I have been so stress out lately with all the work I am doing; I seem to be running out of time. Lately it is brought to my attention that I have put too much commitment on friends and various others issues that I shouldn’t have.
1) Friendship VS Time
I hope my friend will understanding, I have been abandoning them and refusing to take any actions to improve my friendship for various reasons.
I have so much commitment that it is not funny!!!! I can’t think for them or care for them as much as some may think I do. I no longer can stop myself from restricting myself from have the little bit of time to be alone or relaxing or my freedom of movement.
Sometime, when friends have put all expectation on you to do all the things, you can’t commit to all. I feel I have burn too much of my time on those, trying to meet others requirement so that I can maintain the friendship. WELL???? Today things must change, I myself are in deep shit… I don’t even have time for myself or someone very important in my life; I don’t believe I should take this responsibility anymore for now.
My 4th Priority
2) Girlfriend and Family VS Time
Well, lately been a very disappointing case, my dearest one and my family, long being neglected especially my family. I feel so sorry. They are so worried about me but I don’t have the half an hour to calm them and talk to them… I believe I have to put effort into my family and to keep them less worried and remain happy
As for my dearest one, I feel extremely bad lately but never wish to tell her face to face or directly but I hope she read this now. I am extremely load fully and don’t have the time. Many occasions, I have just forget about caring for her but feeling extremely bad but then I lied to her saying, I am just testing you to let you know how it feel etc. I feel I have been neglecting her. I feel I have been hurting her feeling when sometime I am too emotional because of my time constraints. I always feel she don’t understand and comprise to the time limitation I have, but at the same time being ignorance about her busy time limitation due to heavy work load of housework, searching for jobs, SGM activities and “others” friends :P.
I will try my best to take all the time I can save to put on this group.
My 2nd priority
3) Work VS Time
With the high level of workload to be done, it has certainly been a tough time for me. I have to ensure all of my work is done and that it will remain my 1st priority now. No matter what I have the rest can wait… L
4) Resting VS Time
Well after my commitment for my workload and my closest one, I think I deserve a bit of time everyday to sleep. I am no super human and doesn’t posses any super strength to keep me workable for 24hr/7day/52week. So I have at least one day of total rest and minimum of 4 hours of sleep… and work for the next 20hr.
Finally, I have just got back from Melbourne for my State responsibility and now have to back on the ball to complete my study responsibilities.
Tuesday 24 May 2005
Sunday 15 May 2005
Tough road ahead
Well, I guess my road in this coming months seem to be tougher than I thought. I am now in a multiple roles for student representatives and also in my life. Day after day I am thinking of whom I am and what I am doing.
Today, I have been doing a reviewing of my life. Realising, I have a shorter life than what I suppose to have. WONDER WHY?
AS STUDENT REPRESENTATIVE, I am now not only the General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild, but also NLCWEST Branch Convenor and ISC MCW Chairperson. Since Yo’s Departure from Perth, that’s the way I choose to entertain myself with. Nevertheless, due to tremendous slackness in doing my work, I now have like 6 assignment and 13 summaries to hand in. No one knows how I am going to cope with it at the same time no one will know how I am going to deal with this stress.
Outside of that, financially, I have to pay a $960 rental by tomorrow but only have in total $925 with me. I now feel that, I am just in the worst crisis ever that will happen to me. I can’t even ask for financial assistance from my parent because I have already asked once and that is to clear most of my debt and now it will be all up to me.
Well… apart from all those what is the toughest road I have is that I have work out budget and timeline that I have to meet to further organize my time and my person. Whether it is going to work or not, i certainly have to see. Well it has some cost and benefits.
Benefits;-
1) more organized and steady life
2) save more money for future
3) less worry for my family
4) having a quite life
Cost;-
1) Might lose my love one, coz I can’t call her all the time and catch up with her
2) Less social life and less fun time
3) Can’t go out eat all the time and have to stay at home
Am I willing to take the risk… to lose my dearest one… is she going to leave me? I don’t know. Well regardless what, I am now one of the world’s most unconfident person but will till take the courage to do it… no matter wat it takes. May all my frens regards wat religion ur are to bless me… going through this pathway easily and become a better person.
Today, I have been doing a reviewing of my life. Realising, I have a shorter life than what I suppose to have. WONDER WHY?
