Living in My "Jackz" World!!!

HSBC 60th Anniversary Dinner

2008-01-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

CELEBRATIONS for the diamond jubilee of the Hongkong Shanghai Banking Corporation (HSBC), which began in August last year, last night culminated with a grand banquet held at the International Convention Centre.

Gracing the banquet was His Majesty Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah Mu'izzaddin Waddaulah, the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam, accompanied by Her Majesty Raja Isteri Pengiran Anak Hjh Saleha, Her Royal Highness Pengiran Isteri Azrinaz Mazhar, His Royal High-ness Prince Haji Al-Muhtadee Billah, the Crown Prince and Senior Minister at the Prime Minister's Office, Her Royal Highness Paduka Seri Pengiran Anak Isteri Pengiran Anak Sarah, and other members of the royal family.

The Group Chairman of HSBC Holdings Plc, Stephen Green, recalled in his speech that the financial institution had the honour of hosting a banquet for His Majesty's 60th birthday about 18 months back and last night, His Majesty honoured the bank again by gracing the banquet.

The presence of the members of the royal family and distinguished government representatives was a sure sign of the strong and enduring links between the sultanate and HSBC.

His Majesty has also graced the bank on other occasions, such as the opening of the new head office in 1974 and HSBC's 50th anniversary festivities in 1997.

Green expressed his support for His Majesty's wish to see Brunei less reliant on oil and gas reserves and with a diverse economy.

With efforts to continue diversification, he said that Brunei could reach success levels similar to that of smaller countries such as Singapore and the Gulf states.

He also highlighted His Majesty's commitment to improve the educational and technical skills of his subjects, and to attract greater foreign investment to what is a strategically located nation.

"I strongly endorse His Majesty's ambitions to make the country a recognised centre for financial services and a world leader in the Sukuk market," Green added.

HSBC was the Brunei government's early advisor in the field of Islamic Finance and hopes to extend their services for local customers and businesses in the near future.

"For our part, we will do everything we can to support economic growth and to enhance our position as Brunei's leading bank."

The Brunei Times

His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam last night consented to attend a banquet held in celebration of the 60 years HSBC has been in Brunei at the Plenary Hall of the International Convention Centre.

Also present at the banquet were Her Majesty Raja Isteri Pengiran Anak Hajah Saleha, Her Royal Highness Pengiran Isteri Azrinaz Mazhar, His Royal Highness Prince Haji Al-Muhtadee Billah, the Crown Prince, Her Royal Highness Paduka Seri Pg Anak Isteri Pg Anak Sarah, His Royal Highness Prince Mohamed Bolkiah, His Royal Highness Prince Haji Sufri Bolkiah, His Royal Highness Prince Abdul Malik and other members of the royal family.

His Majesty and the royal family were greeted on their arrival by Mr Stephen Green, the Group Chairman of HSBC Holdings Plc, Mr Vincent Cheng, Chairman of HSBC Asia Pacific, and Mr Tareq Muhmood, CEO of HSBC in Brunei.

The royalty witnessed a rousing welcoming dance entitled "Berdatang Sembah Menjunjung Duli" performed by dancers in colourful attire.

This was followed by a welcoming speech by Mr Green who reminisced about the growth and development of HSBC Brunei along with Brunei over the past 60 years.

Their 'shared history', as Mr Green described it, started since 1974 when His Majesty consented to open their head office, to HSBC being the early adviser to the Brunei Government in Islamic Banking and even by playing its small yet significant role in the development of the country's economy.

Mr Green touched upon a number of developments seen in HSBC's growth including the contribution by the Brunei Processing Centre in Jerudong, the 24/7 services provided by their branches and the new HSBC business banking centre to support small and medium enterprises. He also spoke about the roles played by members of HSBC in the community, especially through the youth and education initiatives of 'HSBC Cares' programme.

"Your Majesty and His Government deserve enormous credit for bringing peace, prosperity and happiness to the people of Brunei," he said and expressed his support in His Majesty's ambition to "make the country a recognised centre for financial services and a world leader in the Sukuk market", as well as His Majesty's emphasis that Brunei should diversify its economy to become less reliant on oil and gas reserves.

He further praised His Majesty's stance in protecting the world's precious resources with initiatives such as the Heart of Borneo project saying that Brunei is in very capable hands. Mr Green said he was confident about Brunei's future.

He gave HSBC's support towards the country's economic growth and added that the bank will do everything it can to enhance its position as Brunei's leading bank.

A special video was played showcasing the 60 years HSBC has been in Brunei, its growth, changes and achievements since its establishment in 1947.

To enliven the night, a number of stage performances were held by HSBC staff members and local artistes to entertain the hundreds of guests. A special guest artiste from Indonesia, Rossa, serenaded guests with songs from her album.

Among the performers were Ak Shahminan performing 'Naindung Pulau', Pepeh performing 'Kasih', Dk Nurulqalbi performing 'Sakura', Maria performing 'Bisikan Hati', Faten performing 'Puteri Panggung', Normaya performing a duet with Ak Shahminan called 'Selasihku Sayang' and members of HSBC staff.

Also present at the event were Cabinet Ministers from various ministries, VVIPs, special guests, as well as the members of HSBC group.

At the conclusion of the night's festivities, His Majesty and the royal family consented to mingle with HSBC management and staff.

By Aemy Azlena & Yusrin Junaidi

Borneo Bulletin

HM's police outrider suffers injuries

2007-05-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

Waleed PD Mahdini and

Hadi DP Mahmud

BANDAR SERI BEGAWAN

22-May-07

A POLICE OUTRIDER of His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam's escort sustained serious injuries during rush hour traffic late yesterday afternoon after a collision with another vehicle at Jalan Beribi.

According to witnesses who saw the incident, the collision occurred between one of the police riders on His Majesty's motorcade, which was moving from Jalan Telanai to Sengkurong with another vehicle that was moving from the intersection at Beribi to Sengkurong.

His Majesty, who was driving closely behind the police rider swerved immediately to avoid the collision that unfolded in front of his vehicle.

Witnesses then reported seeing His Majesty stop his vehicle and climb out, which ground rush hour traffic to a standstill. A good samaritan, who according to witnesses said was driving a blue Suzuki Vitara, was approached by the monarch, who then climbed into the vehicle.

It was unclear where the vehicle with the monarch in it was headed for.

According to a reliable source at Ripas Hospital, the fallen rider suffered serious head injuries as a result of the collision and was admitted to the Intensive Care Unit, where he was put on life support.

Several onlookers had earlier described that the rider skidded from his motorcycle upon colliding with the car.

There has been no official word from the authorities but according to reliable onlookers at the scene, it is believed that His Majesty is safe and well.

Authorities have in the past repeatedly advised motorists to pull their vehicles to the side of the road and allow emergency vehicles, such as ambulances and fire-engines as well as official motorcades to pass through.

The Brunei Times

Price Check

2006-05-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

Managing the family budget is like riding a roller-coaster - interest rates go up - tax rates go down - petrol prices go up and so it goes on and on., with prices, going up and up. Barry Urquet says “it seems to be that the treasure gives and the supermarket take away“

We're all feeling the pinch with the petrol prices and it's going to go right across the board but if you want to be healthy you've got to pay the price While the soaring price of petrol is easy to track - two years ago unleaded was 98cents a litre - yes remember that? today it's $1.34 .. but have you really noticed the slowly creeping prices at the supermarket check-out?

Today Tonight's price-check regularly survey's prices across Perth supermarkets - we've just checked them again and compared them to what you were paying two years ago .. the results are startling. Some basic items have skyrocketed by as much as 60% that's right! 60% - that shocker a bit later but first some good news - lets look at basic groceries - 10 everyday items.

Two years ago the average basket cost was $35.22 today you'll pay $36.66 not too bad just 3 % up but predictions are that's about to change.

Here's some examples of the price shift -

Cold power 1kg averaged $4.84 in 2004 today it's up 25% to 5.21

Heinz baked beans 420g averaged $1.24 in 2004 today $1.40 that's up 13%

A 6 pack of Bakewell pies was $6.79 now it's $7.48 that's up 10%

“price increases should be about 3% as reflected in pre-packaged dry grocery market when you're going into fresh food fresh wraps and fresh packs all of a sudden the increment goes into double digits and in some instances 60% increases”, says marketing expert Barry Urquet's right on the money when it came to our survey of fruit and vegetables.

The average basket cost has shot up by an incredible 31%

In 2004 it cost $ $15.78 today expect to pay on average $20.64

Navel Oranges had the biggest single rise at 60% from $2.91 a kilo two years ago to $4.65 today

Every item in the basket went up -

broccoli up 24%

Tomatoes up 50%

Avocado up 27%

Vegetable growers say we're still getting a good deal and despite spikes in demand prices have barely moved in 10 years.

Barry Urquet says “many growers of this merchandise will be saying but hold on it's not coming back to me, it's the retailers who seem to be getting the bigger profit margains”

The biggest shocker of all, thanks to cyclone Larry in Queensland, bananas - so dramatic was the rise we didn't include bananas in our basket average -and here's why - the cost has gone up by 317% - from an average of $2.98 in 2004 to $9.46 today

Lisa Baker says “it's creeping up each month probably each week in many respects but they're essentials so you tend to take it a little less seriously cos you know you've got to have it” For families on a budget price rises like this have to pinch - lisa baker from the w.a council of social services..”clearly if you've got a lot of money and doing well in our booming economy it's not going to worry you but if you are doing it tough at the moment it is going to make it harder to make ends meet“

The final basket in our survery was meat -

In 2004 it averaged $ 49.12 today it's up by 18% to $ 57.73

Two years ago lamb chops averaged $14.68 a kilo today they're up 21% to $17.87

T-bone steaks have gone up 21%

Skinless chicken breast up 12%.

Barry Urquet says “consumers are looking for two things convenience and healthy food consequently fresh food is a great appeal this does not necessarily represent good value“ So how do you beat the rise - here are the cheapest stores in our survey this time around

For our grocery items IGA Como came up cheapest it's basket price was $33.29 compared to the most expensive store at $36.99

For fruit and vegetables the cheapest store in this survey was Coles in Bicton with a basket price of $24.64 the most expensive basket was $35.93 more than $10 more - though with fruit and vegetables quality is hard to compare.

For meat the cheapest basket was at Dianella meats at $51.16 compared to the most expensive basket at $63.96 - again quality of meat is hard to compare in a price only survey.

Life is As Shit AS it gets.....

2006-04-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since i have type such. I am entering my final two month in my studies with my 15,000 words thesis still unwrittern. I seriously don't know how to start or write it as everytime when i took the book out and read i seem like demotivated for some reasons.

I have lost motivation in almost everything now except for my B.S.A.W.A. because i have a hope in where this organisation might bring me... good job in the future, where i am worried the most. As for NLCWEST well very much speechless because the organisation has been dead as all can see, my office bearer are not motivated to do thier jobs, when you tell them to do it they told you yes, but they don;t do it. i as a leader feel so shameless to lead this bunch of people who don;t really want to do thier jobs.

In term of personal life, well well what can i say up and down as usual. I guess what i can say now is a down period.... it suddenly bring me to think back about my time back in Brunei and Malaysia with my gf. It seem like at the time in the r/s where you are thinking of breaking up or choose to give up. Seriously, i don;t know what to do..... it seem so many is going on...... i am so lost.... i spend alot of money on many things unnecessary things most of it..... i am slacking.... i am inconsiderate..... thw worst of the worst person alive now i feel....

My gf is now thinking of leaving me.... and she is considering.... now after a long talk with her... but to tell you the truth.... i have no confident at alll... WHY? welll one of it i guess, it has been in her heart that i am always not caring, not loving, not considerate, not understanding and bad temper..... i am the worst bf that she can ever imagine to be near now.... i guess maybe she is right... because lately, i seriously don't know what to talk to her or what to share to her.

Sometime she will tell me that, she knows she is demanding and hard to handle but sometime she will say that she is very matching with her ex-bf when talking on the phone. Like how humourous he is, how he can understand her and make her luagh, he will support and stand by her side when she is in trouble and also how in term of long distance r/s that both of them can talk on the phone without complaining about the financials.

I feel so much sadden by the fact of all that sometime i wish i can tell her that of how i feel at one time, what i am going to do, what i am thinking, what i want to share with her and stop complaining about financial. I wish i can express my love, my caring and my trueself to her. i don;t know what happen to me, i can't do it anymore....... i can't make her happy, i am wordless when i talk to her, when i see her and when i chat with her.

I guess it is time that i should visit a counsellor maybe.... anyway, since that now she need time to consider and i am alone. "loving on person like her" is my destiny and luck. She is the best gf i ever have and also the longest r/s i ever had in my life. i don;t feel like losing her but i don;t know how to prevent that from happening. i serious don;t know.

She seem to be so trouble and lost. She also felt guilty because of how we started and what happen in the past. i don;t know how to make her feel that she should feel otherwise. today after this incident, i guess i realise that i am actually not an expert in r/s or LDR. i am SUCKSSSSSSSSS at it.......

If my gf do read my blog.... i hope she knowss... that i love her, i want to take care of her rest of my life and i want to be there for her whenever i want..... but if she don't i do hope she knew it in her heart that she meant more than just a gf to me. she is the one who took my heart away long time ago. She is the one who give me courage to love agian, courage to get up agian......

All i hope now that, it will not affect my studies as R/S always hurts me and i hate to make what my parents say come true.... but end of the day, it is all up to her.... up to my beloved gf..... whatever decision she going to make, i will repsect it. all i hope is that you will made a decision that you will be most happy with even if it meant that i will ruin my life goals and dreams, all i hope is for you to stay happy....

i am sorry to hurt you, life has never been so pretty and wonderful before you. i wish to say thank you my dear.... thank you for all the things you have do for me, thank you for all the unforgettable moment you gave me. thank you for accepting me, thank you for allowing me to know you and be your bf and thank you for allowing me to meet your family.

"I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU EVEN IF IT KILLS ME", take care dear..... my final word to you... i know you will make the right decision.....

Wondering What Mr. Jacky Teo been up to?

2006-03-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wel... well... just yesterday i got my article up at Borneo Bulletin. So Greatt.... see the link below. http://www.brunei-online.com/bb/wed/mar29h31.htm

I have sort of lost interest in blogging somehow lately.. till i find my interest back i will start posting agian.... Anyway my new assocaition BSAWA at bsawa.blogspot.com

Blogging Agian

2006-03-15T17:48:00.001+08:00

Well it has been ages since i last blog.....

What NEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! after so long

Well i have been enjoying my time back in Brunei and then I visited Malaysia. In addition that, i have attend my Graduation for my Graduate Diploma, i also started detoxing and gym... what else... well i also started Bruneian Student Association in Western Australia. I guess i will do it day by by for my update starting from My trip back in Brunei today.

I was back in Brunei in December and my gf Yo, came visited me on the 18th Dec till 22nd Dec. We have so much fun, we went for a photo spree at the kampong ayer (water village), The late sultan mosque, my town and my house of cause. Everyday we also went out eat good food :)..... Yummy well what can i say, my parents seem to like my gf and my sister too...

so this is it for today update tomolo agian....

Why do i blog?

2005-11-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

I believe this question has not only pop up out of the blue for me, but to everyone else who blog. Why do we blog?

Some people blog for political reason, some for fun, some for popularity, some for creativity, some for their own personal expression of what they felt inside and I guess there is more others…. Whom I haven’t mentioned.

Today I came to a conclusion why I blog… I blog not for fun nor for popularity but just to express myself… to show how much I love my gf, how much screw up my life is… what I am so confused about… in life… so I title my blog living a confused life.

So why do anyone blog?... haha... why do my fren blog... let them express themselve.. ask urself why u blog?

Jack Jack & Yo Yo. PART 2

2005-10-26T10:34:00.000+08:00

As semester 2, 2004 continued, Yoyo and I have more memories come in.

5) The delivery of “puppies”

Few days after the dinner, I was chatting with you online from home at Bentley. You were so stress and so insecure about yourselves. You feel there is no one you can talk to or share your feelings with. So I decided to bring you my two puppies, Daisy and Spunky.

Well is it a really puppy of cause not! You were thinking of separating them and said that Regina also like the puppy and I told you, no you can’t separate themselves from the same house. They need one another and cannot be separated. Lame but its’ work on you cause I wish you kept two of them to you.

So that very night, I told you in MSN. BRB. Then I drove my car to your house and drop them outside your doorsteps and drive away. Then I called you to go to your doorstep and collect it, well since I am away you can’t return it back to me. :).

6) ISC Pasar Malam

One of the nicest nights for two of us, you were the Events Manager back then. Going thru so much stress being scolded and shouted but its’ all make up when the day just goes out fine.

With your time and effort, although there is a little bit of mess up at the program, you manage to put in a good show. I remember that I gave you, lilies one of your favourite flowers. While back then I don’t know but now I know, because you told me.

7) ISC Araluen Trip

Looking at flower enjoying the beautiful spring in Perth, We went to Araluen Trip together. I was the Convenor back then and you a normal volunteer. I am so happy that day; we enjoy the nice weather with all the flowers. Most importantly to me was your very presence. It was time with no regrets. Dear dear, I wish to go there again with you alone, just two of us in the park spending out wonderful time together.

8) ASIA cocktail

Hm… well one night that I will remember kinda forever I think, 30th September 2004. J. For the first and only time, we went clubbing together. Very very rare, but it is a big night out though. We among hundreds of students coming to the events, join the crowd and party thru out the night. It is just a very magnificent night for two of us I think. You being that naughty girl, ask you not to drink so much kept drinking and later got high giving me difficulties to send you home only. Hehehe. Well, the worst of all was that you refused to dance with me. L nvm I will make sure next time you will dance with me.

Well this conclude part 2 for now. But there will be more!!!! For interested reader about jack jack and yo yo stay tune for part 3.

Jack Jack & Yo Yo. PART 1

2005-10-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Lately so many things happen between my dear one.. Her Ex-bf has came back to the picture and it was a major setback between our relationship. Although now it is all over but the pain and uneasy feeling in two of us still exist. Furthermore, we are so far apart, which i decided to do this cause i can't think of a better way to express myself.

Since the day we met in February 2004, we has unintentionally start a story of our own. We met during my ISC orientation trip sem1, 2004 and never met again after that. It was not till you actively get involved in ISC as events manager for MCW. During that time, i was not noticing that much just knowing that you have a japanese name, YOSHIKO. I have heard of you from everyone else but still never met you. Finally one day i met you during our sausage sizzle session. I was like this gal is cute and pretty... of coz at that time, i never thought you will be anyone who is so important to me nor i ever thought we will get together.

Well... finally the moment of unreveal love occurs. Semester 2 came. First, you were so hard to talk to cause you have a bf and all you can think of is not to go out with guys alone. SMART!!! me finally planned a dinner at my West Perth house when Candice was away. You, Hui Lin and Regina came to my house and eat. Well i should say i really want to thanks Regina and Hui Lin. If not for two of them, i beleive we won't have the moment we have in Perth and also be together now.

Why Regina? It was her who gave me your contacts and allow me to chat with you at MSN and got your freindster contacts.

Why Lin? It was her who allow me to see you and make you go out. Further to that, it was her who always been for us and help us go through the hard time and moment. She has been a valuable part to our relationship.

Our special moments.

1) Mylanta Incident

Do you remember dear dear, when you are having gastric middle of the night, that i brought the mylanta to your place. Imagine what silly stuff i have do at the time?

