guess when i officially resign by end of the month.
So like that loh.. in short further to that... the weather here has spoil my mood so badly keep raining and give me the feeling of unhapiness and feel like lazy and tired.... i wish my dear is here to support me and accompany now...
Thursday 30 June 2005
Monday 27 June 2005
Decision
Life has been full of decision making, some decision is for better good and others are for worst bad. We never know what decision we made is right or wrong till the day come. Today, I have made up my mind and courage to resign from my position as General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild, for one simple reason, “Selfishness”. It seem that I am going through a lot over the months trying to find my true self again but never quite getting there.
Today, I feel I am getting to the place where I want to be. To be one of the top international student representative and not a student representative, what is the difference? Being an international student representative only deal with international student issue and a student representative deal with all student issue, I was once told that not to take up the position and advise to just let others do it but I choose to go for it for the better of international students’ voice. Now, I realize I have been ashamed by other student representative; I have failed my fellow international students.
I guess I should have not take up anything and go back home, I might change my faith even with my dearest Yoyo. It seems that now my life is all upside down without direction feeling lost and unwanted. It makes me feel I lost everything, everything I built over the years. I try my best to made International Students Committee (ISC), a well-known student representative not only on-campus but off-campus as well… I guess I have not manage to do it… and I believe that Tiffany, this year have done it. I used to think that maybe it is what I did last year that craft ISC this year but I was wrong. The reason why I think so it that I don’t have a good public speaking and good English to communicate my ideas, no one seems to understand me.
Decision to change one’s life
Now, I believe that if I can’t craft a better person of myself. I will never be able to serve my fellow international students. I will try my best to read more books to understand my issues, so I can be more prepared, more resourceful and more knowledgeable. I will take my remaining time to ensure that I do my best in my study and show to others I can do it; I can be the best in things I do. I am Jacky Teo….. I can change the life of international students in Western Australia, I can make them feel like they are welcome and represented properly and accordingly. I have quit my job as Gen Sec, and now I will do what I love and without regret make it the best organisation in WA, and Australia. Both ISC and NLCWEST will have to be effective and efficient, where all international students want to know about and join. It will be my aim and objective to stay focus and shall not divert my interest and do all my best.
I hope I can do it, no matter what I must do it. I have to…. Decision I shall not regrets. Hope my parents will forgive me for giving them extra burden, I will make sure that, their hardship and love will be great endure and appreciated. Thank to my parents, Sister, My dear Yoshiko and all my friends. I will prove to be a worthwhile person again. I will and I must.
Today, I feel I am getting to the place where I want to be. To be one of the top international student representative and not a student representative, what is the difference? Being an international student representative only deal with international student issue and a student representative deal with all student issue, I was once told that not to take up the position and advise to just let others do it but I choose to go for it for the better of international students’ voice. Now, I realize I have been ashamed by other student representative; I have failed my fellow international students.
I guess I should have not take up anything and go back home, I might change my faith even with my dearest Yoyo. It seems that now my life is all upside down without direction feeling lost and unwanted. It makes me feel I lost everything, everything I built over the years. I try my best to made International Students Committee (ISC), a well-known student representative not only on-campus but off-campus as well… I guess I have not manage to do it… and I believe that Tiffany, this year have done it. I used to think that maybe it is what I did last year that craft ISC this year but I was wrong. The reason why I think so it that I don’t have a good public speaking and good English to communicate my ideas, no one seems to understand me.
Decision to change one’s life
Now, I believe that if I can’t craft a better person of myself. I will never be able to serve my fellow international students. I will try my best to read more books to understand my issues, so I can be more prepared, more resourceful and more knowledgeable. I will take my remaining time to ensure that I do my best in my study and show to others I can do it; I can be the best in things I do. I am Jacky Teo….. I can change the life of international students in Western Australia, I can make them feel like they are welcome and represented properly and accordingly. I have quit my job as Gen Sec, and now I will do what I love and without regret make it the best organisation in WA, and Australia. Both ISC and NLCWEST will have to be effective and efficient, where all international students want to know about and join. It will be my aim and objective to stay focus and shall not divert my interest and do all my best.
