It has been my fourth day in K.L. now. Yet another day past by, today yet another different thing happen.
Yesterday, i have went to Federal Hotel to eat with Hui Lin family's. It is a revolving restaurant, itis my first time of going to such restaurant. Thanks to Hui Lin's family, i am able to experience such wonderful dinner. Today, i went to another restaurant to eat.. i think is cal Hau Kee... not bad also very nice... but most wonderful thing is Hui Lin's is able to invite Yo to come along as well. They are really great and wonderful family who are so freindly.
Hm... What really make me nervous and nervous was going out for a day tour with Yoshiko, her sisters and mum. Scared me so much really very nervous. First, we go to KL Tower then to the Memorial Area for WW2 soldier and then to Starbuck near yo's house and later when to her place. Back at her place, i met her dad and chat with him. I was really nervous at first but later get a bit comfortable but Hui Lin and pick us up... Well.... that what i do today.... What is important about today was my feeling.
It was really strange as i never expect this trip and spend so long time with Yoshiko's family. It was really a good oppurtunity for me to understand Yo's family. I might not be able to be with Yoshiko but knowing her family is for the good of me. They are really such nice people like Lin's family. i really don't know i am really touch by thier warm welcoming and reception.
I might be wierd but i hope to spend more time with yo's family after today to know her parents more and to know how they might feel towards me of cause not to miss out how yo's might feel towards me. i know i am not prefect but at least i know what standard i am in thier eye... good? or bad? Some people may say as long as you love her, you no need to worry about the parents but to me i guess after Steph incident's i will consider about what the parents feel towards me and i wish to show them what i am capable at and what is my good and bad points not to hide anything from them. Hope they will like me. :D
Well that's for today...... updated all of you soon
Monday 27 December 2004
Sunday 26 December 2004
The Changing Phase Of Life
It has been ahwile since i feel my life is changing agian. It all come along as i was having my holiday in Malaysia since 22 December 2004, where i am at still. I have enter the country with full of worries and blurness at first until meet my love one, Yoshiko and couple of freinds here as well as my cousin in Malaysia. It shows to me that i am incapable of working in Malaysia and it is stupid for me to give up my oppurtunity to continue my study when i still have chance.
Many thoughts have came to my mind as days past by between Yo and me. She has not only influence my decision a lot but my personality. I know i might not be the guy for her now or in the future but her continue support towards me as a friend is really amazing which i wish it will last forever. During the down time, you may be the cruelest person towards me and hurt me the most but you have show me the different side of friendship and love. I know you are of a different kind from me and i am not the ideal person for you but yet you give me the oppurtunity to try to understand you more and guide me to become a better person. I have decided now that if i got the chance to do my further studies i will take the chance and i will be a successful person and fulfil my dreams.
Between two of us, i really hope that the time will tell. I will leave it to the fate and trust that is inside me. I know i haven't been a very lucky person for my entire life in term of love and suffer many failure cause by myself in entering the wrong relationship but i will never give up hope of taking another chance. So there will not be different this time, knowing you have a bf i will not give up hope that there might be a chance for us to be together. People always say Love is Blind. it is true love is blind and Love is also unfair.
As for my Dine Dine cehceh, the word you say to me before is still in my head. I know i am stubborn when i choose to go after Yo. You have told me to take any consequence i should take for my actions. i will never forget that and keep it in my mind that everything i do now might have a sudden attack on me causing myself to be hurt once more but i have enter this passage and i will fight my through the tough road.
As for Hui Lin, i know you have been there helping me without complaining, i know you have been very understanding and try to help me espaically during times of trouble and sometime give you a lot of difficulties like staying at your place and driving me around and to meet Yoshiko.... Thanks for being such a nice friend and support me. Have a good time in Malaysia...
As for Tiffany and Kah Mun, thanks for being there to listen to my probelms and share our time together in Perth and Malaysia (although it is short) but it is meaningful. I really feel that sometimes i should just don;t have any gf and love life. Fully enjoy my friendship life happily without worrying about all those probelm.. hehehe.... but too bad i can't cause i met Yo.
And to all my friends, thanks ..... thankss..... thanksss...... i wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Every year is a new beginning to a new chapter of a new story.... hope all of you will have a good year. This year i might have a very unhappy year... but i will never give up striving for the better year coming ahead.
I will updated my trip in Malaysia soon... i will leave today blog for this... :D summary.. met some very very cute, nice, funny and kind people like Hui Lin family's, Yoshiko family's and Mun family's.