I actually drive all the way to Vic Park and try to buy for you but all they sell was the liquid bottle one. So i was force to drive all the way to City and get for you. It was like 1am. Remember, you were so worried cause its' already 30mins and i told you i will be there soon and when i was chatting with you, i was at uni.

This was the first time, i ever do anything for you dear. MYLANTA!!! for my dear.

2) Bubble Tea (Bubs) @ Tea Fusion

Our moment of going to bubs. It was like a weekly rountine or should i say almost daily routine for us to go bubs. We were having so much fun going out in a group drinking our bubs!!! We have our very own drink, Winter Kiss!!!! well i believe it goonna be in my book for the rest of my life!!! the moment we have during Winter!!! and the KISS!!!! :). Mine has evolve from Winter Kiss with green tea jelly to Winter Kiss with GTJ and Sago. WHY!!! it is the mixture of yours and mine. You have always drink Winter Kiss with Sago. Dear, it is our moment in bubs @ Tea Fusion.

3) Moon Cafe

Another of our hangout place other than Tea Fusion. Our favourite order there have always been Ice Chocolate and Fries!!!! We have so much memory here that before you go, we actually have to come to Moon Cafe one more time. We have so much memory at this place, where we all Gossips, talk back about our moment and story from the past, catch up and have a break from the rest of the stressful place.

4) Vickery House

Your home sweet home in Perth in 2004. I beleive most memorable time will be your place where you actually cooks for me and i drop by everyday. You and i study together in your room. You and i spend our time together at your place. There is so much memory at this place and i feel it is like the beginnning of our relationship although we really got together at 18th August 2005. But this place @ 18th September 2004 i feel has mark the beginning of our story. Our very own book, Jack Jack & Yo Yo.

I guess i should stop here... There is so much to write about us... i have decided to do it in part. So this will be Part 1. Our Book. JACKJACK and YOYO:)

ISC PASAR MALAM, CURTIN UNI

2005-10-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

Well... Firstly i would like to say thank you to my very MCW Committee for putting up such a magnificant show!!!

This year it is one of the best Pasar Malam and creating a NEW BECHMARK for International Students Committee MCW Committee. As chairperson, i was so impressed when we see a double in numbers of vistors coming into PASAR MALAM.

You see everyone queuing up buying thier foods and drinks, people watching the bands performing, enjoying the moment with thier love one, kids running around, families spending they time out with thier families. The best part is when you realise you and your committee made all this happen is just the best things ever happen to you. You feel that you have just put in sucha great show that everyone can just enjoy thier moment and time.

The best part for me was that my dad and mum actually came for my event, they can see with thier very own eye that i organised this event and make all this happen with my committee. Running here and there to ensure all parts covered. :)

Pasar Malam at Curtin Uni, Organised by International Students Committee. I wish you all the best for next year. i have been part of the organising committee for the past three years now and i am now saying my last bye to you and to my BELOVED ISC. I wish you all involving in International Students Committee all the best, i will no longer hold any position in ISC except for my honarary title in ISC hehehe!!!

The greatest moment of all is when you know you did something right for the betterment of the community... Thank you Tiffany, Sam, Renee, Gline, Lin, Shue Vern and the rest of you in my committee.. Thank you.... and the most important of all is My beloved Gf, Yoshiko Tey Mee Ho, whom is currently in KL, your continous support and love has provide me with the additional strength to move on. i love you with all my heart and no one can replace your moral support and effortless action you are doing for me now......

For those who miss out, Come next year. It will be on 1st week of october.. OKIE? hehehe i am sure you will enjoy it.... CURTIN VERY OWN "PASAR MALAM"

NEW Beginning, Graduations!!!!

2005-10-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well... Pplll Finally free to update now... Man... tell me what can be more interesting then to see yourselves walking up the stage and receive your certificate.

I still remember the moment early this year when i was just a participant for my friends graduation and my girlfriend graduation. I was like i wish to be there together with them but unfortuantely, i have a bumping ride while doing my degree. I wouldn't i am the best student on earth but it was the first time in myself that i see myself failing units.

That moment was like the end of the world when you realise you flank. You were like looking for every opputunity to find all sort of excuses to comfort yourself why you fail. You blaming everyone you can think of and finding every single way to pass your unit. Well it all make up now. We move on!!! and GRADUATED.

Well.... 8th October 2005, My very very own graduation for my Degree in Global Economics and Finance. Every moment on the stage, sitting down and that particular moment when you receive your cert. was all how you wish the time stops.

Interesting enough, thats' what i wish for but too bad i can't. Well, that what i wish for unfortunately, my moment kinda backlash when the ending of my ceremony came. It like the flare shooting up the stage and THAT's IT>>>> and bye bye graduates.... :( kinda sad right... you were like expecting they would put up a big show... :(

Well fine... i have my cert now... i am running away with it hehehe. GOOD NEWS!!! is i have my pic with the Vice-chancellor and Chancellor.... I ROCKS!!!!! not everyone will ahve the moment but i have it... YES!!!!! it turns my day back on when i actually took that pic. :).

So WHAT NEXT? everyone will asked that question when you finish. For me, i am still doing my Master In International Relations, and till i obtian that cert. it will not be the end of my time in Curtin. I been here since 2001 and so i will continue and make my time a memory.... JACKY TEO KIAN KEE>>> A DEGREE HOLDER NOW YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEEK OF DOOM

2005-10-01T09:55:00.000+08:00

Nothing can be as bad as this week... the world is full of shitty stuff for me now.... my multicultural week has just gone haywire.... all the probelms just shoot up......

nevertheless i haven't even work on my assignment.... i am dead.... well worst of all.... i am so confused with my love life...... anyway this is my personal blog and dairy... if ppl choose to read it... they r more than happy to read...

Here is where i express out what is all inside me... :) no secret no lies.... hahahaha.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.............. BUT MCW IS COMING COOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

How to be a good BF?

2005-09-28T09:39:00.000+08:00

Many of us, guys must have wonder how can we be a good bf?

Gals, will always complain things like
Why my friend did this to his gf and you can't?
Why u don't call me always?
Why u always like to hang out with your friends?
Why u don't treat me as nice as before?
Why you always go out with this gals? Is there something you r hiding from me?
Why do i hear romours of you with (her)?
Why do you come back so late?

Why, why, why..... and man... you will have endless list of why sometimes....... some will never think about the question what... such as..

What have my bf done for me?
What have my bf done to keep me happy?
What have my bf gone through just so that he can call me?
What have we gone thru to be at where we are now?
What is more precious then to have someone love u truthfully?
What keep my bf and i so so close?
What have my bf done that is better then anoyone else bf?

What, what, what...

Today, guys have to go through this test of rumours, gossips and backstabbing of the so-called world of gals. How can a male become a good bf? What justify a good bf? What makes up an ideal bf?

Everyone knows, Men are from Mars, Womyn are from Venus. REMEMBER... communication is the key to bring this two together....

To my understand as a guy, and having a gf myself. I think to be a good bf today seem so much harder than long time ago.

Telecommunications

Decade ago, guys can have excuses of saying, no phoneline, no internet and no mobile so cannot have this instant communications. As technology improves, so did our gals moving with it, expectation of reply of hearing from the bf increased... must recevie SMS, must receive call, must receive e-mail or chat online. either one of those if not all. GUYS well most of them, r expected to pay all, except for some cases where the GF is damn... rich... or just (too understanding)... then well either pay all (when they r blind by the power of love, HA!HA!) or part sharing.

Magazines, their source of informations

Gals mag... welll one of mens... worst nightmare sometime.... it give the gals so much information and sometime too generalised information that, many gals cannot use thier own originality and common sense to differentiate what is good or bad.

Have anyone wonder why... gals magazines.. salesss increase by double... welll guys are buying it to understand what thier gf is learning and absorbing hehehehhehe...... POOR Guys...

Friends

I guesss this happen since long time ago, PEER PRESSURE... one of the most common threat and enemy of guys...... Guys a tip for you.... never make enemy or offend your gf's friend. If you did, just prepare for the worst scenario sometime.... GALS POWER.... the new-age power... all want to be on top all want to be well-respected. So guys... do respect and accept the changing world. EQUALITY is the word... and dealing with gals remember to add in another E, EQUALITY-EMOTIONAL. :D...

Never offend a gal unless u feel the gal have no connection to u in anywhere. Many gals are now...... so powerful that whats' bite you, you don;t even knows..... Want to win the heart of you gf, remember to treat your gf's fren nicer.... but NOT to fall in love with them okie... or else.. u will have a CAT FIGHT outside ur doorway later hehehhee.

Caring and Loving

Many have wonder, how to justify caring and loving, when you think you done enough, somehow ur gf will come out with more ideas of how they justify caring and loving. The list of caring and loving seem... so long and endless... hm..... so some tips...

To show u care and love to a gal sometime is not hard... it depends which category r u at 1st. There it will justify ur requirement

1) Totally hopeless bf
In a long distance situation

One sms a day will do fine, even if it is identical will be cool. Well if plus one call even better. A daily one communication is cool.

In a normal situation

Call or go and see your gf once a day will be fine for her...

2) Average bf
In a long distance situation

Well... a constant communication has to be establish. Has to be pretty active communication, e-mail, sms, call online and another other mean of communication u can think of...

In a normal situation

Well sure expect you to spent at least couple of hrs with her, if both of u r working... maybe for dinner then go and watch movie, not neccessarily outside, can be at home also, Then go for GALS "Retial T."

3) Well and good bf
In long distance situation.
More and more communication. Not only has a good communication but also have to do much more like remembering all the anniversary dates, buy gifts for her, surprise her when she is really miss u, 24/7 on call....

In a normal situation
Well... gifts....surprises... be there... 24/7 on call.... anniversary....calll.... bring her out... give her some time break.. when she wants... understanding her behaviour and attitude... undertsand her way of living.... understanding how she works... and etc.etc.....

Welll this is just some of my tips... and my tips okie... not neccessarily true for you... hahaha so find out ur own GF needs...and thinking... MY GF... hm... yet to discover.. very complicated... this is my expereince with my other ex-gf and talking to my frens....

GUYS.. remember... when u r broke.... never to have a gf.. if you want to have a gf remember try to be loaded.... LOOK AT ME i am broke... and not sure why my gf think now... sure i guess thinking i am not caring etc... coz, expectation of calling or sms is not done... well... it cost money.. when talk about money.. sure end up quarrelling.... man.... i don't know how... now... i am not a money printing machine nor i am well-loaded person... lately been living of remaining home food and frens.. treating..... thanks to all my fren who treat me... like hui lin, sam and renneee. man... i feel sometime.,... why can't anyone undertsand my situation. i wish my gf to understand, she seems to undertsand but yet.. sometime.. seems like not...well gals... told ya... complicated being... hehehe

I LOVE YOU

2005-09-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

I wonder... why i love u so much... my dear, yoyo... i wish you can be happy and can stay happy.....

Lately, it seem probelms happen one after the another one.

I wonder who tell you about me and samantha.... and the rumours about all this "untruth" in PERTH. Appparently there has been too many misunderstanding and made you feel unhappy. I really wish you can telll me who tell you all these unbacked informations...

It is hard enough already to deal with long distance relationship. i just hope those ppl can give me a break... don't judge anything by the cover... read the content pls...

Then later, the probelm with KEN... ur ex. i really don't know wat to say. He is ur past why does he want to make someone feel unhappy and guilty. If he really love you and been with you for more than 2 years, should know better that, you will be upset...and soft hearted.

I am not blaming him or anything.. but i think it is not neccessary to bring it back up about the issues of when we started, when we take our photo etc. Then play this "kolian" games of wish u happy, thought u feel the same for me etc....

Personally, i feel this is a "pok tong cheng" strategy... he might not be thinking of it, but i feel so much like it... Man give me a break, don't anyone tell this person, stop pastering and get over with it.. MOVE ON!!!!!

Anyway, i know you, my dear will be upset and pissed with my update. i wish you to know.... i love you and i will do watever i can't to keep u beside me.... those rumours ask who ever tell u to "shut the F#$% Up" if got probelms and really think for u should talk to me 1st. not report to u untrue or non-factful information... see and understanding it is different.

i know you might be upset now dear... but i hope u will feel better and keep this in ur mind.... i love u, and will try my best t give u happinesss anddddd hope.... :D. i will love u more than anythign else... except MY FAMILY.... hehehehe... i love u dear.... love u... so much.... pls don't let anyone cause any trouble to our relationship and hurt us....

Guild Election Curtin

2005-09-24T01:54:00.000+08:00

Wel... now is the end of the most hectic election in Curtin Student Guild history... one fo the closest one of all... Although my team, International Association Lost the election in many position. We still secure 4 councillor, 3 nus delegates and ISC convenor for 2006. The opposition secure all Div rep and Guild Exec and 5 councillor and 4 Nus delagtes.

The vote was like 600-700 for us and thiers like 700-800. So unfortunately due to the 100 votes differents we lost all the office beaerers positions. :(.. but i feel my team has did a good job and I know one day we will beat this team... and win.

Anyway they win because of Supporting Tics, We lost because we have not fake team... :). in my heart we win!!!!

About Brunei From the US. Department of State

2005-09-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

BruneiCountry Reports on Human Rights Practices - 2003Released by the Bureau of Democracy, Human Rights, and LaborFebruary 25, 2004

Brunei Darussalam is a small, wealthy, Islamic country ruled by the same family for over 600 years. A British Protectorate from 1888, it became fully independent and sovereign in 1984. After a failed rebellion in 1962, the then Sultan invoked an article of the Constitution that allowed him to assume emergency powers for 2 years. These powers were renewed regularly, most recently in June 2002 under the present ruler, Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah. Although not all the articles of the Constitution were suspended, the state of emergency places few limits on the Sultan's power. The Sultan also serves as Prime Minister, Minister of Defense, Minister of Finance, Chancellor of the national university, Superintendent General of the Royal Brunei Police Force, and Head of the Islamic faith. The Constitution does not specifically provide for an independent judiciary and the Sultan appoints all higher court judges and has the authority to remove them, although he has never done so. The courts appeared to act independently.
The police force and an Internal Security Department report to the Sultan, who maintains control over both.

The country's large oil and natural gas reserves, coupled with its population of 341,000, gave it a high per capita gross domestic product of approximately $12,500. The Government used its substantial oil and gas revenues and investment income to provide a wide range of services and benefits to citizens, including free schooling and medical care, subsidized housing, and jobs. During the year, the non-oil and gas component of the economy suffered its fifth year of stagnation.

The Government generally respected its citizens' human rights in several areas; however, its record was poor in other areas, particularly with regard to civil liberties. Citizens did not have the right to change the Government, and they generally avoided political activity of any kind because of the official atmosphere of disapproval concerning such activities. Citizens did not exercise freedom of speech, freedom of press, freedom of assembly, or freedom of association. Labor rights were circumscribed and foreign workers sometimes were subjected to exploitation, although the Government took steps to protect foreign workers. Other human rights problems continued, including restrictions on religious freedom. Occasional spousal violence against women remained a problem, although the Government addressed the issue at many levels. Discrimination against women was a problem. In October 2002, a reform nationality law was passed that allows women to pass on their nationality to their children.

RESPECT FOR HUMAN RIGHTS

Section 1 Respect for the Integrity of the Person, Including Freedom From:
a. Arbitrary or Unlawful Deprivation of Life

There were no reports of the arbitrary or unlawful deprivation of life committed by the Government or its agents.

b. Disappearance
There were no reports of politically motivated disappearances.

c. Torture and Other Cruel, Inhuman, or Degrading Treatment or Punishment
The law prohibits mistreatment of prisoners, and there were no reports of such mistreatment. Caning is mandatory for 42 drug-related and other criminal offenses, and was included as part of the sentence in 80 percent of criminal convictions. Canings are carried out in the presence of a doctor who has the authority to interrupt for medical reasons. Prison conditions generally met international standards. There was no overcrowding. Juveniles typically served their sentences in adult detention centers but several young offenders were housed at a government welfare center. During the year, construction began on a correctional facility for young offenders. Male and female offenders were housed separately. Prisoners received regular medical checkups. Remand cells at police stations were Spartan.

Human rights monitors were not reported to have requested prison visits; however, foreign diplomats had consular access to detained nationals. Family members were permitted to visit prisoners and bring food.

d. Arbitrary Arrest, Detention, or Exile
The law provides for a prompt judicial determination regarding the validity of an arrest. However, those provisions, like the Constitution itself, may be superseded, either partially or wholly, through invocation of the emergency powers. The Internal Security Act (ISA) permits the Government to detain suspects without trial for renewable 2-year periods. Information on a detainee usually is published only after his release.

Normally a magistrate must endorse a warrant for arrest. On rare occasions, warrants were issued without this endorsement, such as when police were unable to obtain the endorsement in time to prevent the flight of a suspect. Police officers have broad powers to make arrests, without warrants, of persons caught in the physical act of committing a crime.
There were no known arrests for publishing or distributing anti-government literature during the year. However, in the past, the Government has arrested and interned citizens for such activities.

During the year, six individuals were detained for suspected association with a banned Muslim organization, Al-Arqam. In late 2000 and early 2001, the Government used the ISA to detain at least seven Christian citizens, several of whom had converted from Islam, for alleged subversive activities. All were released in 2001. Government officials maintained that the detentions were for security rather than religious reasons (see Section 2.c.). Two of the Muslim converts to Christianity were believed to have reverted to their original faith after undergoing "rehabilitation." Rehabilitation may entail pressure, ceremonial renunciations, or schooling.
There were no reports of political prisoners, but information on possible detainees was very hard to obtain.

Under a colonial-era law, the Sultan may forcibly exile, either permanently or temporarily, any person deemed to be a threat to the safety, peace, or welfare of the country. Since independence there have been no cases of banishment of citizens.

e. Denial of Fair Public Trial
The Constitution does not provide specifically for an independent judiciary, but the courts appeared to act independently during the year, and there were no known instances of government interference with the judiciary. All higher court judges are appointed by and serve at the pleasure of the Sultan.

The judicial system consists of five levels of courts, with final recourse in civil cases available through the Privy Council in London. Procedural safeguards include the right to defense counsel, the right to an interpreter, the right to a speedy trial, and the right to confront accusers.
The civil law, based on English common law, provides citizens with a fair and efficient judicial process. Shari'a (Islamic law) supersedes civil law in some areas, including divorce, inheritance, and some sexual crimes. Shari'a law is not applied to non-Muslims. During the year, lawyers trained in both civil and Shari'a law were working on a proposed alignment of the country's two legal systems into a comprehensive legal code. A "Law Society" (bar association) to promote lawyers' public accountability was established in July. The civil law lacks provisions to allow companies or individuals to sue the Government, which traditionally resolves disputes with generous, non-negotiable settlements, or, in some cases, simply refuses to settle. There is no legal provision to provide affordable legal counsel for poor defendants, except in capital cases. Such defendants may act as their own lawyers in court.

There were no reports of political prisoners.

f. Arbitrary Interference with Privacy, Family, Home, or Correspondence
Civil law permits government intrusion into the privacy of individual persons, families, and homes. However, such intrusion rarely occurred. Shari'a law permits enforcement of "khalwat," an Islamic prohibition on the close proximity of a Muslim and a member of the opposite sex other than a spouse. There were numerous reports of religious enforcement officers entering homes, buildings, and vehicles to detain suspects.

Section 2 Respect for Civil Liberties, Including:

a. Freedom of Speech and Press
Under the emergency powers that have been in effect since 1962, the Government restricts significantly freedom of speech and freedom of the press.