I hope I can do it, no matter what I must do it. I have to…. Decision I shall not regrets. Hope my parents will forgive me for giving them extra burden, I will make sure that, their hardship and love will be great endure and appreciated. Thank to my parents, Sister, My dear Yoshiko and all my friends. I will prove to be a worthwhile person again. I will and I must.
Sunday 5 June 2005
Time to express my life on "DOOM DAY"
Today….. “Doom day”. Well today, I started my day with doing my 40% take home exam due tomorrow but just finished one question out of three. Then I move on in reading blog and came across my friend, Kenny blog…. I haven’t been reading his blog for weeks now. Guess what I came across. According to Kennysia.com, my “living is a confused life” blog is funny only because I made a lot of spelling mistake. Well I guess no one really understand me, this blog expressed the truth in me and what is really in my heart.
Whether it is funny or not, doesn’t really matter to me. Whether people read my blog or not don’t mean a thing to me. So at the same time, whether I did many spelling mistake, who cares.. :P. This is who I am and what I am, like it or not it is the true me and that about my comment towards his comment on my blog.
Back to my own life, since my last update so many things have happen. First of all, my study, I have like 7 assignments due 6 of it worth 40% and one of it worth 20%. STRESSSS!!!!!!! AND VERY STRESSSS!!!!!!!!!
Then move on to my friends…. Lately I was thinking what wrong with my monthly dinner group gang!!! It seems to be very sad and breaking apart lately. As I was talking to some of them I realized that we are going through some sort of low time. It seem like there is more and more internal issues that need to be speak out… SO I will start here and home my fellow monthly dinner gang can continue.
1) I am extremely unhappy being treated like a driver and so I wish you guys can understand especially tat weng. The reason is not because I don’t want to drive you around but you have to understand, we are all students and petrol is really an unnecessarily expenditure just to drive you here and there. Other than that is the way when you actually asked for it, people might feel extremely unhappy when you are bossing around or commanding people to drive you around. Further to that, I am extremely pissed when I already say no and you make a decision by yourself to overturn my decision. For example, I say to meet kah mun at KFC but you told mun we will come and pick you up. It is like you make your decision without actually care who’s car that is and who is driving. This is about being treated like a driver and I hope everyone won’t have a hard feeling towards this comment and take it as time to say everything out before it is too late and our monthly group breaks apart.
2) Candice and Stiener, I don’t have a problem with you guys actually just to say sorry if you guys feel left out. The reasons why I seldom call you guys are because you stay on the opposite side of me. L You are in West Perth and I am in Waterford. I am sure we can work out something to keep in touch and we are still best friend of cause no matter what. You are always my best friends.
3) David Koko and Dine Cehceh, hm… problems with us is that we seldom see one another as often as we used too. It seem like since you guys graduated and married, we have lesser time to meet up due to different commitment and free time so when we meet up it may seem a bit awkward. Nevertheless, you two will always be my koko and cehceh in Perth, sorry to forget and wish you guys happy birthday….. I am really busy with assignment.
4) Gline and Jamie… hm… I guess we have not been very close all these while but certainly we are still in our monthly dinner group as friend who care about one another and a bonding friendship that is to remain strong. Anyway gline, we have to work together mah… so will sure have to keep it strong :D.
5) Mun and Tiffy, well you two I guess not much problems… so no need to say anything…. Because we are still working together and see each other very often in ISC office.
6) Nicole, I guess sometime you might feel I am very bad, which I am sometime… I admit. I feel our problems occurs not because of us but more just because of my stress in study and always see you pretty much at the wrong time or wrong place.
7) Kanny, Mien and Lin, I guess this time I would have to say we are neutral so nothing wrong… coz maybe our friendship is new and that we haven’t put too much personal feeling into our friendship as the friendship is not into the very Mature stage except for me and lin… something like my carer… now hehehe….
8) My dearest, yoyo, well since you left… I have feel so lonely in the group again like the person with partner and seeing everyone with their partner so happy and enjoying themselves.