Many thoughts have came to my mind as days past by between Yo and me. She has not only influence my decision a lot but my personality. I know i might not be the guy for her now or in the future but her continue support towards me as a friend is really amazing which i wish it will last forever. During the down time, you may be the cruelest person towards me and hurt me the most but you have show me the different side of friendship and love. I know you are of a different kind from me and i am not the ideal person for you but yet you give me the oppurtunity to try to understand you more and guide me to become a better person. I have decided now that if i got the chance to do my further studies i will take the chance and i will be a successful person and fulfil my dreams.
Between two of us, i really hope that the time will tell. I will leave it to the fate and trust that is inside me. I know i haven't been a very lucky person for my entire life in term of love and suffer many failure cause by myself in entering the wrong relationship but i will never give up hope of taking another chance. So there will not be different this time, knowing you have a bf i will not give up hope that there might be a chance for us to be together. People always say Love is Blind. it is true love is blind and Love is also unfair.
As for my Dine Dine cehceh, the word you say to me before is still in my head. I know i am stubborn when i choose to go after Yo. You have told me to take any consequence i should take for my actions. i will never forget that and keep it in my mind that everything i do now might have a sudden attack on me causing myself to be hurt once more but i have enter this passage and i will fight my through the tough road.
As for Hui Lin, i know you have been there helping me without complaining, i know you have been very understanding and try to help me espaically during times of trouble and sometime give you a lot of difficulties like staying at your place and driving me around and to meet Yoshiko.... Thanks for being such a nice friend and support me. Have a good time in Malaysia...
As for Tiffany and Kah Mun, thanks for being there to listen to my probelms and share our time together in Perth and Malaysia (although it is short) but it is meaningful. I really feel that sometimes i should just don;t have any gf and love life. Fully enjoy my friendship life happily without worrying about all those probelm.. hehehe.... but too bad i can't cause i met Yo.
And to all my friends, thanks ..... thankss..... thanksss...... i wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Every year is a new beginning to a new chapter of a new story.... hope all of you will have a good year. This year i might have a very unhappy year... but i will never give up striving for the better year coming ahead.
I will updated my trip in Malaysia soon... i will leave today blog for this... :D summary.. met some very very cute, nice, funny and kind people like Hui Lin family's, Yoshiko family's and Mun family's.
Tuesday 21 December 2004
Finally the end of my sister wedding
Well... Here come the end of my sister wedding. Everyone is going back today.. all my relatives from K.L., K.K. and Singapore. What a tiring week.... anyway i would like thanks for those who sent me birthday msg and mail from nic nic cehceh, Kenny koko and david koko.... and the rest :(....
Now... everything is over, i can come back to my room and sleep but only for one more night and flying off to K.L. tomolo. ;)... Packing my stuff now going back to PERTH soon where i have to start paying my own bill etc.... :( clean my own plates and wash my own clothes. hm... thinking about it i seem to have a lot of things to do nest year but i won;t give up. i hope everyone of you won't give up as well on anything you do... thanks for bieng there for me all these while hehehehe. today will be a short blog coz too tired to type... update soon.
Now... everything is over, i can come back to my room and sleep but only for one more night and flying off to K.L. tomolo. ;)... Packing my stuff now going back to PERTH soon where i have to start paying my own bill etc.... :( clean my own plates and wash my own clothes. hm... thinking about it i seem to have a lot of things to do nest year but i won;t give up. i hope everyone of you won't give up as well on anything you do... thanks for bieng there for me all these while hehehehe. today will be a short blog coz too tired to type... update soon.
Saturday 18 December 2004
My Sister Wedding Day 1 & Birthday
17 Dec 2004
My sister wedding dinner.
What a busy day..... From waking up till going to sleep. First in the moring i was asked to pick up my bro-in-law eledest bro from the airport then go to the hotel, have to check all the audio system for the grand hall ensuring the PA system work properly to feature my sister VCD those she created a short few minutes for showing her life story and my bro-in-law life story. then have to do the tea ceremony. after that i have to become Usher, communicator between my parents and the hotel staffs to ensure the banquet goes smoothly, then i have to take photograph hm... multi tasking :P at the end of the day, i am so exhauasted and very tired.... and was pretty upset because no one remember my birthday....at 12 midnight.
when the clock near 12 midnight, i receive a call and it is all the way from Malaysia..... wishing me happy birthday. i was so happy at least one person so far remember my birthday until later before 1am i receive two message from malaysia and brunei. It is from Hui Lin and Dolly, i was so touch they actually remember my birthday too. :D. hm... bad to all my relatives and family forget my birthday hahahaha. just joking i know they are busy with my sis wedding and forget about my birthday. so this year i forgive them but hopefully next year they will give me a big present.