In 2001, legislation that codified existing practice further reduced press freedom. Among other restrictions, it requires that the local newspapers obtain operating licenses, as well as prior government approval of foreign editorial staff, journalists, and printers. The law also gives the Government the right to bar distribution of foreign publications and requires distributors of foreign publications to obtain a government permit. The law allows the Government to close a newspaper without prior notice and without showing cause. Journalists deemed to have published or written "false and malicious" reports could be subjected to fines or prison sentences.

Prior to the promulgation of this new law, foreign newspapers or magazines with articles that were found to be objectionable, embarrassing, or critical of the Sultan, the royal family, or the Government were not allowed into the country at times. Magazine articles with a Christian theme reportedly were censored (see Section 2.c.). The growing use of fax machines, the Internet, and access to satellite transmissions made it increasingly difficult to keep such material from entering the country.

The country's largest circulation daily newspaper, the Borneo Bulletin, practiced self-censorship in its choice of topics to avoid angering the Government. However, letters to the editor often included comments critical of the Government's handling of certain social, economic, and environmental issues. The Government on occasion responded to public opinion on some issues concerning social or environmental problems. There was 1 Malay-language press, the Media Permata, which circulated approximately 5,000 newspapers. There was also one Chinese-language newspaper.

In 2002, a second daily English-language newspaper, the News Express, lost a suit for slander and defamation brought against it by a law firm. The company that owned the newspaper declared bankruptcy and closed. The newspaper had featured a letters page where citizens and residents expressed their views and complaints, often about government services and, increasingly, about government policy. The newspapers' willingness to publish these expressions of opinion represented a modest extension of press freedom. Prior to its closure, the Immigration Department raided the newspaper on several occasions; and its management and several workers were subsequently convicted of a number of immigration and labor offenses.
Although the only television station was government owned, three Malaysian television channels were received locally. Two satellite television networks were available, offering a total of 28 different channels, including the Cable News Network, the British Broadcasting Corporation World News, and several entertainment and sports channels.

The Government's tolerance of political criticism was not tested because there was no organized opposition. The English-language newspaper, the Borneo Bulletin, was advised by police not to publish any stories about the activities of the Consumers' Association of Brunei (CAB), a quasi-human rights organization (see Section 4). In the past, the Government arrested those who attempted to propagate unwelcome political views.

Internet use became widespread. During the year, a third Internet board, hosted outside the country, added another avenue through which citizens expressed critical opinions, albeit under pseudonyms. In May, the Internet forum BruneiTalk was blocked for approximately 10 days apparently for discussing business dealings of senior officials. The country's primary Internet service provider was state owned.

The Government generally respected academic freedom; however, some researchers chose to publish from overseas and under a pseudonym when they perceived that subject matter pertaining to the country would not be well received. There were no politically oriented student associations.

b. Freedom of Peaceful Assembly and Association

Under the emergency powers in effect since 1962, the Government significantly restricts the right to assemble. Freedom to assemble for political purposes was not tested during the year.
Political parties are allowed, but may not engage in "activities that endanger people." Civil servants and security force personnel, who together make up 60 percent of all employed citizens, are not permitted to join political parties. There are two registered parties in the country: The Brunei Solidarity National Party (PPKB) and the Brunei People's Awareness Party (PAKAR). Both parties pledged their support to the Sultan and the system of government, although they criticized administrative deficiencies. During the year, the parties largely were inactive, their few activities often went unpublicized, and they were hindered by membership restrictions.

The country had few nongovernmental organizations (NGOs), all of which were based locally and were generally professional, business or social associations. Any NGO seeking to operate in the country is required to apply for permission under the Companies Act. The activities of international service organizations such as Rotary, Kiwanis, and the Lions, which developed out of the established business community, continued to be restricted by the Government. Religious regulations promulgated by the Ministry of Religious Affairs and the State Mufti's Office prohibited Muslims from joining these organizations.

c. Freedom of Religion

The Constitution states that "The religion of Brunei Darussalam shall be the Muslim religion according to the Shafi'ite sect of that religion: Provided that all other religions may be practiced in peace and harmony by the person professing them in any part of Brunei Darussalam." However, the Government routinely restricted the practice of non-Islamic religions and of non-Shafi'i Islamic groups.

The Government investigated and used its internal security apparatus both against persons whom it considered to be purveyors of radical Islam and against non-Muslims who attempted to proselytize. For example, the Islamist Al-Arqam movement and the Bahai faith remained banned. Citizens deemed to have been influenced by "deviant" preaching (usually students returning from overseas study) were assigned to study seminars organized by mainstream Islamic religious leaders. The Ministry of Religious Affairs prepared the weekly Friday sermons delivered in mosques countrywide.

The Government reinforced the legitimacy of the hereditary monarchy and the observance of traditional and Islamic values through a national ideology known as the Melayu Islam Beraja or "Malay Muslim Monarchy." Despite the constitutional provisions providing for the full and unconstrained exercise of religious freedom, the Government routinely restricted the practice of non-Muslim religions by prohibiting proselytizing; occasionally denying entry to foreign clergy or particular priests, bishops, or ministers; banning the importation of religious teaching materials or scriptures such as the Bible; and denying requests to expand, or build new churches, temples, and shrines. There has been a Catholic apostolic prefecture in the country since 1998 headed by an ethnic Chinese Bruneian Prefect. During the year, two Christian churches were given permission to repair and expand premises on safety grounds. However, two Christian groups were denied permission to register, which is required by law to worship communally.

Non-Muslims who proselytize may be arrested or detained, and possibly held without charges for an extended period of time. As an example, in December 2000 the Government used the ISA to detain at least seven Christians, two of whom were converts from Islam, for allegedly subversive activities. Three detainees, Malai Taufick bin Haji Mashor, Awang Yunus bin Marang, and Mohd Freddie Chong bin Abdullah, were released in October 2001, after spending 9 months in detention. There were credible reports that one of the Christian detainees, Taufick, was tortured and beaten during his first month of detention, while a second was subjected to intense psychological pressure to return to Islam. When released, Taufick was placed under 1-year house arrest. A second detainee, Yunus, was not permitted to speak in public or travel outside of the country. Government officials maintained that the detentions were security-related (see Section 1.d.).

The Government routinely censored magazine articles on other faiths, blacking out or removing photographs of crucifixes and other Christian religious symbols during the year. In addition, government officials prevented the public display, distribution, and sale of items featuring non-Islamic religious symbols.

The authorities conducted raids sporadically on clubs frequented by foreign residents and foreign workers to confiscate alcohol and foodstuffs that were not prepared in accordance with "halal" requirements (the Islamic requirements for the slaughter of animals and the prohibition on inclusion of pork products in any food). The authorities also increased raids on karaoke establishments operating without a license.

The Ministry of Education requires courses on Islam or the national ideology, the Malay Muslim monarchy, and prohibits the teaching of other religions. The Ministry requires that all students, including non-Muslims, follow a course of study on the Islamic faith and learn Arabic script. The International School of Brunei and the Jerudong International School are exempt from these requirements. Private Christian schools were not allowed to give Christian instruction and were required to give instruction on Islam. However, the Government did not prohibit or restrict parents from giving religious instruction to children in their own homes. In 2000, the Government responded to objections from parents and religious leaders and set aside tentative plans to require more Islamic courses in private, non-Islamic parochial schools.

The Government requires residents to carry an identity card that states the bearer's religion. Visitors to the country are asked to identify their religion on their landing cards.

For a more detailed discussion see the 2003 International Religious Freedom Report.

d. Freedom of Movement within the Country, Foreign Travel, Emigration, and Repatriation
The Government restricts the movement of former political prisoners during the first year of their release. Generally the Government does not restrict the freedom of movement of its citizens, visitors, and permanent residents. Government employees, both citizens and foreigners working on a contractual basis, must apply for approval to go abroad, which was granted routinely.

No legal provision exists for granting temporary refuge or refugee status to those seeking such refuge or asylum. Under the law, persons arriving without valid entry documents and means of support are considered illegal immigrants and are refused entry. There were no reported cases of individuals seeking temporary refuge during the year.

Section 3 Respect for Political Rights: The Right of Citizens to Change Their Government
Citizens did not have the right to peacefully change their government. Under the continuing state of emergency, there is no parliament, and political authority and control rests entirely with the Sultan. Members of the Sultan's appointed Cabinet serve as his principal advisors.
Individuals sought to express their views or to influence government decisions and policies by writing letters to a local newspaper or by petitioning the Sultan or handing him letters when he appears in public (see Section 2.a.).

The country has attempted to institutionalize a form of popular representation based on a traditional system of village chiefs who are elected by secret ballot by all adults. Candidates must be approved by the Government and must be Malay. These leaders are expected to communicate constituents' wishes through a variety of channels, including periodic meetings chaired by the Home Affairs Minister, with several officials appointed by the Sultan. Regular meetings between senior government officials and "Mukim" (a group of villages) representatives allowed for airing of local grievances and concerns. In 2000, the Foreign Minister confirmed that a review of the Constitution was submitted to the Sultan for approval, and that "an element of an election" was in this report. However, at year's end, there had been no word on when the revised Constitution might be forthcoming.

The lack of a representative, democratic government seriously limited the role of both men and women in government and politics, although women were limited to a greater extent. There are no women ministers in the Government, although the Sultan's sister, Princess Masna, was the second ranking official in the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, and there were women ambassadors, judges, and other senior officials.

Section 4 Governmental Attitude Regarding International and Nongovernmental Investigation of Alleged Violations of Human Rights

The Consumers' Association of Brunei (CAB), established in 2002, attempted to address human rights but was impeded by the Government from doing so. Beginning in May 2002, the CAB publicized poor working and living conditions of foreign workers involved in protest work stoppages (see Section 6.e.), the organization received a letter from the Commissioner of Police requesting CAB to show reason why it should not be deregistered for exceeding its mandate, which primarily focused on consumer rights. Senior CAB members were reportedly subjected to surveillance. The Association was able to show evidence of its mandate to address workers' rights, but subsequently the local media did not publicized the association's activities.
Section 5 Discrimination Based on Race, Sex, Disability, Language, or Social Status
The Constitution does not contain specific provisions prohibiting discrimination based on race, sex, disability, language, and social status.

Women

The extent of spousal abuse is unknown. During the year, cases of abuse occurred, although specific figures were not available. The criminal penalty for a minor domestic assault is 1 to 2 weeks in jail and a fine. An assault resulting in serious injury is punishable by caning and a longer jail sentence.

A special unit, staffed by female officers, existed within the police department to investigate domestic abuse and child abuse complaints. A hotline was in service for persons to report domestic violence. The Ministry of Culture's Social Affairs Services (SAS) Unit provided counseling for women and their spouses. During the year, approximately 18 female domestic abuse victims were sheltered at the Taman Noor Hidayah, a shelter run by the SAS unit.
According to press reports, the female victims were restricted to the shelter while waiting for their cases to be brought to court. The reports increased pressure on the shelter residents to leave the shelter and drop charges to avoid social stigma.

Islamic courts, staffed by both male and female officials, offered counseling to married couples in domestic violence cases. Officials did not encourage wives to reconcile with flagrantly abusive spouses, and the Islamic courts recognized assault as grounds for divorce.

Female domestic servants, most of whom were foreign workers (see Sections 6.c., 6.e., and 6.f.), were also subjected to abuse. While the level of violence in society generally was low, the beating of servants--or refusing them the right to leave the house on days off, sometimes on grounds that they "might encounter the wrong company"--was more prevalent. Since most foreign female domestics were highly dependent on their employers, those subject to abuse often were unwilling or unable to bring complaints, either to the authorities or to their governments' embassies. However, when such complaints were brought, the Government generally was quick to investigate allegations of abuse and impose fines and punishment as warranted. Several workers settled assault cases out of court with their employers. One foreign embassy maintained a shelter for domestics involved in disputes with employers and was active in protecting their citizens' rights.

Prostitution is illegal. Women entering the country for purposes of prostitution generally were tried, sentenced, and deported swiftly (see Section 6.f.).

In accordance with certain Islamic traditions, women are denied equal status with men in a number of important areas such as divorce, inheritance, and custody of children. In 2002, an amendment to the nationality law permitted female citizens to pass their nationality on to their children.

Although men are eligible for permanent positions in government service whether or not they hold university degrees, women without university degrees are eligible to hold government positions only on a month-to-month basis. While some previous inequities have been eliminated, women in month-to-month positions received slightly less annual leave and fewer allowances than their male and female counterparts in permanent positions.

There were no separate pay scales for men and women, and in recent years there has been a major influx of women into the workforce. Women served in a wide variety of capacities in the police and armed forces. The number of female university graduates increased, and nearly two-thirds of the national university's entering class was female.

Religious authorities strongly encouraged Muslim women to wear the "tudong," a traditional head covering, and most women did so. Most government departments and the uniformed services require female Muslims and non-Muslims to wear the tudong as part of their dress code. All government schools, as well as the national university and other educational institutions, also pressured non-Muslim students to wear the tudong as part of these institutions' uniform.

The 1999 Married Women's Law significantly improved the rights of non-Muslim married women with respect to maintenance, property, and domestic violence. The 1999 changes to the Islamic Family Law (particularly in regard to Women's Position in Marriage and Divorce) facilitated divorce proceedings for women and permitted women to retain the family home after their divorce.

Children

No statistics were published regarding the welfare of children. The strong commitment to family values within society, the high standard of living, and government funding for children's welfare provided most children a healthy and nurturing environment. Education is free, compulsory, and universal for the first 9 years; after which, it is still free but no longer compulsory. With a few exceptions, involving small villages in extremely remote areas, nutritional standards were high, and poverty was almost unknown. Medical care for all citizens, including children, was subsidized heavily and widely available. Approximately 20 young female rape and sexual abuse victims, between 9 and 15 years of age, were housed at the government-sponsored Taman Noor Hidayah women's shelter. The penalty for the rape of a minor is imprisonment for from 8 to 30 years and caning with not less than 12 strokes.

Persons with Disabilities

The law does not mandate accessibility or other assistance for persons with disabilities. The Government attempted to provide educational services for children with disabilities, although these efforts were not up to international norms.

Indigenous People

Indigenous people comprised 6 percent of the population; they were integrated into society, and enjoyed the same rights as other citizens.

National/Racial/Ethnic Minorities

There are a sizeable number of "stateless" persons and permanent residents, mostly ethnic Chinese, including those born and raised in the country, who were not automatically accorded citizenship and its attendant rights. They had to travel abroad as stateless persons and did not enjoy the full privileges of citizenship, including the right to own land. Stateless persons and permanent residents also are not entitled to subsidized medical care. In June, a reform to the nationality law allowed some older, stateless persons and some permanent residents over age 50 to acquire citizenship by passing an oral rather than a written nationality test. All stateless persons and permanent residents became entitled to free education at government schools and other vocational and technical institutions.

Section 6 Worker Rights

a. The Right of Association

Trade unions are legal and independent but must be registered with the Government. All workers, including civil servants other than those serving in the military and those working as prison guards or police officers, may form or join trade unions. However, in practice there was no union activity in the country. The three registered trade unions were all in the oil sector, had a total membership of less than 5 percent of that industry's work force, and were inactive. There were over 80,000 foreign workers in the country, including almost 20 thousand garment industry workers, none of whom are members of any trade union. The law permits the formation of trade union federations but forbids affiliation with international labor organizations. The country has ratified none of the ILO's eight Fundamental Conventions.

b. The Right to Organize and Bargain Collectively

Since there was no union activity in the country, questions of government interference in union matters and employer discrimination against union members did not arise. There is no legal foundation for collective bargaining, and strikes are illegal. Wage and benefit packages were based on market conditions.

There is a free trade zone in Muara Port, known as the Muara Export Zone (MEZ). The labor laws are fully applicable in the MEZ.

c. Prohibition of Forced or Bonded Labor

The law prohibits forced or bonded labor, including by children; however, there were reports that some foreign domestic workers worked under conditions that resembled bondage (see Section 6.e.). Other workers, most notably in the garment industry, signed contracts with employment agents or other sponsors in their home countries that reduced their promised salaries through payments to the agencies, or sponsors. In response, the Government forbade wage deductions to agencies or sponsors and mandated that employees receive their full salaries.

d. Status of Child Labor Practices and Minimum Age for Employment

Various laws prohibit the employment of children under the age of 16. Parental consent and approval by the Labor Commission is required for those under the age of 18. Females under age 18 may not work at night or on offshore oil platforms. The Department of Labor (DOL), which is a part of the Ministry of Home Affairs, effectively enforced laws on the employment of children. There were no reports of violations of the child labor laws.

The Government adheres to the standards of ILO Convention 182 on the worst forms of child labor.

e. Acceptable Conditions of Work

Due to the ongoing economic downturn and reduced government hiring, unemployment has grown in recent years. However, most citizens who had employment still commanded good salaries. There is no minimum wage. The standard workweek is Monday through Thursday and Saturday, with Friday and Sunday off, allowing for two 24-hour rest periods each week. Overtime is paid for work in excess of 48 hours per week, and double time is paid for work performed on legal holidays. Occupational health and safety standards are established by government regulations. The DOL inspected working conditions on a routine basis and in response to complaints. The DOL generally enforced labor regulations effectively. However, enforcement in the unskilled labor sector was lax, especially for foreign laborers. The DOL may close any workplace where health, safety, or working conditions are unsatisfactory, and it has done so. The law permits a worker to leave a hazardous job site without jeopardizing his employment, but generally this did not occur. At least 80,000 foreign nationals worked in the country. There were reports of foreign maids and other domestic workers who worked exceptionally long hours, did not have a rest day, and whose liberty was severely restricted. There also were isolated reports of employers physically beating domestic employees or not providing them with adequate food. The Government prosecuted some such cases.
Government protective measures for foreign workers included arrival briefings for workers, inspections of facilities, and a telephone hotline for worker complaints. Government mediation continued to be most commonly used to resolve labor disputes. Abusive employers also faced criminal and civil penalties. When grievances cannot be resolved, repatriation of foreign workers is at the expense of the employer, and all outstanding wages must be paid. The majority of abuse cases were settled out of court by the payment of financial compensation to the maid by the errant employer.

f. Trafficking in Persons

Brunei has been a destination country for persons trafficked for labor and sexual exploitation. A statute outlaws sexual exploitation and trafficking of women and girls, and a variety of other laws, primarily those related to prostitution and the protection of minors, could be applied against sex traffickers. However, authorities only rarely investigated and prosecuted sex traffickers, particularly when the victims were foreigners. Immigration, labor, and religious regulations could deter trafficking, but were unevenly implemented. The Government has tightened regulations and enforcement to deter labor traffickers and improved its record in protecting foreign trafficking victims.

Most trafficking occurred in the labor context, as foreign workers were recruited from Indonesia, Malaysia, the Philippines, Pakistan, India, and Bangladesh for work in the garment industries, agriculture, and as domestic servants. There were also a small number of cases of trafficking in women for purposes of sexual exploitation.

While there was awareness among senior officials of the criminal aspects of trafficking in persons for labor and prostitution, there was inadequate understanding of these issues at the operational and enforcement level. There were no awareness programs to educate the public or specific training for government officials on trafficking. In broad preventive measures not specific to trafficking, the Government provided a wide range of social and educational services to citizens, which reduced their vulnerability to trafficking. The Government provided funds for shelters that serviced only citizens and permanent residents, who were rarely the victims of trafficking.
Some embassies provided protection services, including temporary shelter, for workers involved in disputes with employers.

So many things... to tell yet... feel so little....