AS STUDENT REPRESENTATIVE, I am now not only the General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild, but also NLCWEST Branch Convenor and ISC MCW Chairperson. Since Yo’s Departure from Perth, that’s the way I choose to entertain myself with. Nevertheless, due to tremendous slackness in doing my work, I now have like 6 assignment and 13 summaries to hand in. No one knows how I am going to cope with it at the same time no one will know how I am going to deal with this stress.
Outside of that, financially, I have to pay a $960 rental by tomorrow but only have in total $925 with me. I now feel that, I am just in the worst crisis ever that will happen to me. I can’t even ask for financial assistance from my parent because I have already asked once and that is to clear most of my debt and now it will be all up to me.
Well… apart from all those what is the toughest road I have is that I have work out budget and timeline that I have to meet to further organize my time and my person. Whether it is going to work or not, i certainly have to see. Well it has some cost and benefits.
Benefits;-
1) more organized and steady life
2) save more money for future
3) less worry for my family
4) having a quite life
Cost;-
1) Might lose my love one, coz I can’t call her all the time and catch up with her
2) Less social life and less fun time
3) Can’t go out eat all the time and have to stay at home
Am I willing to take the risk… to lose my dearest one… is she going to leave me? I don’t know. Well regardless what, I am now one of the world’s most unconfident person but will till take the courage to do it… no matter wat it takes. May all my frens regards wat religion ur are to bless me… going through this pathway easily and become a better person.
Tuesday 3 May 2005
DEADLINES To meet
Here is the outline of work i have to get it done from this week onwards.. STREESSSS :(
One-page summary by (5 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought
Session 9 (10 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought
May 27th
Ministerial Briefing Paper –Strategic Geography
Session 12 (May 31)
Briefing paper – World Current Trends
Session 13 (June 7)
Major Essay – World Current Trends
June 10th
Major Essay – Middle East
Jun 13th
Ministerial Briefing Paper – Eurasia Studies
June 20th
Major Essay - Eurasia Studies
One-page summary by (5 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought
Session 9 (10 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought
May 27th
Ministerial Briefing Paper –Strategic Geography
Session 12 (May 31)
Briefing paper – World Current Trends
Session 13 (June 7)
Major Essay – World Current Trends
June 10th
Major Essay – Middle East
Jun 13th
Ministerial Briefing Paper – Eurasia Studies
June 20th
Major Essay - Eurasia Studies
Monday 2 May 2005
My weekend
Well... I have been through such a hectic weekend..... eventhough i ahve a weekbreak.... :(
1) well i went to both NLCWEST BEC and BAC....... hm... what happen there.... talk to couple of ppl from CISWA, NUSWEST ETC... things seem to go well but guess what... i actually don't know what i have got me into by running the Branch Convenor position. Currently, my mind is full of thought about how to imporve eveything i do... including my studies.....
2) welll what you know,.... i lock myself out of my car... and have to pay like $164 for a $64 membership to RAC roadside assistance... :(. well bad luck... for me but now i know that i am covered for one year for any roadside assistance. :P
3) Me and my dear is getting closer and closer every single day. feel like our heart seem to start understanding one another thought and feeling. well still not prefect but getting there... :D
4) assignment.... heheheh half way through got to finish it by today or else i am doom.. :(
5) lost in the sea... guess i am not> :P prefectly fine... will strive for the bettermen of my future.... from now onwards
1) well i went to both NLCWEST BEC and BAC....... hm... what happen there.... talk to couple of ppl from CISWA, NUSWEST ETC... things seem to go well but guess what... i actually don't know what i have got me into by running the Branch Convenor position. Currently, my mind is full of thought about how to imporve eveything i do... including my studies.....
2) welll what you know,.... i lock myself out of my car... and have to pay like $164 for a $64 membership to RAC roadside assistance... :(. well bad luck... for me but now i know that i am covered for one year for any roadside assistance. :P
3) Me and my dear is getting closer and closer every single day. feel like our heart seem to start understanding one another thought and feeling. well still not prefect but getting there... :D
4) assignment.... heheheh half way through got to finish it by today or else i am doom.. :(
5) lost in the sea... guess i am not> :P prefectly fine... will strive for the bettermen of my future.... from now onwards
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