No matter what, i still would like to thank Yo for being the first person to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i am really happy to know you remember, hehehehe. You're the BEST.
Still i will thank, Jason, Sherman and Dine Cehceh for wishing me Happy Birthday when i come online. The REST of You will get from me soon espaically Tiffy, Nic Cehceh, Kenny Koko, Candice, Stiener, David Koko, Mun and those who haven't say happy birthday to me :P. I will humt all of you down hahahahahahaha. :D
Hope to see all of you soon. :P
My sister wedding dinner.
What a busy day..... From waking up till going to sleep. First in the moring i was asked to pick up my bro-in-law eledest bro from the airport then go to the hotel, have to check all the audio system for the grand hall ensuring the PA system work properly to feature my sister VCD those she created a short few minutes for showing her life story and my bro-in-law life story. then have to do the tea ceremony. after that i have to become Usher, communicator between my parents and the hotel staffs to ensure the banquet goes smoothly, then i have to take photograph hm... multi tasking :P at the end of the day, i am so exhauasted and very tired.... and was pretty upset because no one remember my birthday....at 12 midnight.
when the clock near 12 midnight, i receive a call and it is all the way from Malaysia..... wishing me happy birthday. i was so happy at least one person so far remember my birthday until later before 1am i receive two message from malaysia and brunei. It is from Hui Lin and Dolly, i was so touch they actually remember my birthday too. :D. hm... bad to all my relatives and family forget my birthday hahahaha. just joking i know they are busy with my sis wedding and forget about my birthday. so this year i forgive them but hopefully next year they will give me a big present.
No matter what, i still would like to thank Yo for being the first person to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i am really happy to know you remember, hehehehe. You're the BEST.
Still i will thank, Jason, Sherman and Dine Cehceh for wishing me Happy Birthday when i come online. The REST of You will get from me soon espaically Tiffy, Nic Cehceh, Kenny Koko, Candice, Stiener, David Koko, Mun and those who haven't say happy birthday to me :P. I will humt all of you down hahahahahahaha. :D
Hope to see all of you soon. :P
Thursday 16 December 2004
Result is Out, Where Am I From Now
Well it has been awhile since i last posted :D. but this time there will be some good news i have pass all my unit this semester agian. thank god. i guess all of this not only thank to myself but thanks to Yoshiko cause she has always been there for me and support me. she has always been there to scold me and to ensure i will pass all my units. At first i really very pissed off coz someone is there bugging me but now i feel if not becuase she care about my result and me, she won't even bother to do that.
i am very happy that she pass all her units and with a pretty good result also. i really feel so different now... is like 2 more units left before i finish my degree and i really hope i can pass all unit and become a degree graduate. that what i hope for now.
As for my 2005, should i graduate and work or should i continue study and work as gen sec of the guild? i really don't know now hm... wish i have an answer soon.
I was also thinking about should i go Malaysia/Brunei/Perth, if i choose to graduate.
Now i know how it feel when you goona graduate. Most important thing of all, i no longer the same as before many have told me. i guess it is true, i have become more stubborn and more firm in my decision. No longer,i give up my love so easily.
Yoyo?Yoyo? how important is this gal to me actually? Am i really willing to scarifise? How much do i love her? can i really leave without her? Is she the one? is she what i want?
Well, answer is YES, she is very important, i am willing to scarifise, i love her alot, i think she is the one, she is the one and NO, i can't live with her. this is because my lifestyle and everything about me have change. it is hard to say what goona happen in the future but i believe if she give em the chance we can make it through.
i know i am not prefect, i know i am not the ideal person but i know i can make u happy if u give me the chance. i will try my best to ensure u feel like the happiest gal alive. no matter what, u are now my everything. i used to tell u, u are just below my family and now u are the same as them. you are as important as them. Hope you know, you mean so much to me and losing you is like cutting my own flesh and give it away. i can't bear to lose you. i know you really very pissed off with me and you hate me now for bothering u so much.i will try my best to control myself not to bother u anymore as well.... eventhough i am asking for u to give me chance, i guess u need some quiet time.