2005-09-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

Welll...... wat a day i have gone through.... full of trouble and uneasy feeling. but finally i have get over it.... Unfortunately, there is one or two hiccup. :(.

First of all, it was one of fren unable to hand in their form in time and now he can't run for this year guild election already :( sad sad... but too bad... secondly, i was so crazy about my gf and keep talking to my bolster as if is her... like "siao kia" say how much i love her, how much i care for her... and yadadada.... hahaha crazy right... that's me.

So that is just two out of all the bad things today.... Guess wat ppl..... i have set up team to run.... and we have massive supporters behind... not goonaaa tell anyone who r there.. coz some jerk from other team might read my blog... :P too badd you won't get anything out of me... but i know everything about u.... " i know how many team, the so-called main team with their dummies is" i know the ppl in the team... i know thier supporter... i know more than wat u can imagine... wannnaaa win ur election.... have to talk to me and my ppl 1st hahahahaha....

more and more and moree........ damn.... MCW is coming and yet nothign much ahs been done.. and my committee has just decided to remove the events manager due to his poor conduct. unfortunately my committee used my name to send a e-mail to tell him he is removed.. now all the blame come to me fine.. lah i ahve nothing to say... all i can say is that.... it is fate.... there is a job scope wat they have to do and he has not been able to fulfilll and also failed to attend most of the meeting... further he has not been able to priotise the work right... thinking ISC is just a stupid organisation... MAN give me a break ok.... ISC is my baby, do ur thing right and commit urself to it.. OR ELSE fuck off... that's it man....

there is more.... then now my nlcwest bgs resigned already..... so sad... i have to do so much things...... die lor...... but i really hope that things will go well espaically with the other campuses like murdoch and notre dame espaically due to traditional tension... hope to resolve it ASAP. :D... but lately they ahve been very freindly... love it.... so much....

Conference and conference.... so many conferences..... 23 sep , i hv a conference to attend at perth which is the ISANA state conference and 12-14 october... i hv to attend the IDP conference... at Gold coast... bz bz bz bz.

Man .... i tell all of you.... i really need a PA to manage my time now... so bz... study, assignment, projects for nlcwest, ISC, elections... etc etc etc... Well most importantly, don't let my gf feel she is depriortise... i so sacred you know... if she feel unlove and unwanted.. so no matter how busy and tireed i am i will still try to call her and tell her about wat going on and things she wants to know. Hope she will apprieciate it... coz or elsse.... i will die here laiw... hahaha.... Y? welll i am so bz yet try to spend time with her... but she don't apprieciate it... then i should die lor... so that is why okie..... Weell of coz if she likes it... then its' okie....

Okie i should go sleep damn tirreddd and siennnn now... misss my dear so much,..... but can't talk to her... coz she is sleepy so let her sleep lah...... although i am very unhappy coz i am being a jerk not to let her sleepp.... always...

Long Long time Ago...

2005-09-02T03:22:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile since i have actively posting in my blog... welll... been extremely stress with my work espaically MCW and Elections....

Guess what.... ppl are acting so much like an idoit nowdays expecting everything from you and doing everything for them.... What kind of shit is that....

I am only one person... i need to study and have my own life... can't they give me a break... i am already very tireed..... and direct them how to do things and what to do... what more they want... keep asking me to do for them... damn.....

Nevertheless, i feel so poor also overspent agian and wish my dear can chat with me online. i don';t know why.. hope if she read this she will understand. i don't know why that everytime i want to chat with her online / through skype she get tired so easily and can't talk long... and when i call her mobile she tends to be able to talk longer... i feel so hurt as i spend more money... but i don;t know how to tell her... i wish we can just talk on skype and online, it is much more cost effective, if you can find time to talk to me when i call u, sure u can talk to me online.... but i guess i care for her so much....

Am I a good person? well i guess i am...... too good to be true... and now everyone is taking advantage of me,... when will this end.... i just want to be nice and ppl will respect that, not taking advantage....:(

Confession:- hehehhe... i got confession.... thanks to mun, tiffy and tat, i have food to eat, they treat me when we go out eat... so nice... KFC yummy..... i will remember it... :P....

So what else goes on lately, i met up with Juelle finally... hehehe.... well... what i think of her... she is pretty, intellegent and hot... but dear don't worry, i still love u...... she got BF okie... and I got GF... hehehe :D.... Well.. she seem like very nice person and funny... feel so nice playing board games, cards and chit chat with her.... well of coz in a group... anyway, it is nice to know a friendly person like her....

Other than her, Howie..... a young boy... but seem to know more jack shit then tat... sorry tat...i reckon so... hehee. He has just came to Perht less than a month and already got a gf... damn steady... this kid.... hehee well... one very important thing i guess, he is not a wannabe and very authenic... although sometime he is full of shit.. and stupid stuff. but nice knowing him too... hehehe... fun to hang out with... and i guess... one thing make him more fun iss... he is very active...

Opss.. last confession.... i miss my dear, yoyo. i wish i can go KL ASAP hug her and kiss her.... care for her and take care of her eternally.... some may think i am traditionall but i reckon it is not traditional but just an aspect of life and what you value the most....

Stolen Laptop Scene

2005-07-19T09:42:00.000+08:00

Well… since everyone is so interested to know about my lost of laptop scenario, I will explain it here.

It all began here. I have arrived at Central Station with a bunch of NLC office bearers to meet up with the SA gang. Since we have so many bags, we called for a taxi to bring all the bags. Justin and I were in the cab with all the bags. When we reach, we were in a hurry to bring all the bags down coz our cab stopped at the middle of the road. Two of us with 4-5ppl bags, imagine!!!!

SO FAR everything is safe still. I carried my laptop bag and my bag into the hostel first. During this time, the thief came in (according to the security tape) trying to make his move, too bad, by then all the other bags came in with all the other ppl. Because I never have a prior booking, so I told one of the guys, I go check whether there is room for me or not. While I am checking in, “thief strikes again”, he grab the laptop bag, and just walk away. The friend closest to the bags never realise someone took the laptop bag. Just like that the laptop is stolen.

In that split 1 mins, I lost my laptop. End of the scene report!!!

Back to PERTH>>>

2005-07-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

Finally i am back to perth now. What a conference!!!! in Newcastle. I now started to Hate Sdyney... eventhough it has a nice view and places to go.... WHY? day 1 broke my camera.... and last day lost my laptop... how it happen????? the weather and ppl in sdyney suck!!! :P.

nvm.... i am pissed enough... for that.... to tell you the truth i still love Perth, quiet and peaceful.... and tends to receive good news.... RESULT is out/..... guesss what i get.... i got 2 distinction, one credit and one pass... Miracle..... :D.... and it is a postgraduate level somemore.... man... i must have done pretty well...

Well... result out means another thing also... some of my friends is going back... my good freind Candice will be going.. :(...everyone is leaving, when will it be my turn... :D

Today, i am so sick, got dry cough, running nose and headache... so going to take sick leave... i cannot take it anymore... to tired... and weak.... it was during this time i wish my dear, yoshiko can be here to look after me.. and love me. i feel so lonely now... i feel so depressed that even when i am sick no one come and look after me... i guess now i will start to appriciate yoshiko more... now i understand that she is my only one lover whom i can't bare to lose... hope she will wait for me... i will be there soon....

NLCAC

2005-07-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

Last Day of Conference..... Wellllll WA once the strongest state in NLC with at least one National Exec on NLC and now we lost everything... One saddest thing is that even the business committee, Curtin are not able to get any position... :(... nvm of that now i guess!!!! we will have to move on....

WA new born group.

Today, I am so proud of the outcome, WA is seen as one state agian with no seperation on the floor on how they think and work. NLC West will soon be a commercialised non profit organisation. It will be my objective to ensure we are able to secure the deal with an organisation to provide such services like International Students Email address during thier stay in Australia. it will also be used as a communication point for them to get in touch with all international students from country.

It will be my time to ensur everythhing can work out and i will have to come out with a business proposal to ensure it can work and able to function in ways that all international students in WA able to get in touch with one another.

Let it be the time for us to grow. and time for us to find new ways to deal with it. I love my international students in australia... so we can just forget all the politics in NLC and move with our life.... i will support the newly appointed NC, NGS, NCC. they will gain my support but not my respect until they prove to me that they are capable. :D... SERVING INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS is my aim and shall remain so..... :P

Love everyone here..... and miss my YOYO so much... she is so cute and caring been calling me a lot lately... mis ya...u will always be my deareast Yoshiko Tey

Moving to Newcastle

2005-07-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

Well..... now i am moving to Newcastle..... and my camera cannot be repair cause it take ages... and i am pissed.... coz i have no camera.... :(. Well bugger... it.... now i am in conference it will be full on hardcore from now... :D... I miss my dear now so much... YOYO... I MISS YOU... i guess i have been a bit too stress out with everything and put a lot of pressure on her when she is so poor and stress as well with her work....

Holiday.... is over now.... hope everything will go well. :D. Today..... i met up with ADRIAN WONG.... he look so handsome and young now... compare to the last two year i met him in conference. i guess he is not that stressful anymore and happyy.....

Other than that i met up with all the other national exec as well like Fon etc... :P... well they all look so tired... but also happy after meeting... hehehe.... i guess i have to shut up soon.. coz ppll say... watever stay in conference stay in conference. :D... so dear... if i ahve scandal in conference stay in conference only okie... hehehe.. miss ya...

this year no more MARC... yeah.... maybe i will get his attention... hahahahah :P joking lah... don't need it... coz i have my dearest yoyo who love me so much... guess WAT... i have to gossip about tiffany... she eh.... always so mang zhang like "ORC KAI LA".... teruk benar... eh... :p... but still i love her so much... as a friend... without her... i won't be here and without her i won't have what i have today... i guess it is her continous support that bring me to where i am today... so thank ya... siao ca bo :p... anyway gtg now...

Time In Sydney

2005-06-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

Welll...... everyone say Sydney is a nice place but i guess i have a bad time here... since arrriving in Sydney been is extreme unhappy..... :( why....

1) my camera drop from the tripod stand and the lens was damage and i have to repair it which cost $300 and i ahve no choice but to repair it even though my freind keep asking me not to. but i guess it is becuase i love my camera so much. Disappointingly, my dear don't understand me and i was damn upset when she said the same thing also.... :(. well, i guess that is what happen espaically such thing happen. Well... conly My fren, salina support me in changing lens other than my parents without me getting more upset.

2) My mood is so down here... i miss my dear so much.... worry about her at work but don't know how to tell her. and i knwo i don't have much time talking to her now... cause she is working. Further to that, she can't recharge her phone coz no money so can't message me. i feel so burden and more burden than before i guess when i officially resign by end of the month.

So like that loh.. in short further to that... the weather here has spoil my mood so badly keep raining and give me the feeling of unhapiness and feel like lazy and tired.... i wish my dear is here to support me and accompany now...

Decision

2005-06-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

Life has been full of decision making, some decision is for better good and others are for worst bad. We never know what decision we made is right or wrong till the day come. Today, I have made up my mind and courage to resign from my position as General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild, for one simple reason, “Selfishness”. It seem that I am going through a lot over the months trying to find my true self again but never quite getting there.

Today, I feel I am getting to the place where I want to be. To be one of the top international student representative and not a student representative, what is the difference? Being an international student representative only deal with international student issue and a student representative deal with all student issue, I was once told that not to take up the position and advise to just let others do it but I choose to go for it for the better of international students’ voice. Now, I realize I have been ashamed by other student representative; I have failed my fellow international students.

I guess I should have not take up anything and go back home, I might change my faith even with my dearest Yoyo. It seems that now my life is all upside down without direction feeling lost and unwanted. It makes me feel I lost everything, everything I built over the years. I try my best to made International Students Committee (ISC), a well-known student representative not only on-campus but off-campus as well… I guess I have not manage to do it… and I believe that Tiffany, this year have done it. I used to think that maybe it is what I did last year that craft ISC this year but I was wrong. The reason why I think so it that I don’t have a good public speaking and good English to communicate my ideas, no one seems to understand me.

Decision to change one’s life
Now, I believe that if I can’t craft a better person of myself. I will never be able to serve my fellow international students. I will try my best to read more books to understand my issues, so I can be more prepared, more resourceful and more knowledgeable. I will take my remaining time to ensure that I do my best in my study and show to others I can do it; I can be the best in things I do. I am Jacky Teo….. I can change the life of international students in Western Australia, I can make them feel like they are welcome and represented properly and accordingly. I have quit my job as Gen Sec, and now I will do what I love and without regret make it the best organisation in WA, and Australia. Both ISC and NLCWEST will have to be effective and efficient, where all international students want to know about and join. It will be my aim and objective to stay focus and shall not divert my interest and do all my best.

I hope I can do it, no matter what I must do it. I have to…. Decision I shall not regrets. Hope my parents will forgive me for giving them extra burden, I will make sure that, their hardship and love will be great endure and appreciated. Thank to my parents, Sister, My dear Yoshiko and all my friends. I will prove to be a worthwhile person again. I will and I must.

Time to express my life on "DOOM DAY"

2005-06-05T16:28:00.000+08:00

Today….. “Doom day”. Well today, I started my day with doing my 40% take home exam due tomorrow but just finished one question out of three. Then I move on in reading blog and came across my friend, Kenny blog…. I haven’t been reading his blog for weeks now. Guess what I came across. According to Kennysia.com, my “living is a confused life” blog is funny only because I made a lot of spelling mistake. Well I guess no one really understand me, this blog expressed the truth in me and what is really in my heart.

Whether it is funny or not, doesn’t really matter to me. Whether people read my blog or not don’t mean a thing to me. So at the same time, whether I did many spelling mistake, who cares.. :P. This is who I am and what I am, like it or not it is the true me and that about my comment towards his comment on my blog.

Back to my own life, since my last update so many things have happen. First of all, my study, I have like 7 assignments due 6 of it worth 40% and one of it worth 20%. STRESSSS!!!!!!! AND VERY STRESSSS!!!!!!!!!

Then move on to my friends…. Lately I was thinking what wrong with my monthly dinner group gang!!! It seems to be very sad and breaking apart lately. As I was talking to some of them I realized that we are going through some sort of low time. It seem like there is more and more internal issues that need to be speak out… SO I will start here and home my fellow monthly dinner gang can continue.

1) I am extremely unhappy being treated like a driver and so I wish you guys can understand especially tat weng. The reason is not because I don’t want to drive you around but you have to understand, we are all students and petrol is really an unnecessarily expenditure just to drive you here and there. Other than that is the way when you actually asked for it, people might feel extremely unhappy when you are bossing around or commanding people to drive you around. Further to that, I am extremely pissed when I already say no and you make a decision by yourself to overturn my decision. For example, I say to meet kah mun at KFC but you told mun we will come and pick you up. It is like you make your decision without actually care who’s car that is and who is driving. This is about being treated like a driver and I hope everyone won’t have a hard feeling towards this comment and take it as time to say everything out before it is too late and our monthly group breaks apart.

2) Candice and Stiener, I don’t have a problem with you guys actually just to say sorry if you guys feel left out. The reasons why I seldom call you guys are because you stay on the opposite side of me. L You are in West Perth and I am in Waterford. I am sure we can work out something to keep in touch and we are still best friend of cause no matter what. You are always my best friends.

3) David Koko and Dine Cehceh, hm… problems with us is that we seldom see one another as often as we used too. It seem like since you guys graduated and married, we have lesser time to meet up due to different commitment and free time so when we meet up it may seem a bit awkward. Nevertheless, you two will always be my koko and cehceh in Perth, sorry to forget and wish you guys happy birthday….. I am really busy with assignment.

4) Gline and Jamie… hm… I guess we have not been very close all these while but certainly we are still in our monthly dinner group as friend who care about one another and a bonding friendship that is to remain strong. Anyway gline, we have to work together mah… so will sure have to keep it strong :D.

5) Mun and Tiffy, well you two I guess not much problems… so no need to say anything…. Because we are still working together and see each other very often in ISC office.

6) Nicole, I guess sometime you might feel I am very bad, which I am sometime… I admit. I feel our problems occurs not because of us but more just because of my stress in study and always see you pretty much at the wrong time or wrong place.

7) Kanny, Mien and Lin, I guess this time I would have to say we are neutral so nothing wrong… coz maybe our friendship is new and that we haven’t put too much personal feeling into our friendship as the friendship is not into the very Mature stage except for me and lin… something like my carer… now hehehe….

8) My dearest, yoyo, well since you left… I have feel so lonely in the group again like the person with partner and seeing everyone with their partner so happy and enjoying themselves.

9) EX-Monthly dinner gang, Kenny & Phang & Joey. Well since you guys leave there is lack of communications between us… but I guess we can work sometime out right… afterall we were once sitting at the same table and eat… :P

I hope this will draw a line to the end of the problems and let us build up or group again never to let it split apart, new member or not doesn’t really matter but our old friendship has to be maintain. Hope none of you have a hard feeling and feel free to criticize all my comment and scold me… afterall we are always open to one another and not much secret kept in between us.

Well... hope to see a brand new friendship….

Commitment VS Time

2005-05-24T06:11:00.000+08:00

I have been so stress out lately with all the work I am doing; I seem to be running out of time. Lately it is brought to my attention that I have put too much commitment on friends and various others issues that I shouldn’t have.

1) Friendship VS Time

I hope my friend will understanding, I have been abandoning them and refusing to take any actions to improve my friendship for various reasons.

I have so much commitment that it is not funny!!!! I can’t think for them or care for them as much as some may think I do. I no longer can stop myself from restricting myself from have the little bit of time to be alone or relaxing or my freedom of movement.

Sometime, when friends have put all expectation on you to do all the things, you can’t commit to all. I feel I have burn too much of my time on those, trying to meet others requirement so that I can maintain the friendship. WELL???? Today things must change, I myself are in deep shit… I don’t even have time for myself or someone very important in my life; I don’t believe I should take this responsibility anymore for now.

My 4th Priority

2) Girlfriend and Family VS Time

Well, lately been a very disappointing case, my dearest one and my family, long being neglected especially my family. I feel so sorry. They are so worried about me but I don’t have the half an hour to calm them and talk to them… I believe I have to put effort into my family and to keep them less worried and remain happy

As for my dearest one, I feel extremely bad lately but never wish to tell her face to face or directly but I hope she read this now. I am extremely load fully and don’t have the time. Many occasions, I have just forget about caring for her but feeling extremely bad but then I lied to her saying, I am just testing you to let you know how it feel etc. I feel I have been neglecting her. I feel I have been hurting her feeling when sometime I am too emotional because of my time constraints. I always feel she don’t understand and comprise to the time limitation I have, but at the same time being ignorance about her busy time limitation due to heavy work load of housework, searching for jobs, SGM activities and “others” friends :P.

I will try my best to take all the time I can save to put on this group.

My 2nd priority

3) Work VS Time

With the high level of workload to be done, it has certainly been a tough time for me. I have to ensure all of my work is done and that it will remain my 1st priority now. No matter what I have the rest can wait… L

4) Resting VS Time

Well after my commitment for my workload and my closest one, I think I deserve a bit of time everyday to sleep. I am no super human and doesn’t posses any super strength to keep me workable for 24hr/7day/52week. So I have at least one day of total rest and minimum of 4 hours of sleep… and work for the next 20hr.

Finally, I have just got back from Melbourne for my State responsibility and now have to back on the ball to complete my study responsibilities.

Tough road ahead

2005-05-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

Well, I guess my road in this coming months seem to be tougher than I thought. I am now in a multiple roles for student representatives and also in my life. Day after day I am thinking of whom I am and what I am doing.