9) EX-Monthly dinner gang, Kenny & Phang & Joey. Well since you guys leave there is lack of communications between us… but I guess we can work sometime out right… afterall we were once sitting at the same table and eat… :P
I hope this will draw a line to the end of the problems and let us build up or group again never to let it split apart, new member or not doesn’t really matter but our old friendship has to be maintain. Hope none of you have a hard feeling and feel free to criticize all my comment and scold me… afterall we are always open to one another and not much secret kept in between us.
Well... hope to see a brand new friendship….
Whether it is funny or not, doesn’t really matter to me. Whether people read my blog or not don’t mean a thing to me. So at the same time, whether I did many spelling mistake, who cares.. :P. This is who I am and what I am, like it or not it is the true me and that about my comment towards his comment on my blog.
Back to my own life, since my last update so many things have happen. First of all, my study, I have like 7 assignments due 6 of it worth 40% and one of it worth 20%. STRESSSS!!!!!!! AND VERY STRESSSS!!!!!!!!!
Then move on to my friends…. Lately I was thinking what wrong with my monthly dinner group gang!!! It seems to be very sad and breaking apart lately. As I was talking to some of them I realized that we are going through some sort of low time. It seem like there is more and more internal issues that need to be speak out… SO I will start here and home my fellow monthly dinner gang can continue.
1) I am extremely unhappy being treated like a driver and so I wish you guys can understand especially tat weng. The reason is not because I don’t want to drive you around but you have to understand, we are all students and petrol is really an unnecessarily expenditure just to drive you here and there. Other than that is the way when you actually asked for it, people might feel extremely unhappy when you are bossing around or commanding people to drive you around. Further to that, I am extremely pissed when I already say no and you make a decision by yourself to overturn my decision. For example, I say to meet kah mun at KFC but you told mun we will come and pick you up. It is like you make your decision without actually care who’s car that is and who is driving. This is about being treated like a driver and I hope everyone won’t have a hard feeling towards this comment and take it as time to say everything out before it is too late and our monthly group breaks apart.
2) Candice and Stiener, I don’t have a problem with you guys actually just to say sorry if you guys feel left out. The reasons why I seldom call you guys are because you stay on the opposite side of me. L You are in West Perth and I am in Waterford. I am sure we can work out something to keep in touch and we are still best friend of cause no matter what. You are always my best friends.
3) David Koko and Dine Cehceh, hm… problems with us is that we seldom see one another as often as we used too. It seem like since you guys graduated and married, we have lesser time to meet up due to different commitment and free time so when we meet up it may seem a bit awkward. Nevertheless, you two will always be my koko and cehceh in Perth, sorry to forget and wish you guys happy birthday….. I am really busy with assignment.
4) Gline and Jamie… hm… I guess we have not been very close all these while but certainly we are still in our monthly dinner group as friend who care about one another and a bonding friendship that is to remain strong. Anyway gline, we have to work together mah… so will sure have to keep it strong :D.
5) Mun and Tiffy, well you two I guess not much problems… so no need to say anything…. Because we are still working together and see each other very often in ISC office.
6) Nicole, I guess sometime you might feel I am very bad, which I am sometime… I admit. I feel our problems occurs not because of us but more just because of my stress in study and always see you pretty much at the wrong time or wrong place.
7) Kanny, Mien and Lin, I guess this time I would have to say we are neutral so nothing wrong… coz maybe our friendship is new and that we haven’t put too much personal feeling into our friendship as the friendship is not into the very Mature stage except for me and lin… something like my carer… now hehehe….
8) My dearest, yoyo, well since you left… I have feel so lonely in the group again like the person with partner and seeing everyone with their partner so happy and enjoying themselves.
9) EX-Monthly dinner gang, Kenny & Phang & Joey. Well since you guys leave there is lack of communications between us… but I guess we can work sometime out right… afterall we were once sitting at the same table and eat… :P
I hope this will draw a line to the end of the problems and let us build up or group again never to let it split apart, new member or not doesn’t really matter but our old friendship has to be maintain. Hope none of you have a hard feeling and feel free to criticize all my comment and scold me… afterall we are always open to one another and not much secret kept in between us.
Well... hope to see a brand new friendship….
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