Btw, i am going to malaysia agian on 23 Dec and going to Perth on 26 Dec. and this remind me that my last trip was not that great but it is nice to find out that hui lin, you r really so great in helping me and care about me and mun thanks for letting staying over at ur place and thanks to tat weng for picking me up from the airport and thanks to gina for accompany for one day. lastly thanks to YO, for giving me a chance to meet u even tough is short, but it will me in my heart.
i am very happy that she pass all her units and with a pretty good result also. i really feel so different now... is like 2 more units left before i finish my degree and i really hope i can pass all unit and become a degree graduate. that what i hope for now.
As for my 2005, should i graduate and work or should i continue study and work as gen sec of the guild? i really don't know now hm... wish i have an answer soon.
I was also thinking about should i go Malaysia/Brunei/Perth, if i choose to graduate.
Now i know how it feel when you goona graduate. Most important thing of all, i no longer the same as before many have told me. i guess it is true, i have become more stubborn and more firm in my decision. No longer,i give up my love so easily.
Yoyo?Yoyo? how important is this gal to me actually? Am i really willing to scarifise? How much do i love her? can i really leave without her? Is she the one? is she what i want?
Well, answer is YES, she is very important, i am willing to scarifise, i love her alot, i think she is the one, she is the one and NO, i can't live with her. this is because my lifestyle and everything about me have change. it is hard to say what goona happen in the future but i believe if she give em the chance we can make it through.
i know i am not prefect, i know i am not the ideal person but i know i can make u happy if u give me the chance. i will try my best to ensure u feel like the happiest gal alive. no matter what, u are now my everything. i used to tell u, u are just below my family and now u are the same as them. you are as important as them. Hope you know, you mean so much to me and losing you is like cutting my own flesh and give it away. i can't bear to lose you. i know you really very pissed off with me and you hate me now for bothering u so much.i will try my best to control myself not to bother u anymore as well.... eventhough i am asking for u to give me chance, i guess u need some quiet time.
Btw, i am going to malaysia agian on 23 Dec and going to Perth on 26 Dec. and this remind me that my last trip was not that great but it is nice to find out that hui lin, you r really so great in helping me and care about me and mun thanks for letting staying over at ur place and thanks to tat weng for picking me up from the airport and thanks to gina for accompany for one day. lastly thanks to YO, for giving me a chance to meet u even tough is short, but it will me in my heart.
Tuesday 7 December 2004
My time in Singapore and Brunei
Well......
i thought i have post up my update when i am in singapore i guess i missed. thnaks to stiener and candice i am able to enjoy a wonderful day trip out..
They bring me to newton food centre, commonwealth food centre and orchard rd to shop... and also many more places.... most importantly is i have fun day out with them. :D
thanks alot.
Well going back to Brunei was a hassel. for second time in a row i got problem with my flight. this time is the ground staff put me at the wrong flight. i supposedly to fly off on 29th nov but they put me on 28th nov to brunei, My carelessness for not checking the boarding pass as well on the date. :(... but thanks got Singapore airline willing to pay for my flight to fly to Brunei using RBA on the same day.
Back to Brunei.... finally meet my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother in law and some of my frens... orh.. forgot my sister new puppy, Hazel. Well what can i say a totally new place here, not only the city area change my whole town seem to have a whole new changeover and my house as well.
My Tutong House
Well now, we got sattelite in place which allows me to watch so many otehr channel espaically the chinese one... wahh... so great leh... so long never watch chinese movie laiw... miss it so much.
My Sister place in the City (BANDAR)
Well is rented a pretty big house, which she only pay less that $200 per month coz the goverment pay the rest as she is a goverment employee. :D there i enjoy my stay espaically the spacacious living room where i sleep all day watch DVD and ASTRO and now watching the Series, "Seed of Hope" at Wah Lai Toi, Weekdays 8.30pm, repeat at 2am and 10.30 am. :D. don't forget to watch orh....
As for my family, Well they are now so busy everyone preparing for my sister wedding... when i hear the numebr they goona invite i was shock it is up to 630people incld up to like 200 relatives from Malaysia, Singapore and Brunei. everyone is so busy for the wedding. hm... luckily is not mine... hahaha stilla logn way to go...
Well my sister brought a PRADO hm... so nice lah one family can go out wihtout any probelms since now is like 5 person travelling. and My house now have like 5 cars hehehe... My mum have a Nissan Laurel, my dad have a Toyota Corrolla for him to go work, My Sister have a Honda Accord, My brother in law have a Toyota Crown and My Bro-in-law and Sister have a Prado. :D so now i m driving my sister Accord yeah..... :D...
Well that's the happy thing in Brunei, bad news is that, i am so bored and miss Yoyo so much... Hope she is around always... so sad... Lately keep quarrelling with her isn;t that happy anyway. Well i guess that what happen when you love someone who is in love with someone else and is attached. :(. have to wait for them to deattached 1st then you might have a chance.