Today, I have been doing a reviewing of my life. Realising, I have a shorter life than what I suppose to have. WONDER WHY?

AS STUDENT REPRESENTATIVE, I am now not only the General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild, but also NLCWEST Branch Convenor and ISC MCW Chairperson. Since Yo’s Departure from Perth, that’s the way I choose to entertain myself with. Nevertheless, due to tremendous slackness in doing my work, I now have like 6 assignment and 13 summaries to hand in. No one knows how I am going to cope with it at the same time no one will know how I am going to deal with this stress.

Outside of that, financially, I have to pay a $960 rental by tomorrow but only have in total $925 with me. I now feel that, I am just in the worst crisis ever that will happen to me. I can’t even ask for financial assistance from my parent because I have already asked once and that is to clear most of my debt and now it will be all up to me.

Well… apart from all those what is the toughest road I have is that I have work out budget and timeline that I have to meet to further organize my time and my person. Whether it is going to work or not, i certainly have to see. Well it has some cost and benefits.

Benefits;-

1) more organized and steady life
2) save more money for future
3) less worry for my family
4) having a quite life

Cost;-

1) Might lose my love one, coz I can’t call her all the time and catch up with her
2) Less social life and less fun time
3) Can’t go out eat all the time and have to stay at home

Am I willing to take the risk… to lose my dearest one… is she going to leave me? I don’t know. Well regardless what, I am now one of the world’s most unconfident person but will till take the courage to do it… no matter wat it takes. May all my frens regards wat religion ur are to bless me… going through this pathway easily and become a better person.

DEADLINES To meet

2005-05-03T10:27:00.000+08:00

Here is the outline of work i have to get it done from this week onwards.. STREESSSS :(

One-page summary by (5 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought

Session 9 (10 May)
Terrorism School of Strategic Thought

May 27th
Ministerial Briefing Paper –Strategic Geography

Session 12 (May 31)
Briefing paper – World Current Trends

Session 13 (June 7)
Major Essay – World Current Trends

June 10th
Major Essay – Middle East

Jun 13th
Ministerial Briefing Paper – Eurasia Studies

June 20th
Major Essay - Eurasia Studies

My weekend

2005-05-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

Well... I have been through such a hectic weekend..... eventhough i ahve a weekbreak.... :(

1) well i went to both NLCWEST BEC and BAC....... hm... what happen there.... talk to couple of ppl from CISWA, NUSWEST ETC... things seem to go well but guess what... i actually don't know what i have got me into by running the Branch Convenor position. Currently, my mind is full of thought about how to imporve eveything i do... including my studies.....

2) welll what you know,.... i lock myself out of my car... and have to pay like $164 for a $64 membership to RAC roadside assistance... :(. well bad luck... for me but now i know that i am covered for one year for any roadside assistance. :P

3) Me and my dear is getting closer and closer every single day. feel like our heart seem to start understanding one another thought and feeling. well still not prefect but getting there... :D

4) assignment.... heheheh half way through got to finish it by today or else i am doom.. :(

5) lost in the sea... guess i am not> :P prefectly fine... will strive for the bettermen of my future.... from now onwards

Feeling lonely and unlove / Just one of those bad day

2005-04-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Having a day like this too often might not be what I want but it happen. Since early in the morning, left over conflict between me and dear has seemed to be too serious that we fought over it. Well this time turn out to be not her fault because I am so unreasonable and bad for once.

Day goes pass like any other day, went to work at 8.30am -5pm in the Guild. Well certainly have to thank IWAN for his kind work of editing my MCW messenger from Chairperson. Then when to Coles and get some stuff to wash my car hopefully it will look like brand new tomorrow.

As I was going home, I was so hungry because didn’t eat the whole day so cooked some noodle and eat can’t wait for appointment with tiffany them. If was about 6 something, I finished my dinner and I promise to still go with them and pick up Lin on the way around 7pm. All of the sudden, my body turn weak and headache came so decided to take a rest for awhile. Who knows by the time I woke up is 8PM….. I missed the dinner and guess what I made Lin missed her dinner too,…… I feel so so so damn bad.

Thanks to Lin, kind heart she forgives me and says it is ok but in my heart it is certainly not ok. Well nevertheless have to thank iffy also for agreeing to buy food back to LIN when she finished. Since I am not feeling much well, I decided to go back and take a nap and call my dear to tell my situation. It never turn out as what I expected, she give me the feeling of giving the cold shoulder and asked me to go sleep. As I woke up another time feel weak still, so decided to make warm water for myself. Well I am just so CARELESS….., I poured the hot water over my hand and kinda burnt several areas but seem not serious at this moment but the feeling of “LAT” is there. So once again I called my dear, she yet seems to give me the cold shoulder but with a bit of kindness which seem alright as I was in deep pain. OUCH….. all of the sudden my chest started to pain… for like few second… well as I told her…. Seconds later, all she tell me was that you are falling sick already, better look after yourself okay. L I wish there would be something more but nevertheless it is a high hope.

Since kinda met with YO, this is the first time I feel so lonely and back to my anti-social life of just staying at home, not to go out and keep away from all contacts. I don’t know why but my life in Perth seem to face a depression period of turning back to what I used to be when I first arrive.

I feel so much so lost all of the sudden, losing the care of YO, when she is here, she seem to look after me all the time. I guess that is what I want to build to even appreciate her more and I certainly have done it with no doubt full of success. I certainly miss her, day and night care, cooking for me, cleaning my room for me, take care of me when I am not feeling well, accompany me when I am busy, remind me of my role as a student and most important of all, love me truly. L With no regerts, hope the journey of pain and lonely will lead to a life long happiness.

How To Love You Truly

2005-04-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

How to love you truly when I really find it hard to understand why? Why she seem not to understand how I feel. Why doesn’t she see the pain and suffering I have? Why doesn’t she see that I am hurt and really need her care and love? Why doesn’t she see that I need her to tell me what going with her sometime and stop being so silence over the phone and internet when she is curious or feeling that I don’t understand or misunderstand her?

Over the past few months, I feel I am in the mixed feeling of over cared and uncared by the same person. Nevertheless I choose not to let go and fight on. Today, I am here facing an imaginary fear of losing to myself. My own heart and soul whom no longer can stand these feeling of keeping all to myself and trying to find an answer to WHY?

After such a long journey of loving her, I reach the dilemma of what is LOVE and CARING. Are they related at all by any chance? You my dear are all I needed now and want to have. However time, our past, our unique relationship and our feeling stop of from being together.

Since the day I made up my decision to study which till today I have regretted, life have been changing every single day. Our distance has been separated physical attachment and mental attachment to a certain extend. I on the other side, many time make outrage request and bad remark on you and in return not only hurt you but me. Not only so, when you care me too much I feel you are too annoying but when you care less I think you don’t love me. When you ask for my opinion and decision I find you too dependent and when you refused to listen to my opinion and decision I feel you are too independent for me.

How do I able to love someone so truly, madly and deeply if this is the case. What do I want actually? Who am I, to make this remark?

In the end of all this conflict and mysterious feeling of tiredness of the problems, my heart and soul has stand together to tell me that ever since you left, I miss you so much as if that my whole world fall apart without you. Your physical presence has become a greater attachment to me as if like you are my heart.

Dear all readers, I wish there is a way out of all this:-

1) Should I stop all this pain and finish my graduate certificate and go.
2) Should I continue studying until Graduate Diploma and Go
3) Should I finish my course until Master then Go.

Second Advise:-
After Leaving
1) Should I go to KL
2) Should I go back Brunei and then to KL
3) Should I go back Brunei

Third Advise:-
How can I win her heart completely that she will have the love and caring that I wish she has for me?

CHOOSE LIFE: A DIALOGUE

2005-04-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

As I have finish reading the book on CHOOSE LIFE: A DIALOGUE by Arnold Toynbee and Daisaku Ikeda: Part I, Chapter 1 on The Basic Human Being. I have find something very interesting.

1) Human Knowledge.

As I continue reading the book, I find these two people are full of knowledge, they can discuss topic of sex, psychology, science, human instinct and religion. Ikeda, the President of Soka Gakkai International and Arnold Toynbee an International Sage are now prove to me a human can gain knowledge to a level where many people will envy. The reason why I envy them is that they both possesses extraordinary knowledge and able to give specific example on certain issue and provide reader and teach one another something interesting and new.

2) Sex Education / Human Understanding of Sex

Many human beings still believe having SEX before marriage is a big deal. Some may even say SEX shouldn’t be discussed in the open air. As other may say, to have SEX without love is outraged such as Prostitution or One night Stand.

As my personal point of view, Sex is part of our human life. Certainly, there is reason to set rules to limit SEX to be discussed in public or market openly. Conservative or Open-minded of the culture certainly play important rules. Many have related SEX to religion or today’s society’s culture. As science has teaches us how pregnancy works, the hormones that create two human beings to get involve with the desire to have sex and the understanding of human body parts.

Based on the book, they related to human dignity. It is our human dignities that create rules on SEX and to govern our human organ and life. It seems to be a way human has work to differentiated ourselves for the non-human animal and also because we possess the feeling of self-consciousness.

3) Science and Religion

Many story in the past related to the conflict of science and religion, even so today. Religions such as Catholics, Christianity, Muslims, Hinduism, Buddhism and Orthodox have been challenge by science one way on another. The common conflict still exists even though that both are for the betterment of human life.

For example, Catholics or those conservative religious political party leader like JOHN HOWARD :P cannot accept the lesbian/gay marriage or existence, is just so wrong. This is because it has been proven by science that, many cases of this people to be lesbian or gay is just because of their hormones or mixed of genes if looking into western influence teaching by Mendel and Morgan or the Russian influence teaching by Lysenko the environment.

In my personal point of view, Ikeda and Toynbee, make it clear that human history religion and science are complimentary to one another to awaken all human beings to a realization of their essential value. Ikeda made a point on that if we assume this responsibility; we can explore the complementary relations between those two in order to find a way to make religion more accessible to all human.

Certainly, I am proud to tell you this book is given by my dear as my birthday gift, which at first I kinda disappointed with it at first because I was hoping to get something that I can use. But after reading this book, I find that this book is not just a gift to me but something more. It possesses me with new knowledge and understanding how to become a better person and to understand more about life. Well certainly, my love towards my dear will not be missing out because when reading the book, it keeps asking me question back about Yo and the dad. I don’t know why the dad but, he seem to come into my mind also as I have questions for him and how he can teach me more about Ikeda educating the SGI and my curiosity over Soka Gakkai in these sense.

Thank you my dear, I wish we can build a lasting long relationship for the better and worst moment and never be apart in our heart. This will be one of my most memorable present ever received.

Current Book reading social time reading:- CHOOSE LIFE: A DIALOGUE by Arnold Toynbee and Daisaku Ikeda.

Lost in the Deep Blue sea

2005-04-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

Since Yo departure from Perth, I seem to have a habit of tears coming out of my eye when I chat with her. Is it because she saddens me or is it because I miss her so much? That’s what my heart asked. Apparently my heart told me that because I miss her so much and there is a high degree of insecurity in a unique relationship, things she say and do, make my emotional feeling volatile. She can make me very happy in one second by saying something nice and sweet and another second she can make me extremely pissed off and lose control.

Today is the fourth day since her departure; I lost my social aspect already. I was suppose to go out with TAT Weng for the PERTH MOTOR SHOW but ended up sitting at home facing the computer, wondering the few things down here; it would be great is my friends who read my blog comment on it including my dear who refuses to comment on my blog;

1) What is it with some girls commenting on their bf blog. Is it hard to comment on?
2) How do you concentrate on hours of study without distraction?
3) Why human being can be so venerable sometimes?
4) How do you cheer a gal up and keep them 24/7 happy?

Well… that my problem now. Other than that, I am extremely disappointed at myself and making things worst in this relationship with my dear…

Lately I feel kinda angered with my dear, which I feel very sorry after awhile. It was regarding her blog. One minute I was asked to comment on her blog so I did as she said, coz don’t wanna disappoint her. Then later she says, it is to “Yok MA” as in something like sending shivers down the spine. Then she decided wanna hide it. As she was doing it, she just want to hide it completely and get kinda pissed off coz she can’t do it. Here it goes again…. We quarrel over it.

As I was so pissed off I said to her,” Why the hell you wanna hide it if you want me to put a comment, then if you like to hide it and there is no point of asking me to put a comment for u”
In return she says it kindly to me” I just want you to put a comment on my blog but not to “Yok MA”.
I angrily say, “What you want me to do, I put a comment on how I feel towards you and express freely of myself mah. Why do I have to lie to myself about such thing… And in my mind was like saying,”I don’t need to hide myself under a shell as if like I am a criminal that need a disguise to walk around.”
Well what can I say. I feel bad, minutes later as she didn’t really get mad at me as she is just making a request and that is also her blog, she can do whatever she wants with it. My reaction certainly has been over… It has been a hard and tedious road for both of us reaching here and yet I am being so angered over such a small things. I think I goona stop here now… because I started to feel extremely lost now as I started to find myself on the end of losing control and flying to KL and find her.

Exam ends... New War Coming

2005-04-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

Well..... I have finish my exam today. It was really a stressful day....

WHY? it all begin on Wednesday as i suppose to be studying at home.... :( but who knows i been chatting with YO till like 4 am which certainly lead to oversleep the next moring to study. then arrive Tat weng to my place for lunch. Unfortunately, i am so poor that i can only offer him two packt of indo mee... hehehe what a host. As for me, i am eating left over food from pervious day. :( so there i was eating the mee goreng with baked bean and chilli sauce cooked by me and crab meat with thousand island. what is bad about em yeterday was that i am not able to finish my food and force to throw it all to the bin.

Then after, i fall asleep agian which later lead to a diseater becuase i wake up at like 6.30pm. Hlaf of my day have just gone away. :P. Well day seem pretty bad for a time like these. certainly in between the few hours of sleep and awake again, i have play my exam question study on

Edward Said on Orientalism DVD for almost 12 time yesterday. :O CRazy me... :P. Well... thanks to YO suddenly pop up in my mind i have decided to go library and ended up borrowing 12 books 10 related to my assignment on Middle Eastern and 2 related to Buddhism Teaching.

After that around 8pm when for coffee with Lin, Mun and TaT, at Farell's till around 10pm..... and then go home. It was then i really concentrate study like for an hour or so. and give up about 12 :( which i later on go and play game and chat with my dear dear on the phone hehehe.

Well I have just wasted a precious time of 1 day for studying my exam.

Who know today ended up with more diseaster thing. I woke up late for work at the Guild around 9.30 am. :( bad enough already. Tehn went to work and realised that i have like 4 box of cheque to sign which is about 100++ cheque. Certainly it takes time, what can i say.... is my job so i can't study. Sadly of all i miss the Talk on Aceh: Tsunami Relief and Politics talk as well because of the Cheque and later i even have to stay on the office to clean up the mess. Then i go see a Doctor rearding my injured (R) ring finger and (L) elbow. Scared me when the doctor say, hm... sinc eyou have so much injuries i suggest you go and take an X-ray. As i have just took an X-ray one month ago, the X-ray was not an option but i have to take 50 tablets in total for about 2 weeks 3 time a day, hoping the pain will go away. So guess what, from then till 4pm i don;t have a time to study at all. :( i still thought that i might have chance to study but who know i won't.

4pm came, Class for Eurasian Studies started, my heart was so nervous as exam worth 20% is just around the corner at 6pm. Whole through out the class i was so nervous that it seem like my heart will break. :O.

6PM>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>here come the due time, i have to start writing my exam. as time clicking, i realise i finish my two question in just under 1hour... GREAT!!!! but guess what, i don';t even know what i am writing as no preperation for my work. further to that everyone beside me is like write 1 full booklet or 2 booklet as for me only half a booklet. :(. well F@#K it i think what can i do now have to concentrate on my study and stop slacking.

:(... End of one war but here come my new challenges of the coming months. I am the elected chairperson for Curtin Multicultural Week as well and i will be contending for the Branch Convenor and clean up the mess of Our Branch. Hopefully cross my finger i can win that election. It is my objective this year to do all i can for my beloved international students in the state and campus. As i know i won't have the chance again once i leave Perth for K.L. :D Confirm? well at this time going KL is secured why? coz my dear is waiting for me. :D Miss her alot but i certainly have a lot to challange in this coming month hope everything will be fine. Pray for me okie.. regardless what religion you are as long as you think it is effective. hehehehe
:P Till next time...

1st day without YO end....

2005-04-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well.... i don't knwo why i suddenly decided to post up another blog. But certianly, i have a strong feeling of missing YO. As i return home, i feel suddenly so quiet in the house. She is not here with me, talking to me or waiting for me to come home. I certainly didn't return home for lunch today, and waiting for Lin to bring me a take away Chic Rice. :(

My tuesday routine.

Usually my dear will cooking my lunch for me then wait for me to come home and eat. Then i will go back uni and work. After that, i will go for my class and during break, certainly will give her a call and ask how is she etc. After that will return home at 8pm and eat dinner and go for a $5 movie night at Hoyts which now cost about $5.6 but still cheap. when we didn't have a dinner we will certainly go for Gelare waffle. By the time the movie ends, it will be about 10-11nish. Once at home, either we sleep or she/me will play internet until one of us decided to stop the day.

Well today routine certainly have change.

I didn't come home for lunch, no movie, no dear at home waiting for me and certainly no one accompany me and love me like her. :(. I can still sense her presence as things are the way it is before she goes. We even move the layout of my room together. I don't know why but it seem like tears keep coming out of my stubborn eye everytime i think of her privately. :(.

Dear, i wish you have a wonderful time in KL and find the job you love the most. Further to that, i hope you have a wonderful time with your family and remember dear dear will always love you and coming to see you. wait for me okie, i will be there.

there is certainly a good news for me, i have got an extention on my assignment due on Thrusday to Next two week... Yeah!!!! Must be my dear Chanting helped me. :D

19th April, A day after Yo departure

2005-04-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

It has been almost a day now since my dear left Perth. All of a sudden it seem like my time has come to a stop without her. Since her arrival in 17th February 2005 till 18th April 2005, it has been full of memorial time and changes in my life. We have certainly learnt to appreciate each other more and certainly learn to do things together. However all of a sudden everything have change, I am can’t do things with her and I can’t see her.

As for 12th April 2005, where supposed to be my change of the year. It certainly plays a big change. Since then, I finally start to do my job as a general secretary. I have finished my letter to the electoral commission to run our election, I have finished my report and hand in on time, I have put up poster for the guild council and I have come to work every two day a week and stop skipping my duty.

As a student, there is much to go but I have certainly started doing my studies and borrow my required reading on my work and going to a seminar on tsunami relief on Thursday. Exam is in two day time but going o study for it tomorrow and leaves today till early morning for my assignment. Hopefully I can get everything done.

Other than that, the heavy spending over the last few months has certainly made me short of cash. Therefore, I am going to start saving my money for the urgent matters such as my phone bill, internet bill and house rental. Further to that, I will have to start eating home and bring my own water and snack to class. Luckily during Yo’s presence, I have brought enough food to cater for my stomach for the next one month or so.

Back to the first paragraph, I certainly miss my dear, she has been the most wonderful gift ever presence in my life who care for me in a unique way and love me with her kindred spirit. I wish this will not be the last time we will see one another and certainly will not be the end but the beginning of a stable and long distance unique relationship we have. I will certainly take good care of myself and wish that my dear will do the same.

Last but not least, I will never give up hope to be a better person and to take care of our two futures.

Who I am?

2005-04-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

Well it has been way into my semester one as a Postgraduate Student. I am kinda still slacking off. Wonder why i say so?

1) Graduate Diploma in International Relations

In term of study, i have not been doing my work. Firstly, Suppose to submit at least one summary a week for my Middle East Unit but haven't been doing it for almost 5 week now. Secondly, I have a presentation on last Tuesday but only start doing the work with my group mate on Monday. Pretty tense Huh!!!! Thirdly, got an assignment due on 21 April 2005 but haven;t do anything yet. Further to that got a test in three week time but haven;t do anything yet also. Well wonder why????? i have been slacking.... I really don't know what to do.

2) General Secretary of Curtin Student Guild

I have been in this role of the past 5 month now and about 7 months to go before my term ends. I feel i haven't been doing much for the student. Every month when i write my report i am wondering what to write and what to type? I have do so little for the students feel so ashame. Every day i leave my work to the end and never been efficeint and effective. I am so not into this job but i am here.

3)Waiter in Red Rock Noodle Bar

I am working two days a week at Red Rock Noodle Bar. What can i say about this job, compare to my Guild Job it is just under pay. but i am getting additional income. However i am wondering why i have to take up such job the first place. why i have to make my time in uni so busy and stress when i can stay at home sleeping and enjoy my time. Am i in need of money. i feel like i am spending more when i earn more. :(

4) Dear Dear to My Dear

I have been ignoring her and annoyed her a lot lately. Been playing games day and night :p asking her to do this and that. treating her like a maid so bad..... Leaving her doing all the work herself and cleaning my mess and stuff.

AFTER 12 April 2005.

Well it is now exact seven day incl. today before my dearest Yo leaving for K.L. and not returning to Perth. Here i have stated my probelms and been avoinding it so much lately.

New Life for Me and a New Beginning of 2005.

Everyone says 1 January every year is a beginning of a new year etc etc. But i guess it is just your psychological thinking. To me, i think this year my year really begins here on 12 April 2005.

As a student, student rep and waiter.

Firstly => STUDENT

Agenda and task for me to achieve

I have to start reading all my article by 18th April. I have to start my research today and finish my assignment by Tuesday Next Week 19th April. I have to get my group work up and running. I have to put more time into doing research on all my assignment.

Must get an early sleep by 12am everyday and wake up at 8 am. eat breakfast at home, cook my own meal no eating out. Reduce my phone plan to $30 and clean up my room, do my luandry and stay at home.

Secondly => Student Rep

I have to get myself organised, get a dairy with time and task. Bind myself with it hard as a iron fist. Start on all my project such as Guild Volunteer Team & Sibiling Discount. Start to clean up my offices and complete my work on time and early. Do all my reports and work towards the better of student welfare.

Thirdly => Waiter in Red Rock

Save all the cash from May onwards. for future usage and not to over spend myself. my try to save up to $1000 by end of December. Get my two day free food.

Forthly => Dear dear to My Dear

Try to spend valuable time with her and do washing and cooking together. Do all our stuff together and have to be more undertsanding. Never to leave her alone doing all the work and help her all the time. Do use so much money as it is the most important aspect in this relationship, what is most important is the building of a better life for two and future of a eternity.

Here i am making my confession. :D i feel much better now. i shall go get my dairy and start doing my work. I will make sure i inform my blog what i have been doing to see i have achieve my goal or not. :D

"Looking Forward"

2005-03-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

Before today i have drafted a blog to send out which i have never really send until today but as i read it back i have learnt something new from today meeting with yo. It seems like life is not just about how others think of me or about our complicated relationship but more about our future and our feeling of belonging as well as hapiness Anyway i decided to put it up my earlier thought and to tell myself how much have changed in a short 11 days period.

"Since her arrival in Perth till today, i feel very much insecure for the first time. Is it the feeling of losing out or is it the feeling of afraid to lose her or knowing i will lose her? Many may think i am making a silly comment when she is here with me, why should i be worried about such things. Well, i guess it is the argument and quarrelling make me feel that she get sick and tired of me. Lately, her attitude and annoyance of thinking i have become very unreasonable make me feel that she are getting bored of me and wanting to pull herself away from me."

Well wonder what had? Learn to cheerish the precious 1 month with her in Perth before she return to Malaysia for good is more important than anything else in the moment.

Eventhough i am a third party in this relationship, i have never regretted to love her and showing my feeling to her. Some people may think if i knew it why do i still have to continue going after her or why doesn't she reject me once and for all. I certainly agree with many of them before all the incident i have before 2004. However all of these have changed since the existence of my ex-gf and now her.

I now believe that love is unfair and basically it is like a competing world for "survivor of the fittest". I certainly believe also if i never try i will never know she love me or not and i have reduce my chance of being with her to 0% instead of 50-50. Indeed today might not be the happiest moment as seeing her with her bf, but we will never know what will happen next.

There will certainly be remarks about me or asking me, "what if that is your girlfriend, do you wish someone do that back to you?". My answer will be NO but on the condition she loves me with all her heart and have certainly no feeling for the person. However if that, she has feeling for him with/without me, i will certainly choose to let her choose again. As mention early, Love is like a competing world based not just solely about the feeling but also compatibility, future, happiness, memories you wish to have with that person and certainly about how his/her family think of you. Everyone have the right for the best person for them. Isn't it? What's wrong about it? When decision can't be made aren't we feel like keeping things low and simple and not trying to make it complicated? Is others' people point of view important?

Yes, everyone has a right to choose for the best. Nothing is wrong about it. Keeping it low and simple is better. Others' views are not always important as they don't know your situation better than you or your love one, it is also certainly your own life and her life. We choose our own pathway.

Well..... That is just full of my philosophy and now.... many might be guessing what i learn in the meeting that changes everything.

What are there problems between us? What is the cause? How should we be looking at the situtation and resolve it. Certainly but no mean many of our problems are baseless when i think of it back and many are based on our own emotions of trying to keep oursleves in a low profile situation which have certianly become a habit to us as one of us has started to engage and trying to move forward and change the relationship we have.

It was during the meeting i kinda wake up that what is more important now. Maintaining a strong bond with her and try to keep the relationship in a happy and transparent stage. Give one another the space and time to understand one another and certainly time to resolve our complicated relationship. It is easy to fall in love but hard to maintain the feeling.

Finally i would just say, if we meant to be for one another, eventhough someone trying to break us apart it will not be broken and certainly the same apply to when people trying critise my way to love her. But if we are not for one another then it will be pointless to talk about it eventhough if not one say anything about us the realationship will not last.

Therefore from now i will look forward build a better future for myself and certainly with her existence. To all my friends, i am certainly very gladful for your comment and never actually prevent me from loving her especially Mien, Lin, Tiffy, Mun and Dine Cehceh which i have talk to so in depth about And also for all my friend that i have not mention for your endless support till today on me and never give up hope on me.... Well i have a next update soon about my Day today... :D and the past few days with my beloved Yo.... :D.

P/S:- Guess what... While i am typing this blog... a gal beside me name Yoshiko... is cleaning my keyboard and for once my keyboard look cleaner... thank you dear dear... i am glad to have you here with me and supporting me... Thank you very much for the bracelet you get for me... it look so tribal but i guess i love it as it is not only my taste but also a gift for you... :D Mauhzzz

Feel like the happiest person alive now to have by my side....

The Life of a Graduate (:P)

2005-02-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

Well...... Gooddd.......... News.............. For Everyone............ I have graduated from my degree and now i am a B.com in Global Economics and Finance. For only a Weekend i was no longer recognised as a student hehehhee :P welll guess why....... coz i have enrolled into my new course of Graduate Diploma in International Relations. Future leader in Asia. hehehehe Teo Kian Kee....

What make my life even better is that, i met His majesty Sultan of Brunei on Saturday...... and later that night i attended my love one graduation. :D.

Well as always good news always come with a bad news... i have burn my face with a hair removal lotion and it is really painful.... but what is event more painful is that i become a laughing stock to everyone i knew. :(... sa... right wat a friends they r... hehehhee. joking lah... at least they seem happy and have something to laugh about. anyway..... my dream will go on with her support hopefully....

End of My Valentine Days

2005-02-15T11:01:00.000+08:00

Februaury 14, As i was driving back home from university, i went passed Ciao Italia. It was a very romantic atmosphere, i see so many couple. they were hugging each other, waiting for tables with the girl leaning on the boy and looking at the menu. It was such an happy moment for couple on Valentine day and yet i am lonely here single and helpless.

Yet most amazingly, the sun was only reflecting on one of the city building. that is the AAPT bulding and directly at the revolving restaurant. It was the restaurant that i have planned to bring my love one this year but end up, i don't have such a chance.

Well, things never end at such a great day. It seems like it is the end of my valentine days on a day after valentine day itself. Feb 15th. The long waited story finally ends, my heart has been crashed and destory completely. My dream and future ends here with despair and misery. I once told myself, i will not let this love ends but i guess i have no choice. i don't have the strength to keep the flame burning and keep it eternally like the burning flame in Kings Park and Paris. I have lost and lost badly. It is a punishment for years of sins and unfaithfulness. No one to be blame but myslef. For someone not to love and care about me and lied to me is my punishment. i will never forget that what i deserve. To be unloved, to be lied to be hurt and to suffer.

Goodbye my love, i no longer will be a burden for you. i no longer will be the foundation for you. i no longer will trouble you. i certianly will disappear from you eternally. hoping you will have a happy future without my shadow and misery i have caused you. this will be the dying of the burning flame.

End of my Degree

2005-02-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

Well... i have finish my final two unit. hoepfully i can pass all of it and graduate.... i kinda sacred at the moment with one fo my unit as i don't ahve a pretty good mark and lack of the confidence for that paper. Hope my prayer and anyone who have supported will make these work out for me.

Well tommorow is Valentine Day, yet i am alone in Perth. going to have a normal day, work at 8.30am till 5.30 pm at Curtin Student Guild then going home clean the house bit by bit. hopefully by 21 feb it will look brand new for inspection.

Well good news is that i will be moving out of that place by 27 feb, if everything goes smoothly. and be able to graduate from my degree and continue my gradaute diploma in international relations.

Howvere good news alwaysa come with bad news, i currently haven;t found any place to stay yet at all and will be homeless by 27 feb. other then that i am also not sure about my result until sometime this week. :(. i am also currently alone in Perth eventhough Joey, Dine and David are here, but i still feel lonely. It is the first time i feel i have lost the complete of me. Is like my heart no longer want to be in Perth for the first time. no longer have the heart to apply PR. hm... welll guess what...

I will go agianst all my will and heart to fight this difficulty and successfully defeat my evil self in my heart. the evil of keeping myself close into the love and never consider my future and my life. It seem like a diffcult move to take but no one can deny it that it going to be the most hurting step i goona take....

Anyway ... wish all of you a happy chinese new year and get more ang pow and give me some.... i so kolian no angpow this year.....

My Future, My Life

2005-02-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

As i was reading the 'Youthful Diary' of Daisaku Ikeda some of his poem and words strucks my attention.

Pg 45

I am young. I will advance. Straight ahead, on the road I must follow.

I am young. I will fulfil what the heavens have ordained.

I am young. I will muster my courage, convinced that all struggles under my teacher's
guidance will lead to the good.

Pg 51

Youth!
Know the statelt swells of the Pacific.
Know the blazing passion of the sun.
Know the solemnity of the mountian recesses.
Know the graceful scarlet of the autumn maples.

Youth!
Live without forgetting these.
Advance with them in your hearts.

Youth!
Be courageous in today's battle.
Celebrate tomorrow's ideal.
Forget the dreams of the past.
Arise, for the dreams of the future!

Youth!
Advance, advance,
Onward and eternally.

Reading more on his dairy, i feel supported by the words. A person courage and believe in the things they do and the this care so much in. Eventhough, i try to make my friend reply my last post to scold me or anything. I feel i am running away from the truth and the fact that deep down in my heart i have my answer. That is to study and move on with my life, with or without her.

I have make myself fall into the trap of depression and crisis myself when i can choose not too. I know i have everyone support including her but my fear of losing out is just not worth it. It maybe now she meant so much to me but it doesn't meant it will last forever if she choose not to be with me. As a member of today society, i should start to have faith and believe in faith.

Reading a book froma man who is a disciple of buddhism, i am honour to know that he too has his time of diffuculty and face it like a disciple of buddhism. Needless to say, i came from the orgin of buddhism, i feel ashame for not acting like one and apply the philosophical of buddhism into myself. Eventhough that Nichiren Buddhism a subsect of the buddhism but its' teaching are mainly come from the true buddhism where it is philosophical based and there is no god but ourself learning to use our inner strength to attain buddhahood. I feel it is my time to do as well to take my where i left in my believe and learn more.

As more i read about Ikeda book, i feel like i gain knowledge and undertsanding on life itself and what one can achieve in life by just believing in a religion that no other than believe to use our inner strength and philosophy.

I will take a day off tomorrow from everything and learn to make use of my time to find out and think of what i really wanna get out of my messy life.

Decision that will change my life

2005-01-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

Over the past weeks, i have to choose a decision that will change my life forever as it has an unforeseen future in it. Even today, i am still doubt what i have to do.

1) Shall i finish my degree and go to Malaysia and work
or
2) Shall i continue studying and go to Malaysia in one year time.

Both may seem similar and yet the reason seprated from the two is my love one. Going to Malaysia early meant i will meet her earlier and going late meant i have to meet her later. I don't mind doing so but what i mind is losing her forever.... because one year can happen so many things.... and i also don' know how to think now.....

i hope all of my friend can help me here.... to choose.... will be waiting for your reply

LoViNg SoMeOnE

2005-01-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

Loving a person without condition is harder than i ever thought. Due to dream and hope, a relationship grows stronger and more beautiful. Having to find the right one is even tougher than anything i could ever imagine. Since meeting her, my dream and future seem to flourish with her. Having her by my side is all i wish to see happening.

Happiness and love grow inside me, telling me not to give up. Is my love for her stronger that the pain she cause me? Having to look around for true happiness and someone who i can love with all my heart and someone who meant more that just a love one to me, i have found her. i found her after my 20 years of life. Going through relationship by relationship, finally i found her. Unfortunately, it will take me a life time to be with her.

Eventhough she is standing just in front of me but i can't hold her or touch her or talk to her as the one cm apart is just like a little piece of wall blocking me from getting closer. Today, she find the right one for me and it's not me. She found her happiness and dream. She has a goal and view of life knowing what to do to survive.

Yet i am here helplessly so dependent on her, waiting for her to come and love me. Holding onto me and never to leave me agian. Is love all that we need. How is love so powerful until one person dream and life can be shattered until piece after years of planning and in one second or by one word the whole thing juts blown apart. well that is what i have been expereince for the past few years anyway....

A fall will always be a fall and a rise will always be rise. Let us see where my planned dream and life will bring me.... Hope to see you come to my heart soon, my love.

Stress?

2005-01-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Well... What a day today? never imagine this to happen to me but it happen. i feel so stress out. As i just figure out my schedule for my summer and what i have to do...... i can't imagine i can survive by my own strength. i don't know what hit me also today all of the sudden i seem to suffer life crisis where all of the sudden my personal life is tuning sour as well.

I suddenly feel so lonely here in Perth, like no hope but try to pull myself out of this crisis with my own strength. i don't know how with such heavy stress and load at my shoulder but hopefully an angel can come to my life to support me. i feel like my only support has just left me and won't be found so easily.

I have always advise people to be strong and to be independent but what am i doing here? not being strong.... hate myself being this way but i guess i have to get over it. Well... i guess all i can depend on is myself now... be strong don't give up.... i have a dream to achieve.... and i should not let anyone destory it for me.....

Well tomolo is another day hope it will be better....

Wat A Sunday?

2005-01-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today, for the first time in my life i am really working and i have choose to start as a waiter. I am currently working in Noodle Inn, Habour Town for $7 per hour.... Now i can really feel the hard work, i am only earning $42 per day which i can just spend like that in less than an hour. :(

I started work at 11.30am - 5.30pm today. it was so tiring..... can you imagine a person like me working as a waiter.... i can't imagine though but i am really doing it.....

Well... That is about my job... now i have to worry about my application for PR. I wish i have enough points to apply for PR. I am so confused now.... very sad yet very confused.

Tommorow is another day... another stressful day for me. i don't know why lately have been very mang zhang. i have been scolding some of my fren and also been torturing myself by staying at home most of the time, i guess espaically to those who i am really close to... which i hate to mention but i know who boy and girl know who you are:D

anyway i feel very lost now better go take my sweet dream sleep 1st bye bye

Summer Course Started......

2005-01-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

As summer course started, my work started and so is my study..... here goes my final year in study at Perth hopefully...... :D..... Life seem to get harder and harder as i am getting older and have to face more things in the world.

Hm..... now i am going to interview on friday for a waiter job hopefully i got it so i can work hard to earn and save more money.... :D.... i want to earn enough money to start my own business and start a new life with good future prospect. currently as the Guild General Secretary.... i feel i am lucky to be here.... having a steady job and a good parents supporting my study and soon good a part time jobs.... i also met so many new friends and help me all the time.

well..... it seem interesting start for me now i guess... hope everything goes well... now.... but then i am still waiting for all my bunch of friends to come back.... i want to hang out with all of u very bored .....

New Year 2005, In Perth

2005-01-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

Well, one day has past since i came back from Malaysia after a very sweet and unforgetable trip. Meeting Yoshiko and her family as well as Hui Lin and her family were just something i can't forget. Spending time with Yo espaically is something that will be a memory for me.

I know that future cannot be predicted, therefore i just wanna say that it is an unfrogettable moment if it won't happen agian, i just wanna tell my beloved yoyo, thank you for giving me the chance to spend this wonderful one week with you. i know i might not have the chance to do so agian but i will always remember the moment and time we spend together in Perth and Malaysia.

Well.... as the topic say a brand new year.. 2005.... IT's a new year, but things seem to stay the same except for coupleof changes. Like day after day, my love for yo is getting deeper and deeper yet, we can't be together. Yoshiko has finish her degree in B.Sc. Psychology as i will be finishing my degree in Bcom Global Economics and Finance by February.

I will be continuing my Grad. Dip in Int. Relations in 2005 and expected to be a Grad. Dip Holder by 2006 and continuing finding a job and work.

Well as i say i am now in Perth but my heart is not in Perth now. i seem to miss yo so much until i am now feel so lonely and sad. hm.... i wish i can do something other than waiting and waiting. i wish i can help her go through her probelms and my own probelms too hehehe..... Yoyo, i really miss you. i know you will feel as usual i say that all the time..... :( but i really feel very lonely without you....

Wish everyone have a Happy New Year!!!!!

Meeting Someone Important

2004-12-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

It has been my fourth day in K.L. now. Yet another day past by, today yet another different thing happen.

Yesterday, i have went to Federal Hotel to eat with Hui Lin family's. It is a revolving restaurant, itis my first time of going to such restaurant. Thanks to Hui Lin's family, i am able to experience such wonderful dinner. Today, i went to another restaurant to eat.. i think is cal Hau Kee... not bad also very nice... but most wonderful thing is Hui Lin's is able to invite Yo to come along as well. They are really great and wonderful family who are so freindly.