This time in Brunei, really make me so clear how much more important you are to me. i know it is not the same case for you because you don't have the same feeling as me. i really hope i can see you soon. life with you is really so hard. Now it keep me wondering what happen if you are not going back to study will i continue study or not? should i go to Malaysia and work or what. :D But i guess i have my pathway set.. and either way, i will still choose not to lose you. i will fight till the end and hopefully the star and moon will shine towards us. hopefully the nature of love and power of love will be with us.
I have been counting since day 1 and now it is only 2 days away from me stepping into the same zone with you, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. See you soon dear.
Last before my blog for today ends, i really wanna thanks everyone of my freinds who is planning my trip to KL orh.. and espcially Hui Lin. Well,thanks for everyting you did in Perth, i am so sorry that i can' help you much with a lot fo things, espaically packing & the rent thingy. hope you will forgive me. becuase i kinda feel bad though.... :D anyway i will always remember ur kindness :D take care....
i thought i have post up my update when i am in singapore i guess i missed. thnaks to stiener and candice i am able to enjoy a wonderful day trip out..
They bring me to newton food centre, commonwealth food centre and orchard rd to shop... and also many more places.... most importantly is i have fun day out with them. :D
thanks alot.
Well going back to Brunei was a hassel. for second time in a row i got problem with my flight. this time is the ground staff put me at the wrong flight. i supposedly to fly off on 29th nov but they put me on 28th nov to brunei, My carelessness for not checking the boarding pass as well on the date. :(... but thanks got Singapore airline willing to pay for my flight to fly to Brunei using RBA on the same day.
Back to Brunei.... finally meet my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother in law and some of my frens... orh.. forgot my sister new puppy, Hazel. Well what can i say a totally new place here, not only the city area change my whole town seem to have a whole new changeover and my house as well.
My Tutong House
Well now, we got sattelite in place which allows me to watch so many otehr channel espaically the chinese one... wahh... so great leh... so long never watch chinese movie laiw... miss it so much.
My Sister place in the City (BANDAR)
Well is rented a pretty big house, which she only pay less that $200 per month coz the goverment pay the rest as she is a goverment employee. :D there i enjoy my stay espaically the spacacious living room where i sleep all day watch DVD and ASTRO and now watching the Series, "Seed of Hope" at Wah Lai Toi, Weekdays 8.30pm, repeat at 2am and 10.30 am. :D. don't forget to watch orh....
As for my family, Well they are now so busy everyone preparing for my sister wedding... when i hear the numebr they goona invite i was shock it is up to 630people incld up to like 200 relatives from Malaysia, Singapore and Brunei. everyone is so busy for the wedding. hm... luckily is not mine... hahaha stilla logn way to go...
Well my sister brought a PRADO hm... so nice lah one family can go out wihtout any probelms since now is like 5 person travelling. and My house now have like 5 cars hehehe... My mum have a Nissan Laurel, my dad have a Toyota Corrolla for him to go work, My Sister have a Honda Accord, My brother in law have a Toyota Crown and My Bro-in-law and Sister have a Prado. :D so now i m driving my sister Accord yeah..... :D...
Well that's the happy thing in Brunei, bad news is that, i am so bored and miss Yoyo so much... Hope she is around always... so sad... Lately keep quarrelling with her isn;t that happy anyway. Well i guess that what happen when you love someone who is in love with someone else and is attached. :(. have to wait for them to deattached 1st then you might have a chance.
This time in Brunei, really make me so clear how much more important you are to me. i know it is not the same case for you because you don't have the same feeling as me. i really hope i can see you soon. life with you is really so hard. Now it keep me wondering what happen if you are not going back to study will i continue study or not? should i go to Malaysia and work or what. :D But i guess i have my pathway set.. and either way, i will still choose not to lose you. i will fight till the end and hopefully the star and moon will shine towards us. hopefully the nature of love and power of love will be with us.
I have been counting since day 1 and now it is only 2 days away from me stepping into the same zone with you, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. See you soon dear.
Last before my blog for today ends, i really wanna thanks everyone of my freinds who is planning my trip to KL orh.. and espcially Hui Lin. Well,thanks for everyting you did in Perth, i am so sorry that i can' help you much with a lot fo things, espaically packing & the rent thingy. hope you will forgive me. becuase i kinda feel bad though.... :D anyway i will always remember ur kindness :D take care....
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