Hm... What really make me nervous and nervous was going out for a day tour with Yoshiko, her sisters and mum. Scared me so much really very nervous. First, we go to KL Tower then to the Memorial Area for WW2 soldier and then to Starbuck near yo's house and later when to her place. Back at her place, i met her dad and chat with him. I was really nervous at first but later get a bit comfortable but Hui Lin and pick us up... Well.... that what i do today.... What is important about today was my feeling.

It was really strange as i never expect this trip and spend so long time with Yoshiko's family. It was really a good oppurtunity for me to understand Yo's family. I might not be able to be with Yoshiko but knowing her family is for the good of me. They are really such nice people like Lin's family. i really don't know i am really touch by thier warm welcoming and reception.

I might be wierd but i hope to spend more time with yo's family after today to know her parents more and to know how they might feel towards me of cause not to miss out how yo's might feel towards me. i know i am not prefect but at least i know what standard i am in thier eye... good? or bad? Some people may say as long as you love her, you no need to worry about the parents but to me i guess after Steph incident's i will consider about what the parents feel towards me and i wish to show them what i am capable at and what is my good and bad points not to hide anything from them. Hope they will like me. :D

Well that's for today...... updated all of you soon

The Changing Phase Of Life

2004-12-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

It has been ahwile since i feel my life is changing agian. It all come along as i was having my holiday in Malaysia since 22 December 2004, where i am at still. I have enter the country with full of worries and blurness at first until meet my love one, Yoshiko and couple of freinds here as well as my cousin in Malaysia. It shows to me that i am incapable of working in Malaysia and it is stupid for me to give up my oppurtunity to continue my study when i still have chance.

Many thoughts have came to my mind as days past by between Yo and me. She has not only influence my decision a lot but my personality. I know i might not be the guy for her now or in the future but her continue support towards me as a friend is really amazing which i wish it will last forever. During the down time, you may be the cruelest person towards me and hurt me the most but you have show me the different side of friendship and love. I know you are of a different kind from me and i am not the ideal person for you but yet you give me the oppurtunity to try to understand you more and guide me to become a better person. I have decided now that if i got the chance to do my further studies i will take the chance and i will be a successful person and fulfil my dreams.

Between two of us, i really hope that the time will tell. I will leave it to the fate and trust that is inside me. I know i haven't been a very lucky person for my entire life in term of love and suffer many failure cause by myself in entering the wrong relationship but i will never give up hope of taking another chance. So there will not be different this time, knowing you have a bf i will not give up hope that there might be a chance for us to be together. People always say Love is Blind. it is true love is blind and Love is also unfair.

As for my Dine Dine cehceh, the word you say to me before is still in my head. I know i am stubborn when i choose to go after Yo. You have told me to take any consequence i should take for my actions. i will never forget that and keep it in my mind that everything i do now might have a sudden attack on me causing myself to be hurt once more but i have enter this passage and i will fight my through the tough road.

As for Hui Lin, i know you have been there helping me without complaining, i know you have been very understanding and try to help me espaically during times of trouble and sometime give you a lot of difficulties like staying at your place and driving me around and to meet Yoshiko.... Thanks for being such a nice friend and support me. Have a good time in Malaysia...

As for Tiffany and Kah Mun, thanks for being there to listen to my probelms and share our time together in Perth and Malaysia (although it is short) but it is meaningful. I really feel that sometimes i should just don;t have any gf and love life. Fully enjoy my friendship life happily without worrying about all those probelm.. hehehe.... but too bad i can't cause i met Yo.

And to all my friends, thanks ..... thankss..... thanksss...... i wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Every year is a new beginning to a new chapter of a new story.... hope all of you will have a good year. This year i might have a very unhappy year... but i will never give up striving for the better year coming ahead.

I will updated my trip in Malaysia soon... i will leave today blog for this... :D summary.. met some very very cute, nice, funny and kind people like Hui Lin family's, Yoshiko family's and Mun family's.

Finally the end of my sister wedding

2004-12-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

Well... Here come the end of my sister wedding. Everyone is going back today.. all my relatives from K.L., K.K. and Singapore. What a tiring week.... anyway i would like thanks for those who sent me birthday msg and mail from nic nic cehceh, Kenny koko and david koko.... and the rest :(....

Now... everything is over, i can come back to my room and sleep but only for one more night and flying off to K.L. tomolo. ;)... Packing my stuff now going back to PERTH soon where i have to start paying my own bill etc.... :( clean my own plates and wash my own clothes. hm... thinking about it i seem to have a lot of things to do nest year but i won;t give up. i hope everyone of you won't give up as well on anything you do... thanks for bieng there for me all these while hehehehe. today will be a short blog coz too tired to type... update soon.

My Sister Wedding Day 1 & Birthday

2004-12-18T17:22:00.000+08:00

17 Dec 2004

My sister wedding dinner.

What a busy day..... From waking up till going to sleep. First in the moring i was asked to pick up my bro-in-law eledest bro from the airport then go to the hotel, have to check all the audio system for the grand hall ensuring the PA system work properly to feature my sister VCD those she created a short few minutes for showing her life story and my bro-in-law life story. then have to do the tea ceremony. after that i have to become Usher, communicator between my parents and the hotel staffs to ensure the banquet goes smoothly, then i have to take photograph hm... multi tasking :P at the end of the day, i am so exhauasted and very tired.... and was pretty upset because no one remember my birthday....at 12 midnight.

when the clock near 12 midnight, i receive a call and it is all the way from Malaysia..... wishing me happy birthday. i was so happy at least one person so far remember my birthday until later before 1am i receive two message from malaysia and brunei. It is from Hui Lin and Dolly, i was so touch they actually remember my birthday too. :D. hm... bad to all my relatives and family forget my birthday hahahaha. just joking i know they are busy with my sis wedding and forget about my birthday. so this year i forgive them but hopefully next year they will give me a big present.

No matter what, i still would like to thank Yo for being the first person to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i am really happy to know you remember, hehehehe. You're the BEST.

Still i will thank, Jason, Sherman and Dine Cehceh for wishing me Happy Birthday when i come online. The REST of You will get from me soon espaically Tiffy, Nic Cehceh, Kenny Koko, Candice, Stiener, David Koko, Mun and those who haven't say happy birthday to me :P. I will humt all of you down hahahahahahaha. :D

Hope to see all of you soon. :P

Result is Out, Where Am I From Now

2004-12-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

Well it has been awhile since i last posted :D. but this time there will be some good news i have pass all my unit this semester agian. thank god. i guess all of this not only thank to myself but thanks to Yoshiko cause she has always been there for me and support me. she has always been there to scold me and to ensure i will pass all my units. At first i really very pissed off coz someone is there bugging me but now i feel if not becuase she care about my result and me, she won't even bother to do that.

i am very happy that she pass all her units and with a pretty good result also. i really feel so different now... is like 2 more units left before i finish my degree and i really hope i can pass all unit and become a degree graduate. that what i hope for now.

As for my 2005, should i graduate and work or should i continue study and work as gen sec of the guild? i really don't know now hm... wish i have an answer soon.

I was also thinking about should i go Malaysia/Brunei/Perth, if i choose to graduate.

Now i know how it feel when you goona graduate. Most important thing of all, i no longer the same as before many have told me. i guess it is true, i have become more stubborn and more firm in my decision. No longer,i give up my love so easily.

Yoyo?Yoyo? how important is this gal to me actually? Am i really willing to scarifise? How much do i love her? can i really leave without her? Is she the one? is she what i want?

Well, answer is YES, she is very important, i am willing to scarifise, i love her alot, i think she is the one, she is the one and NO, i can't live with her. this is because my lifestyle and everything about me have change. it is hard to say what goona happen in the future but i believe if she give em the chance we can make it through.

i know i am not prefect, i know i am not the ideal person but i know i can make u happy if u give me the chance. i will try my best to ensure u feel like the happiest gal alive. no matter what, u are now my everything. i used to tell u, u are just below my family and now u are the same as them. you are as important as them. Hope you know, you mean so much to me and losing you is like cutting my own flesh and give it away. i can't bear to lose you. i know you really very pissed off with me and you hate me now for bothering u so much.i will try my best to control myself not to bother u anymore as well.... eventhough i am asking for u to give me chance, i guess u need some quiet time.

Btw, i am going to malaysia agian on 23 Dec and going to Perth on 26 Dec. and this remind me that my last trip was not that great but it is nice to find out that hui lin, you r really so great in helping me and care about me and mun thanks for letting staying over at ur place and thanks to tat weng for picking me up from the airport and thanks to gina for accompany for one day. lastly thanks to YO, for giving me a chance to meet u even tough is short, but it will me in my heart.

My time in Singapore and Brunei

2004-12-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

Well......

i thought i have post up my update when i am in singapore i guess i missed. thnaks to stiener and candice i am able to enjoy a wonderful day trip out..

They bring me to newton food centre, commonwealth food centre and orchard rd to shop... and also many more places.... most importantly is i have fun day out with them. :D

thanks alot.

Well going back to Brunei was a hassel. for second time in a row i got problem with my flight. this time is the ground staff put me at the wrong flight. i supposedly to fly off on 29th nov but they put me on 28th nov to brunei, My carelessness for not checking the boarding pass as well on the date. :(... but thanks got Singapore airline willing to pay for my flight to fly to Brunei using RBA on the same day.

Back to Brunei.... finally meet my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother in law and some of my frens... orh.. forgot my sister new puppy, Hazel. Well what can i say a totally new place here, not only the city area change my whole town seem to have a whole new changeover and my house as well.

My Tutong House

Well now, we got sattelite in place which allows me to watch so many otehr channel espaically the chinese one... wahh... so great leh... so long never watch chinese movie laiw... miss it so much.

My Sister place in the City (BANDAR)

Well is rented a pretty big house, which she only pay less that $200 per month coz the goverment pay the rest as she is a goverment employee. :D there i enjoy my stay espaically the spacacious living room where i sleep all day watch DVD and ASTRO and now watching the Series, "Seed of Hope" at Wah Lai Toi, Weekdays 8.30pm, repeat at 2am and 10.30 am. :D. don't forget to watch orh....

As for my family, Well they are now so busy everyone preparing for my sister wedding... when i hear the numebr they goona invite i was shock it is up to 630people incld up to like 200 relatives from Malaysia, Singapore and Brunei. everyone is so busy for the wedding. hm... luckily is not mine... hahaha stilla logn way to go...

Well my sister brought a PRADO hm... so nice lah one family can go out wihtout any probelms since now is like 5 person travelling. and My house now have like 5 cars hehehe... My mum have a Nissan Laurel, my dad have a Toyota Corrolla for him to go work, My Sister have a Honda Accord, My brother in law have a Toyota Crown and My Bro-in-law and Sister have a Prado. :D so now i m driving my sister Accord yeah..... :D...

Well that's the happy thing in Brunei, bad news is that, i am so bored and miss Yoyo so much... Hope she is around always... so sad... Lately keep quarrelling with her isn;t that happy anyway. Well i guess that what happen when you love someone who is in love with someone else and is attached. :(. have to wait for them to deattached 1st then you might have a chance.

This time in Brunei, really make me so clear how much more important you are to me. i know it is not the same case for you because you don't have the same feeling as me. i really hope i can see you soon. life with you is really so hard. Now it keep me wondering what happen if you are not going back to study will i continue study or not? should i go to Malaysia and work or what. :D But i guess i have my pathway set.. and either way, i will still choose not to lose you. i will fight till the end and hopefully the star and moon will shine towards us. hopefully the nature of love and power of love will be with us.

I have been counting since day 1 and now it is only 2 days away from me stepping into the same zone with you, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. See you soon dear.

Last before my blog for today ends, i really wanna thanks everyone of my freinds who is planning my trip to KL orh.. and espcially Hui Lin. Well,thanks for everyting you did in Perth, i am so sorry that i can' help you much with a lot fo things, espaically packing & the rent thingy. hope you will forgive me. becuase i kinda feel bad though.... :D anyway i will always remember ur kindness :D take care....

1st day out of Australia

2004-11-28T23:02:00.001+08:00

Hm... finally i am out of Australia after almost a year there without seeing any family members. Hope i will make use of my one month in Malaysia, Singapore & Brunei to visit all my relatives and freinds.

Well now, i am at singapore at stiener's place. sleeping over.... :D. met his mum quite a funny person though... her mum.... and also very freindly... i guess most importantly it is not that about that in my trip. i have been eating all day with stiener and candice. thanks to them i go to so many food centre and shop for my blur queen, yoyo present. It was a pretty hard decision to make espaically for someone you love.... this will be her first birthday i goona celebrate with her and hopefully not the last one.

Hope she will love my present for her. It is nothing big or fancy but it is my heart to her. A gift that mean more than just a gift. A gift that mean my love and my promises to her. A gift that mark the beginning of our relationship evolution, from strangers to hopefully eternally together.

MSG to my Yoyo:- You may not be my first love or my first gf, but you certianly is the gal i love now. no one can your destiny and fate for being love by me. i know it seem strange to everyone, how can i be sure that i really love you when we just got to know each other for like not more than 3 months. But i certianly think time is not a matter but just a number. this few months knowing you really give me a chance to open up myself once agian and cheerish something more than just myself or to take a different pathway to add you into my life. every decision i made i have to think about u and how u will feel. further my study, where am i going to be when i finish, where should we stay in the future etc. It might be a big change but i think it is worth it because you are not a normal type of gal that i can find just anyway i want. but of the the kind who knows how to care about a person when you needed to, understand me, presuade me, nice and sweet to me and many more which make you special. i relaly miss you, just a short two day apart i have make more than 20 calls within 48 hours and talk to you on the phone for more than 5hours. i guess now is a good time to train ourselve up for it and i beleive we can overcome it.

tomolo i will be back to my hometown, Tutong, brunei and really don't know how it look like after one year but i guess should be more the less the same. update everyone!!! soon... bye for now

Ending My Reign and Exam

2004-11-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

Time has fly so fast. It was at this time last year, i am preparing myself as isc convenor 2004 and now i have to give up all the expectation and hope. I was told that i shouldn't expect my incoming committee that they will countinue some of my expectation. Well i guess i have to say it is true now after one year of figthitng hoping it won't be true.

I feel very disappointed sometime in the sense that, none of them really believe in the bureaucratic way of doing things. Sometimes, i feel it is a lost cost to actually do so much becuase no one actually acknowledged all your effort. Worst feeling is that, they don't believe you should get involved in thier wild fresh useless ideas sometimes. I feel that we have gone through that same phrase sometimes that they have to understand that that is what we as honourary members exists and don't wish to see our works go down under.

For example, a five year strategic plan is indeed a reasonable plan that a strong organisation should have to grow. We have to learn to give up the selfishness of just doing well for our term and forget about how our members in the future will benefits from it. i feel such behavioural is unacceptable and is not professional. Secondly, the rules and regulations of the committee, it is not to be said that only big issues or common factor should be add in rules and regulations but also unexepected circumstances.

We represent the benefits of international students interest not only those who are currently studying but also those who are going to study in the campus in the future. If every year, the committee decided not to have any long term achievement so that the students can benefits from it, there is no point we has a peak represenative body exists because we are just like all those international students clubs. The whole point, we differentiated ourselves from them is becuase we are more structured and have long-term and strong representation ground to support us as a representative body.

Over my period of one year, i am sad to say that i were not able to make use of my term wisely to presue everything i wish to achieve due to my slack behaviour and lack of communication with my officer. It was not only that but also i should blame myself for the huge drop out rate over the months.

Well that all, i can say. i know TIFFANY will do well to ensure the organisation grow and expand properly. i feel it is time that i let go and concentrated my new interest on my guild and ensuring it work closely with all the department and not only ISC. Although ISC is my blood now but i guess if i keep interrupting the way they wish to run, i will just destory the purpose of letting Tiffany be the convenor. Her capability is more that just anyone could imagine. She is so great that i see that under her leadership those people will ensure the ISC will expand and grow for years to come even under the VSU.

MSG for my Pretty Tiffy, It has been a pleasure to work with you this year. it might not the the greatest moment of your time but it certianly is mine. i know many of my plans doesn't seem to work 100% well for you due to different opinions but we have always come the same conclusion for the better of student representation. i know till now, 5 year plan to you is a NO thing but i hope you will reconsider the whole aspect of how professionalism and ensure ISC will not be destory even under VSU which will be a hell of the year, you have to fight in your term... thanks to the Liberal Party winning the majority of the senate seats in the elections. BEST of LUCK okie Dear!!!!!

As to all the incoming if you do read my blog, Next year will seem to be the new age of ISC golden era after the regime of Sia family in 2000 and 2001, where ISC was aknowledged by university for the first time for whole of ISC history. CHECK OUT THE CERT in the office. I couldn't have stress more, you GALS certianly are capable of a lot things all over the committee with different talents, i hope all of you will make use of it. Cetianly i will still stress, never to limit your goals and expectation to just your year but broaden it up and create the start of a new culture. All expect more than what you can achieve because it always better to ahve more than less.

SO BYE TO ISC Convenor 2004 term for me and well if anyone need any help feel free to drop by my General Secretary Office in the Guild for a chat.....

That the end of my ISC Term.... As for my exam... good news is that my tutor increase my mark from 7/20 to 14/20.... told you, he is a bastard for scaring me like that. So far i have finished 3 exams and i feel pretty confident that i should have no probelm to finish my degree by summer 2005. It has been a hell tough time for me espaically it is for the first time i was lost with what i want to do when i graduated. I guess most importantly i have to thanks all my friends around me espaically my one and only one Yoshiko..... she has been so great over the past 2 months. Without her, i don't think i can survive all the fall that i have encounter over this period. Although we cannot be together now, but i believe in you and myself, fate and destiny will pull us together one day. When its' come i hope with will be eternal, because you are just one of the most gorgeous person i ever meet over my entire life.

My special msg to you is that, Thanks for the wonderful time you have spent with me eventhough you are busy with your study and MCW. You have showed me the gateway to several success over the short period of times and always be there for me. Not only so, you are also a great cook, great person to be with, good listener, and most importantly, you don't hate me after all this while for what i have make you gone through. LET OUR DESTINY AND FATE GUIDE OUR PATH TO AN ETERNAL LOVE RELATIONSHIP.

........Opsss.... Forget about my acknowledgement, without all of you like Naomi, Huey Ying, Tiffany, Phang, Joey, Nicole, Candice, David, Stiener, Kenny and many more............ Jacky Teo will not be The Jacky Teo if you all never show up.......

Love you Guys and Gals,
Jackz

Pissedd and lost

2004-11-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

Well.... it is my pissing session now.

For the first time, i feel unjust with the bloody helll tutor for giving me 7/20 for my participitation mark for finance (international)... who the hell attend all classes and do all the presentation and contribute to the class can get so low mark... i am rellay gonna screww himm upside down.... ergh..... and then my another unit only got 6.5/10 another unhappy mark to appeal... welll that is my study.... other than that..... i really have to say... i am very sad and angry... felt like being used here. everytime, when some people asked for my help either they didn;t asked my directly themselves and make a turn around and ask someone to ask me or they are being rude/ bossing me around and asked me to do things... what kind of society are with at today... i feel very much betray.... well that is just to bitch around..... i guess i am like that lah.... say laiw feel better like now.....

anyway... for most of you who asked me nicely and sweet.. thanks orh.... i don;t mind helping... actually just that i like to be treat nicely when people is asking for help instead of bossing me around or don't ask me directly and asked someone else then asked me.... well it has to depend on the situation guess... certian things is ok but certian things cannot like that mah....

well... i am now veyr much lost... i was thinking of installing security alarm system and central locking but it will cost me $550.... i really wish to get the system... but i am really not sure should i do it or not... because it is like close to $700 in total in brunei dollar.

anyway that about that... but hope i will get an answer from my head soon...

Last but not least, i wish that miss yoshiko tey... will accept me soon lor..... she is really a great person... and of cuase she is just the best one lor... 1st and only gal that i love so much who is not only great bbut born in the year of 1984 rat and december... and just 8 days apart our birthday... :D all i wanna say she is the most wonderful person i ever wish to be with now..... i know it will be near to impossible espaically in this current situation.... but i hope i will come through it and you will either...

Exam is coming up and i am lost... my term is finishing soon also... i will miss it.... tell you guys more about it when i am finishing offcially...

The World is Full of Surprises

2004-10-26T01:47:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile since I know what I want. For weeks, I have been wondering what is the right and wrong.

As my good friends all say, I have gone through so much bumps and repeating the weirdo cycle. WHY AM I HERE AGAIN? No doubt I can tell anyone of you that this time will be the one that make a difference. As you all know, she is Yoshiko Tey Mee Ho and how can I say that she will not be my gf nor can I say she will choose me after all this while.

It is true Kenny say, if I really love someone I should take the risk and it is also true what dine cehceh say, I have to bear the consequences and what came along. There is no one I can blame but myself if anything goes wrong. Yet alone, I choose to move on and pursue the unimaginable pathway to love her with all my heart.

Through my circle of friends, there is mixed feeling about this issue I know. Especially, Dine Cehceh, Tiffany, Candice, David Koko, Nic nic cehceh, Kenny Koko and Uncle Steiner (hehehehe)….. and also those I don’t mention… I wish I had an answer to explain to all of you how actually I feel about her and what might lie ahead of me. :D

It is also now that I thank Stephanie Tan for everything…. If not because of her, I won’t meet YoYo…. Who is extremely adorable, sweet, loving; yet annoying sometimes hehehe. But most importantly, she is gorgeous and pretty deep inside my heart. If it is because of Steph, I wouldn’t have choose this pathway to go after YoYo…. as well…..She has make me stronger and think more for myself plus taking into the consideration of what the opposite sex might think and feel.

Well this is the story of an exceptional love case. Where for the fourth time in my past 19 years and 10 month of life, I have fall in love with a girl who already has a boyfriend. All I can say every story has a beginning and ending, it is up to the girl and me to choose how we would like to end it. This time, is harder than before, the ending is yet unknown and unclear. It is true she has a boyfriend but that alone doesn’t stop or conclude our story because I choose to write the story and pursue till the end. I believe in myself and her that my true loves will one-day touches her heart. it will been when all my friends will see the seed grow into a small plant and later become a big tree that will grow even stronger and bigger as time goes.

Today, it wish to thank all the spirit of my circle of friends for everything, including the newly-added member to ISC Buddy Group, Kah Mun, Tat Weng and Hui Lin….of coz not to miss out my beloved one… Yoyo… :P… this is my blog and so I will make it as touchy and “rou ma” as I want hehehe. Take to all who read my blog…
Last but not least, my exam is coming up…. Nov 1, 5 question/ 8 question to finish in 1 hrs…arr….and 3 presentation and one major assignment…. All in one week time… best of luck to myself…. And all I wish for is not to receive the same welcoming as last few experience during this time…. The gal I love hurt me… so if yoyo read this please, don’t come up with any sort of pain and hurtful stuff and repeat the curse…. Of killing me with love problems… hehehehe…. Just joking…. But I do hope one day, you will really give me the chance to be with you….. and not just as a very good friend like now…. So let the time tells…..

Lost in the blue sky

2004-10-12T14:02:00.000+08:00

Sometime i wonder how i can survive in the world full of love and being in love. For the past few months, I have been questioning myself how is it like to be in love and not to fall in love agian. till today, i still haven't got my answer yet.

i know i am in love before with a gal and thought she will be in my heart for a very long time but today i found out that i have fall in love with another gal.

Many freinds have advised me that not to go after this gal becuase she is attached. but i have refused to listen for some reasons and problems i have learn from the past.

Theory say that, if you love a person so much then learn to let go and if she is happy you will be happy. we shouldn't be selfish and must learn to let go. for years i learn this theory, which make me lost so many people and hurt myself so much that i feel like i want to give up my life once.

Today is a day which i have o choose agian. between giving up the person i love so much and let her love the another person and don't try it out. or should i take the risk and try to make it work out.

there has been an old saying that, if we try we at least have some chance of succeeding but if we give up now we will always find failure only.

I am now really lost between the two principle.... which one is the best????

gttg now people i am too tired to type now will continue laterzz....

Second day of Bad Luck

2004-10-04T16:21:00.000+08:00

Over the weekend, Sunday 3rd of October 2004 happen to be my second day of bad luck. As i was about to pump my bicycle and use the pump broke into half and leave me with no choice but to ask for help from Tiffany.

Not only so as, Tat Weng driving tiffany's car and bring me to Karawara Shell station, another bad luck took place, where there is no hose and the air pumping system at all. Thus it has force me to go all the way down to BP at the end of Manning Road to pump the tyre.

Sometime i wonder why am i in such a luck.... it has been a bad enough day for me already and yet more bad luck occured. i really don't know what to do. Life seem like full of unwanted surprises.

i the least thing i wish it won't happen has happen also.... i feel helpless sometime espcially when i am not able to be with the person i love. i wish that she can be the one who give me confident and strength as well as the one who pull me out of misery and pain. at this moment i am starting to doubt my dependecny of this girl. she has meant so much for me since my recovery. i really wish i will not have to lose her this time and able to be with her. i know it may seem impossible at the current state as i was not sincere enough and good enough for her. i do hope once i can become a better person and able to show my sincereness, she will accept me.

Super Unlucky Day

2004-10-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 2 October 2004, is now recorded as my super unluckiest day of the year losing more than a $1000....... many may wonder why i lost so much me.

Let me explain the whole story. it started as a fine good morning and everything seem do be fine and ended just prefect. but till 10.30pm when i discoverd my car being break in, parking near canning college, the basketball court area.

i ahve lost my CD Player cost $200, my trench coat cost $200, my USB Drive $120, my three percious scarf priceless.... because hand-made by my mum, my freind and given by my niece, My MCW'04 T-shirt, my green zip shirt. :(

further to that, i just check my exam result which i didn;t do well for it.... :( damn unlucky 2 bad news in like 10 minutes which ruins my whole day.

i really don't know now.... i feel like running into a bad luck zone agian.... and the only way to get out of it will be hoping the person i love to give me all the support, i need to pull me out of this mess.

life is full of surprises..... everytime i meet my ex... something bad sure happen in like one week period. ergh..... hope i won't need to meet her agian.....

well..... thats for my unlucky day.... :(

Election ENDSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-09-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

Today.... Election finished..... free from the politics behind elections and i wish that i no longer have to touch it for this year hopefully unless my senior need me too. :D.

I have won the the position for Guild General Secretary 2005....and my fellow freind Esther low has won Business Div Rep and Tiffany the incoming successor of ISC Convenor.... as for the rest hope i will know by tommorrow

Yet so near Yet so far

2004-09-15T19:00:00.000+08:00

LIFE seem going pretty well after all this while. Making new friends, having a chance to run in Student Guild election as well as ISC election.

Until today....... when i see one site, where i realise my beloved one say such a touching thing to her bf. it make me wonder now, how is it like if i never show up in between them. i really wish all of those past never happen so they can stay in the innocent couple life. :(

Today, it is also the day where i know i have new freinds like Yoshiko, Hui Lin and Regina. They are three "psycho" people. They are also one of the most interesting people i ever met in my life. one being so "unique" in the way she react to situation which is so unusual to today society. Another one being so independent and caring to others, looking after everyone. and the last one being so hyper always and never seem to be sad even if she is angry and upset.

And yet my life seems to move on from the issue which nearly cause my study and work to go downunder. Yet it seems like it is still part of me. i really don't know now. the issue seems so near yet so far.

University Life and My Stress

2004-08-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

Well..... it has been two week since uni start.... but what can i say, i haven;t got all my textbook yet and worst of all, i am not even prepared for my next week presentation :P. sometime i just wonder what the hell am i doing in uni.

well i guess i am just in holiday mode still hehehe. but this semester i beleive i can do better with only one mid semester test. and the rest are assignment and presentation.

thats my life in term of study. as for the rest, now i met two new friend, tat weng and kah mun. :D thanks to tiff though coz is her fren. they are just so great to hang around with espaically at a time like this where i lost my most precious one, ST. Since we broke up, life seem to be a mess and just liek last saturday when i go to south perth. Amazingly she enter my mind agian.

At that moment at that time at that place, it is like the memory of her suddenly pop out. We were once at south perth sitting down at the bench look towards te city and spending our time at that place. it is one of the sweetest moment i have with her altough it is short. well some say this is just past and forget it. but to me i guess, this is my past and also my memory which i will kept with me.

hahaha, funny right suddenly think back about such nonsense as many of my koko and cehceh will say espaically, dine cehceh , david koko and nic nic ceh ceh. :D well cant miss out the oak kai po TSSK A.K.A Tit pan min. :P

oh.... last but not least, i finally meet up with my angel mentor Hui Ying and also my good fren candice and stiener.... finally we gonna have our monthly dinner agian yeah....... i am looking forward to that. ..... till next time.... bye bye

ISC, Curtin Little Boy. No longer siao titi :P
KNS to those u always say me siao titi in the DIRTY MINDED WAY :P

Happy Person

2004-07-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

Well… Well….. I have watch two movie in a row, Tuesday and Wednesday. Guess what…. I am so happy now as everything seems to go the way I wanted it to be for once.

First, I am able to watch I Robot then I have watch Law of Attraction. :D then now my favourite mentor, Huey Ying is back in Perth…. And miss her so much.

Secondly, ISC office is finally complete after today furniture. Yeah… we got heater at last and also air cooler during summer. :P

After that, I am happy to know my beloved deputy convenor will be continuing with ISC. Yahoo!!!!!.

Well, that something nice for once. PLUS I would like to thanks all my friends in FLAT 42 for the nice food yesterday…. It is great….. Happy Man at last for once…

Repairing the damages

2004-07-21T02:15:00.000+08:00

Well.... now i have repair my car due to the damage cause by the theft. so what can i do after that. it has make me broke costing me up to about $200 in total to repair the window and make new keys. hope the person who stole my stuff will hit by a car and get seriously injured....

but who cares about that anymore. now i am so busy with my ISC stuff hoping that everything will go well for the second half of the semester. i have finish typing my letter and now doing my ISC report and also writing my delegate report for NLCAC'04. so tiring leh.... so many things to do... it is like writing an assignment with up to 15-20 pages of work to write.... and then still need to recheck my grammar and spellung mistake before my deputy convenor start complaining.

anywayz.... guess where i am agian... same old place at flat 42.... my second home where i go online and chat....... hehehehe. hope all my executives is doing well at thier jobs and hope to see my isc goes to the top form this semester

LOST MY HOUSE KEY

2004-07-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Today, i was being robbed not personally though... just my car.... i have lost my nice middle compartment which inside the compartment is my house key and handsfree set... :( and now my rear passanger seat window is broken and i have to repair it....

people say when we go pray should feel say... but what a day... being rob after finish praying. well i guess it is fated so no comment....

but now i am kinda happy though eating hot pot at my friends place at FLAT 42... what a nice people they are... for treating me hot pot.... very sweet of them.... anyway now i am in this sweet gal room playing internet like yesterday....

spending time with her is fun and interesting.... she and her group of friends can really mke me luagh and happy... i don't know why but it make me feel that way.... i am so luck to have a lot of such type of friend... one group is my cehceh and koko group... the long lasting ISC group,.. then my isc executives... and now this bunch of friends... now i feel i am ery lucky because although it is without stephanie it seem like my life is still full of joy and happiness with all of them around.....

Days after training in AC

2004-07-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

What a boring time i have in perth....... it has been 7 days after AC finsih and i feel so lost with my life full of boredom..... although there is so much of boredom.... there is some up and down as well.

my result waas released at 14 july 2004..... it was such a great day for me as i am able to pass all. other than that i have watch to movie over the pass one week, King Arthur and Spiderman 2... :D

well i guess that is all for my fun time over the week. i have been sleeping at home most of the time spending like 17 hrs sleeping 3 hours playing games and 4 hours doing stupid stuff.... :D

now i am in FLAT 42, ERICA Underwood... at one of my friends place and one of the most craziest place in Perth, with people like Amandaa......, Cherrieeeee..... and Diannaaaaaa......threee little kidz..... :P

well hope next week will be a great week as orientation week at Curtin Uni will be starting soon..... and also i will be waiting to meet ISC Angel, huey ying arrival hope to see her back in perth soon...... miss her ya....... everyone please askkkkk her to come back to perth soon.... life is so sien without her here......

Bad day

2004-06-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

What a day today.... i was so sick that i slept at Starbuck coffee for like 4 hrs... :D. hehehe. but what is nice is that i am able to drink my coffee at starbuck and almost everyday.

finally, i start my shopping i got a FCUK t-shirt for $19 and a shoe for $100 tommorow i might go get the giodarno jacket for $130 hehehe. so fun shopping here. but without money it is really suffering so many things to get and so expensive. :D

orh.. forget to tell. the backpackers is getting worst everyday don't know why. it seem like the weather is getting colder and i start to feel it is freeze in the backpackers and the smell is just unbareable. i might stay up late at crown casino lobby today and come back and sleep early in the morning.

Trip to melbourne

2004-06-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

wel.. My second in melbourne. not bad for a start i guess. but i can imagine how bad this trip could get if i haven't solve my probelm before coming.

first, i have problem with my financial becuase my freind unable to gte online and transfer the fund so pretty bad enough for me. but it's alright becuase not her fault is the banking system. then my housemate not willing to pay me the bill money damn shit.... further to that cause me trouble in my accomadation because she didn't tell me, my friend in melbourne is leaving which my friend told her to tell me. ergh..... lucky i found a backpacker later... :D anyway now i am safe and sound with my life going pretty fine. hanging around with Tedy and Elisabeth here and there. hehe.

We has just went to Chapel St, South Yarra. pretty fun :D. later we will be going to play pool agian yeah...... So that for today... oh.. forget about yesterday.... i was going out with my god sister, Chrsitine to Crown Casino where we go and play games and watch "Day after tommorow" what a nice movie like it so much .... espaically the graphics... :D

anyway i am looking for to spend more time here so see how it goes... :P

2004-06-24T13:55:00.000+08:00

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A Day i call saturday

2004-06-20T18:38:00.000+08:00

Well.... it have been a pretty bored day for me. however, i did go watch movie with my good freind tiffy and joey.... :D harry porter.... :D. then i was playing game the whole day after that and wondering what a life i have.

Exam, Relationship, Family and Work what is all this. is life must be tough at certain stages just to make a person grow stronger and tougher. can't we eventually developed to become strong and tough as we grow without suffering so much.... hm... well i guess people always say, we will not learn if we don't suffer or get some hard time... well anyway it is one very boring saturday.....

A peaceful day

2004-06-19T02:09:00.000+08:00

Well... for the first time is many weeks.... i experienced a very peaceful day. Nothing seem to be very bad today. Exam goes pretty well.... university seem peaceful. and freinds are all quite happy.

i went to the airport today to send of candice and stiener. wat a sad thing gonna miss her so much and steiner also he brought so much fun to me at perth :D.

then just now i have coffee session with my nicole cehceh and tiffany... wah talk about our childhood story so fun.... they are really great being with them really cheer me up alot wish nicole cehceh will still stay here after she graduate gonna miss her so much too... it seem like evryone is leaving after this semester and my good friends are getting lesser. :(

nvm, i know in my heart they will always be around with them all around me i will happy and strong. oh.. forget about the most important thing, i was chatting with mie mie :D guess who.... well find out yourself. she is just so wonderful such a good listenner and adviser, i was like chatting with her for almost an hour... she is just so great... love chatting with her... she know so much stuff and most importantly she is a saggi... same as me hehehe.

i love all of them so much so nice and sweet... thanks guys you are the best

Exam today

2004-06-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

WTF? today is really a hell day. 1st have my exam which i did so badly and don't know whether i can pass or not and then my university make my life even difficult.

Ok let me tell you what happen. My international office in curtin university is telling us that they don't serve current international students anymore and just prospective international students. what kind of services is that. they added that such services for current student will be shifted to Student central. Do they even know how long the queue is at student central during the first few week of uni. What do they think we are really cash cow is it. WE pay about hundred thousand dollar and yet they don't want to serve us specially. DAMN Uni..... Well hope my next move will get the massage across may all the god be with me and stop this miniac from doing silly things.

So that is my uni..... as for my exam hm... another paper tommmorow at 3.30 pm so scared now need to study hard..... soooo no much time in writing this blog...

hope things will get better, really scared now.... life is getting tougher day by day... and my time is running short in doing all my things. now i feel so lonely and just wish to go back brunei and meet my parents who love me so much and pretty sister. :D hope they are all fine and stay healthy.

Exam Around The Corner

2004-06-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hm... exam is like 12hrs and yet i only start studying for the paper. well that's me being lazy and sad. today aren't that good either. i was so stupid just going university to see her and hoping to make myself feel better and study but who knows it turn out to be worst cause she was holding her so-called ex-bf hand and walking to the car. i am so disappointed and frustrated. i am here thinking about her and supporting her and yet she do this to me. but what can i say love is always unfair just that it has been unfair to me for the past 5 years of my life.

well she really pisses me off but still i miss her don;t know why, wish i can get over her. anyway thanks to her, i have an excuse of not study bad me huh.... always so unlucky near exam such things happen. happen to me in 2000, 2001, 2003 and 2004. 4 out of my last 5 year. break up with my first girlfriend in 2000 one week before my major 'O' level exam. In 2001, thanks to my so sweet lover make me half hanging and don;t know what to do and later happen agian in 2003 make me suffer from major depression for the whole year. finally get over it late last year. and this new girl came in and thought she will make a different outcome who know it happen to be the same. few days before my assignment due and one of my major paper and two week before my other final paper. :( what a LIFE?

ok enough with that. EXAM and study, hmm think about it i have some friend who are keep on supporting me like just now, i went to easy way with Cherrie and Amanda accompanying me. they were so nice although this is the first time i go out with them. and there i met zoey and her friends which make me think of steph well too bad. other than them, i have all my cehceh here like nicole and dine, candice, stiener & tiffany my good friend as well as my koko, david and kenny. they are all so nice to always cheer me up and talk to me. so happy to have them around but sad thing after next semester this group will split up coz some r graduating. :(

okie i guess now i need to go back to study if not my $1500 is gone. hehehe my graduation prize money :D thanks to my beloved sister and parents.

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2004-06-16T10:52:00.000+08:00

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One Day Before My First Paper Exam

2004-06-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

Well... Come and think about it. i haven't been studying for the past one week niether have i concentrate on my study. it is so hard to know what i want. i keep telling myself and my freind around me i am fine etc but actually i am not. i miss her so much and yet i can't get in touch with her. she seem to be in my mind 24/7 and nothing can take her away. i try not to think about her but it seem to be just so hard, i play game and talk to other, yet she still in my mind after that. i really don't know what to do to forget her. i am now so scared exam is like tommorrow and yet i only study two chapter of my book out fo 5 for the friday paper. and tommorrow paper none at all. i guess i better focus on my study first. hell it is a tough time, i wish she understand that i am now in a hell mode but can't express to her that cause i know she is also in a trouble mode. all the best for her and for myself... :)